yoomi
yoomiko
- Aug 14, 2023
- 27
Besides dreaming about sweet relief of death, what's something that brings you joy?
Well Anyway... Moving on.It makes me happy when I haven't eaten anything all day and the number on the scale keeps dropping. I'm anorexic.
The idea that maybe I can invent a time machine to go and fix the ridiculous mess that is my past, oh and whilst I am there remember to slap myself in the face, or better yet, knock myself out more like it, and tell myself to wake up from the denial and stop being a Narsissitic prick as that is only hurting myself in the end, oh and tell myself that my mother didn't raise me, she only abused me btw, and that's why I ended up messed up, that my sister is also likely damaged as a result too, so cut mum out of your life, or better yet, just deliberately trigger her NPD rage weak points by taunting her with hatred towards her knowing how toxic she is, taunt her until she starts the guilt tripping of her chest hurts in pain, and then smile and tell her "good better hurry up and drop dead" to watch how she starts yelling again, then shout child abuser at her screaming in her face pushing all her buttons, taunt that cannabalistic bitch by deliberately making her NPD rage, and smile at her as you do it so you drive her to collapse sooner........ oh and put all your savings into Bitcoin back in 2010 around say, let's not get greedy here, say May or June 2010 when it was around 30c each (and remember to back it up lol).Besides dreaming about sweet relief of death, what's something that brings you joy?
Mamamoo is so good. They've released the MV for HIP on one of the best days of my life that I still remember cristal clear me checking out, and Egotistic is on my top 10 most listened on Spotify to this day.Playing video games, listening to Mamamoo and eating junk food
If you don't mind me asking, how come you haven't CTB after so much suffering?No. Happiness doesn't even exist to me, I could never see any benefit to existing, having the ability to exist is something completely undesirable, existing is so tiresome and futile, it just leads to suffering and in general existence repluses me because of all the harm it causes. Only death could bring me relief, all that appeals to me is the true peace of permanent sleep.
I made a thread that explains this as a lot of people ask this question (usually those who are new to this site) who seem completely unaware as to how difficult suicide is. Suicide just isn't as straightforward as choosing to be gone.If you don't mind me asking, how come you haven't CTB after so much suffering?
I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to be mean or assume things. I was just genuinely curious.I made a thread that explains this as a lot of people ask this question (usually those who are new to this site) who seem completely unaware as to how difficult suicide is. Suicide just isn't as straightforward as choosing to be gone.
I cannot stand it when people say that suicide is easy
This is one of the ignorant things that irritates me about people, it’s annoying when even on here some people assume that suicide is easy for everyone and say things like “if you hate life so much then why are you still here”, “how could you not have ctb yet” and it genuinely confuses me why...sanctioned-suicide.net
You don't have to apologise, I'm aware of the fact that some people don't know how difficult suicide really can be which is why I linked that thread.I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to be mean or assume things. I was just genuinely curious.