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sserafim

sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
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Has anyone failed N? What were the consequences? It's my ideal method and I would hate to fail. I heard that the issue with N was its accessibility, not effectiveness, but I'm still curious about whether anyone failed ctb with it
 
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Erick

Student
Jan 18, 2024
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Has anyone failed N? What were the consequences? It's my ideal method and I would hate to fail. I heard that the issue with N was its accessibility, not effectiveness, but I'm still curious about whether anyone failed ctb with it
There have been more than 500 suicides with N in Australia in the last 20 years, but also more than 700 hospitalizations during the same period due to failed attempts with N.
Because people are rescued while unconscious, then taken do the hospital. Most of them don't get permanent damage, but a few of them leave the hospital with severe permanent damage.
There's also the SI that can keep you from drinking it, because our body tries to avoid death at all cost sadly.
 
sserafim

sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
7,527
There have been more than 500 suicides with N in Australia in the last 20 years, but also more than 700 hospitalizations during the same period due to failed attempts with N.
Because people are rescued while unconscious, then taken do the hospital. Most of them don't get permanent damage, but a few of them leave the hospital with severe permanent damage.
There's also the SI that can keep you from drinking it, because our body tries to avoid death at all cost sadly.
Ugh I guess even N isn't guaranteed then. People always talk about it as the most peaceful and successful method, but I guess if you ctb yourself, you can always fail somehow. I hate how it's so hard to die in this world. Everything is hard. Only VAD/MAiD is certain
 
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People always talk about it as the most peaceful and successful method, but I guess if you ctb yourself, you can always fail somehow. I hate how it's so hard to die in this world. Everything is hard. Only VAD/MAiD is certain
I mean, what else did you expect? Ctb isn't a walk in the park even if we all had our preffered methods on hand. Its not outside the realm of things going wrong since this is the biggest risk you'll ever take. Si will always be an obstacle no matter how determined you are before as well.
 
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Erick

Student
Jan 18, 2024
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Ugh I guess even N isn't guaranteed then. People always talk about it as the most peaceful and successful method, but I guess if you ctb yourself, you can always fail somehow. I hate how it's so hard to die in this world. Everything is hard. Only VAD/MAiD is certain
It is the most peaceful and successful, but even so it can fail.
With N you need to make sure that you have 24hs privacy, and be able to drink 200ml of a liquid that tastes like a bad whisky or bad vodka.
If you are able to drink 200ml of a bad whisky or a bad vodka, you can drink 200ml of N. But if you are one of those people that can't drink alcohol, your chances with N are pretty low.
 
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sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
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It is the most peaceful and successful, but even so it can fail.
With N you need to make sure that you have 24hs privacy, and be able to drink 200ml of a liquid that tastes like a bad whiskey or bad vodka.
If you are able to drink 200ml of a bad whiskey or a bad vodka, you can drink 200ml of N. But if you are one of those people that can't drink alcohol, your chances with N are pretty low.
I don't drink so I don't know lol. Should I take up drinking to test it out?
 
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Erick

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Jan 18, 2024
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I don't drink so I don't know lol. Should I take up drinking to test it out?
Yes, try to drink 200ml of pure whisky or vodka, if you manage to drink it, you will be able to drink N. Take 30mg of meto, wait 40 minutes, then drink it.
But since you never drank alcohol, be ready, because it won't be easy šŸ˜…
It tastes really bad, and gives you a burning sensation while you drink it.
 
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Oct 14, 2023
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There have been more than 500 suicides with N in Australia in the last 20 years, but also more than 700 hospitalizations during the same period due to failed attempts with N.
Because people are rescued while unconscious, then taken do the hospital. Most of them don't get permanent damage, but a few of them leave the hospital with severe permanent damage.
There's also the SI that can keep you from drinking it, because our body tries to avoid death at all cost sadly.
what permanent damage can N cause?
 
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letsgetittogo

letsgetittogo

Barbiturate Summer :p
Nov 11, 2023
199
Yes, try to drink 200ml of pure whisky or vodka, if you manage to drink it, you will be able to drink N. Take 30mg of meto, wait 40 minutes, then drink it.
But since you never drank alcohol, be ready, because it won't be easy šŸ˜…
It tastes really bad, and gives you a burning sensation while you drink it.
I never knew it had a strong taste! I'm planning a trip to Peru or TJ soon
It is the most peaceful and successful, but even so it can fail.
With N you need to make sure that you have 24hs privacy, and be able to drink 200ml of a liquid that tastes like a bad whisky or bad vodka.
If you are able to drink 200ml of a bad whisky or a bad vodka, you can drink 200ml of N. But if you are one of those people that can't drink alcohol, your chances with N are pretty low.
I'm planning on being really secluded if I can take N, but it also brings me an insane amount of comfort that even people that have failed haven't had long term side effects / permanent damage
 
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sserafim

sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
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I never knew it had a strong taste! I'm planning a trip to Peru or TJ soon

I'm planning on being really secluded if I can take N, but it also brings me an insane amount of comfort that even people that have failed haven't had long term side effects / permanent damage
What about Oaxaca? I want to go there because it has a cool name lol
 
letsgetittogo

letsgetittogo

Barbiturate Summer :p
Nov 11, 2023
199
What about Oaxaca? I want to go there because it has a cool name lol
I'm from Mexico so I can basically go anywhere and fit in. I only mentioned TJ because a fellow member PMed me with a verified source in Tijuana. It'll be easy to get across the border from there so it's safe to say it's intriguing me.

