Venting relapse

[mashiroll]

couple o years down the drain. i think im getting a lot worse than i am before. there are days id be too tired out of my mind to even cut my wrist but i do miss and revel in hurting myself when these thoughts come by. i feel as though ive been atoned for, but i dont like what it says about me. though it feels good, and i guess it'll work in a pinch. only struggle is just hiding it, but ill manage.