Discussion What helps you distract yourself from being upset

[Die.A.Ria]

Like for me whenever i think about ctb like me having everything i need and doing it , it calms me so much and makes me happy but sometimes it does the opposite because i sometimes think about how the people i love will react and how it will change their lives and i feel really upset and guilty

every single day i feel upset and most of the time i dont know why and if i do know why like if i feel guilty about something and im trying to do my everyday tasks and then i remember something upsetting or embarrassing i hit myself really hard in between my rib cage near my heart because thats where it hurts extremelyy bad so i can distract myself

I started doing that once i stopped self harming because some people noticed it and i just want to wear what i want without it being obvious i self harm

I hate how i feel this way everyday that i remember these things and i cant stop randomly thinking about it whenever im doing something

I even stopped doing things i loved and was known for like drawing. everyone knew how talented i was at art and thats what i was known for but now i stopped doing it even though i kind of want to but i dont feel like it at all and even if i do i know those thoughts and memories will come back idk maybe i should listen to music while doing it but even then i dont feel like doing anything :(

 

[ceriseange♡]

I feel every word of this. I'm so sorry you're going through this as well :( it's really silly but sometimes I just daydream! I've been maladaptive daydreaming since I was like 8-9 so I'll just pace around my house imagining being in the slender mansion at my big age of 24 (my stupid comfort media since I was like 11)

It doesn't always work. Thinking about ctb is a double edged sword as it can go either way, sometimes it genuinely calms me and other times it makes whatever spiral im having worse. I also stopped self harming because it was becoming noticeable but I'm starting to get the itch to relapse since nothing else is working. I need CONSTANT distractions (music, videos, podcasts, discord calls, livestreams) 24/7 and when I can't I'm either numb / almost catatonic or sleeping

I've stopped drawing for a while but in a way what's weirdly helping is making my own ventsona ??? a way I can draw out my feelings without feeling shame (or as much of it)

I'm sending you SO so much love and again I'm so sorry :( <3 I'm sorry if this was a bit incoherent on my part, my insomnia has been wild lately

 

[Die.A.Ria]

I feel every word of this. I'm so sorry you're going through this as well :( it's really silly but sometimes I just daydream! I've been maladaptive daydreaming since I was like 8-9 so I'll just pace around my house imagining being in the slender mansion at my big age of 24 (my stupid comfort media since I was like 11)

It doesn't always work. Thinking about ctb is a double edged sword as it can go either way, sometimes it genuinely calms me and other times it makes whatever spiral im having worse. I also stopped self harming because it was becoming noticeable but I'm starting to get the itch to relapse since nothing else is working. I need CONSTANT distractions (music, videos, podcasts, discord calls, livestreams) 24/7 and when I can't I'm either numb / almost catatonic or sleeping

I've stopped drawing for a while but in a way what's weirdly helping is making my own ventsona ??? a way I can draw out my feelings without feeling shame (or as much of it)

I'm sending you SO so much love and again I'm so sorry :( <3 I'm sorry if this was a bit incoherent on my part, my insomnia has been wild lately

Omg thank you so much :)

 

[Lazuli]

You don't have to force yourself to commit to completing a drawing. Just doing some doodles is okay. The diversion effect is what matters, no? In case you're able to complete one, do share with us

As for me, I just turn to sleeping. It's the best way to blunt emotions because I'm good at nothing. Well, I can bake sweets like bomboloni and entremet, but that's all.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I'll always be upset about being trapped in this horrific prison world where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering where I'm so cruelly denied the option to cease existing peacefully, making peaceful death inaccessible is such terrible extreme cruelty to me. I just always suffer as a result of being burdened with this terrible, torturous existence I just always saw as as a mistake.

All I want is peace from the terrible abomination of existence that never should had been imposed, non-existence is just all I see as positive, it's just so terrible how this existence was imposed in the first place causing all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's so terrible how a human can suffer for decades longer just to face the extreme agony of old age.

 

[Strangerdanger7]

Stay away from people who cause you to be upset when you can.

 

[valar_morghulis21]

Stay away from people who cause you to be upset when you can.

Seconded this advice. Better to be alone than being around people who trigger you.