glitchgirl

glitchgirl

A glitch that was never meant to exist
May 29, 2020
57
my cat.
 
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willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
2,804
even when i am at my best i still do not wish to continue living. life is meaningless to me no matter how happy you are. soon enough everyone dies and they are forgotten as time goes on. the only thing that could prevent me from killing myself, at least for a time, is if i somehow ended up pregnant and was not able to terminate. i don't want to put a child through losing their mother, that is extremely traumatic. luckily for me i am not intending on getting knocked up anytime soon
 
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Buffy5120

Death is vital
Mar 19, 2020
614
And if so, what would it be? Sex? Love? Money?

I think for me, I would want to die no matter what because I hate society. Maybe if this world was different, I'd want to live. Being a billionaire or something sounds nice, but I'm sure I'd off myself once the novelty of being rich wore off.
Nope
 
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Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
1,938
No, other than a time machine or a billion dollars.
 
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purplesmoothie

purplesmoothie

Experienced
Sep 13, 2018
228
Changing the past and how I look then maybe
 
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TheSoulless

TheSoulless

I'd like to fly but my wings have been so denied
Jan 7, 2020
1,055
There are things that would keep me from killing myself, like a shit-ton of money, but nothing that would make me prefer life over death. Humanity itself is one big contradiction, and that will never change. I don't want to be part of it.
 
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Swoods

Member
Apr 21, 2019
83
No. Not even winning the lottery.
 
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enzyetee

enzyetee

Member
Mar 21, 2019
23
$10k... until next year
 
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NightmareTour

NightmareTour

Specialist
May 13, 2020
398
At the moment it's literally just guilt. The few people in my life don't give a fuck that I'm struggling and make me feel like a burden, but they sure do like to let me know how horrific it would be for them if I ctb.
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
A time machine and a new face/body..or a personally acceptable version of the garbage I have now.
But like you, my hatred for people and society would still endure, but at least I would be able to have a voice about it, unlike now. There are so many things I would love to say to so many people, but the form I am stuck in causes me to cower as a defense mechanism.
 
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muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,188
A re-do of my life without the child abuse, trauma, neglect, and bullying that completely re-wired my brain and my mental state
 
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YellowSneakers

YellowSneakers

Member
Aug 2, 2020
39
A cure for my degenerative neurological condition would most definitely quell my desire to ctb.
 
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mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,090
Not really. If I found love that would make me want to stay but after the honeymoon period is over I'd be trying to die again.
 
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Jojo81

Student
Aug 8, 2020
115
Some million dollars
 
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LastWhisper

LastWhisper

Who cares if I'm drunk?
Oct 29, 2019
223
Two people that told me that they do care about me, but I think (and hope) it's temporary. That's all.
 
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imdone1

imdone1

Member
Oct 11, 2020
27
no, not at all.
 
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voidman

voidman

emptiness —> nothingness
Sep 15, 2020
217
Not anything that is within the realm of possibility, no. Besides, I don't want to spend the rest of my life living the rat race to survive.
 
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Lunaloveflood

Lunaloveflood

Member
Dec 27, 2019
56
Thinking that i could try to be a singer. I'm too scared to miss something if i haven't completely ruined my chances before leaving.
 
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DeathIsTheWayOut99

DeathIsTheWayOut99

Warlock
Jun 6, 2020
798
Probably not. If anything my brother might end up murdering me with his abuse
 
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Okami

Student
Mar 16, 2018
124
There'd have to be a combination of multiple things for me to even consider staying alive. I think that no matter what, I'll still have the urge to kill myself. The thoughts are practically ingrained in my mind; it'd be nearly impossible to turn them off. I've had enough and just want out.
 
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sadstuffie

sadstuffie

Student
Aug 11, 2020
157
probably nothing.
maybe sex, fame, or being at my ultimate goal weight. but none of that could ever happen even if by magic for someone as worthless & ugly as me,, so yeah nothing. nothing will ever change my mind enough, I think I will always eventually come back to this mindset. I will die like this one day.
 
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stupid little girl

always sad
Nov 28, 2019
35
A purpose. I need something that would feel fulfilling and give me a reason to believe that I belong here alive.
 
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laserfocus111

Student
Feb 11, 2020
146
my 3 year old son..
 
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Sans

Sans

Protesting the conditions of an inhumane world
Oct 2, 2019
343
I once thought that having a lot of money would solve my problems. That is true to an extent, as I'd be able to fund hobbies and other things that I enjoy, but they say "money can't buy happiness" for a reason.

What I want most is a stable, loving relationship. I'm not sure if I want kids, but I can barely take care of myself, let alone children. But if I had a GF/wife who genuinely loved and cared about me, I would want to die a lot less. Even having a close friend who cared about my well being would do wonders for me.

 
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Givingupandgivingin

Member
Oct 18, 2020
88
If I could get divorced without upsetting my husband and children then I would stay.
It comes down to the two options for me - and dying seems far far far easier.
 
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Givingupandgivingin

Member
Oct 18, 2020
88
All of this thread is about not wanting to die but to continue living but only if certain conditions are satisfied, more than half of the things I've read are possible so why do people choose death over satisfying the possible conditions and continuing to live.

It is impossible for me to meet the conditions for which it would be ok for me to carry on.
Therefore my only option by default is to die.
I really feel it's better for me to not be here at all than to put my children through the trauma of divorce. My husband will also get a lot more support than if I merely left him. He will also get the children full time and he won't have to give me any money, which would be something he would hate. It works out best.
 
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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
Money lots of money

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262653

262653

Cluesome
Apr 5, 2018
1,733
There is something already. Survival instinct.
 
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Breadbfra

Breadbfra

Specialist
Jul 16, 2020
374
My girlfriend who lost her mother due to suicide, my father and my mother. Nothing else.
Sometimes I think about opening my bread bakery but, you know, going in a full recession isn't helping.
 
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Futile

Futile

Tired of being lonely
Sep 3, 2020
499
At this point, even if I could magically get a normal face, I would be too far gone from everything and everyone to be redeemed. So no, there's no saving for this life
 
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