Even so, TJ is also known for its illegal markets. Lots of Americans go down there to have surgeries or to get alternative medicines not sold in the states. Some even go to get steroids :p Thinking about it more Mexico might be a pretty easy place for me because I'd be like a local.

Oaxaca is a really beautiful state but it's really isolated. I'd say go for a vacation or something , but not to try to find some N to ctb lmao
 
sserafim

sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
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I'm from Mexico so I can basically go anywhere and fit in. I only mentioned TJ because a fellow member PMed me with a verified source in Tijuana. It'll be easy to get across the border from there so it's safe to say it's intriguing me.

Even so, TJ is also known for its illegal markets. Lots of Americans go down there to have surgeries or to get alternative medicines not sold in the states. Some even go to get steroids :p Thinking about it more Mexico might be a pretty easy place for me because I'd be like a local.

Oaxaca is a really beautiful state but it's really isolated. I'd say go for a vacation or something , but not to try to find some N to ctb lmao
Did you see my DMs?
 
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Ernest1964

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Jan 6, 2023
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What about Oaxaca? I want to go there because it has a cool name lol
I spent one year there in two weeks in 2023, at least it felt like a year. OMG, the heat and humidity is BRUTAL, unlivable. 99% of all the restaurants in that area are out in the open air under palapas, so nice setting and there were fans but without air conditioning you're just sitting there dripping disgusting sweat into your beans and rice. Truly a horrible place to visit, I would never go again. Mexico City... now THAT is a great place to visit and live, I lived there for five years.
 
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Erick

Student
Jan 18, 2024
172
I never knew it had a strong taste! I'm planning a trip to Peru or TJ soon

I'm planning on being really secluded if I can take N, but it also brings me an insane amount of comfort that even people that have failed haven't had long term side effects / permanent damage
Yes, it has a strong bitter taste, some people can't drink it because of that.
There are cases of people who threw up and gave up drinking it, and people who took too long to drink the whole dosage because had trouble to swallow it because of the taste, and passed out before finishing it.
 
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Ernest1964

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Jan 6, 2023
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Yes, it has a strong bitter taste, some people can't drink it because of that.
There are cases of people who threw up and gave up drinking it, and people who took too long to drink the whole dosage because had trouble to swallow it because of the taste, and passed out before finishing it.
Any suggestions how to deal with the terrible taste? Could one mix it into a sweet juice perhaps, like orange or pineapple juice? Would the acidity of the juice have a negative effect on the N? What do you think?
 
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Erick

Student
Jan 18, 2024
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Any suggestions how to deal with the terrible taste? Could one mix it into a sweet juice perhaps, like orange or pineapple juice? Would the acidity of the juice have a negative effect on the N? What do you think?
It's not recommended to mix N with anything.
People drink it pure, then they eat a piece of chocolate to get rid of the bad taste that N leaves in the mouth.
 
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Demian

Demian

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Mar 25, 2024
77

Wow, the guy survived 13 grams of N and still no sequelae.
 
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Alatus_Nemeseos

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Dec 27, 2023
31
I'm quite amazed N is on the cards still I thought it had become completely unobtainable with SN being the more likely way of finding a way even though SN is also a pain to get
 
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letsgetittogo

letsgetittogo

Barbiturate Summer :p
Nov 11, 2023
199
I spent one year there in two weeks in 2023, at least it felt like a year. OMG, the heat and humidity is BRUTAL, unlivable. 99% of all the restaurants in that area are out in the open air under palapas, so nice setting and there were fans but without air conditioning you're just sitting there dripping disgusting sweat into your beans and rice. Truly a horrible place to visit, I would never go again. Mexico City... now THAT is a great place to visit and live, I lived there for five years.
Oaxaca is definitelyā€¦. Lagging a little behind as far as infrastructure and creature comforts LMAO.
On a real note, I love Mexico City. I lived there for a while too, before I moved to Northern Mexico with my family :p if I somehow found an N source there I would 100% choose to ctb there.
But,,, the best place to source N right now is in Tijuana if you know where to look :p I'm currently planning a trip and looking for a partner, so if you have any questions about TJ pm me
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
5,448
There aren't any guarantees in this world, other than people will eventually die. From all the reading I've done on N, I'd say there's one hell of a chance that you'll be successful if you follow the protocol. It probably ranks right under shotgun to the head in terms of lethality. I say either of those methods are about as close as you're going to get to 100%.

Isn't N, or other derivatives, extremely difficult to obtain unless one travels to S. America? If you have it, I'm envious.
 
sserafim

sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
7,527
There aren't any guarantees in this world, other than people will eventually die. From all the reading I've done on N, I'd say there's one hell of a chance that you'll be successful if you follow the protocol. It probably ranks right under shotgun to the head in terms of lethality. I say either of those methods are about as close as you're going to get to 100%.

Isn't N, or other derivatives, extremely difficult to obtain unless one travels to S. America? If you have it, I'm envious.
I don't have it yet. I'm planning to go to S. America just to get it lol
 

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