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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

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I felt that the free access I had to alcohol from a young age prevented me from craving alcohol, if it makes sense. I drink at events, and sometimes pour it in my ice cream, but otherwise I'm pretty boring ๐Ÿคฃ
Its the same I feel for euthanasia, they could have a long process, take 5 years from applying to acceptance, and it would stop impulsive suicides and help those who have logical reason to die. And sometimes the fact that the option is there can help the people's peace of mind, and not stress about dying
Yes, i felt that difference when I was in UK, in India there's designated shops for alcohol. But in UK, it was available in every store and anyone eligible to buy could buy it easily.. in India it's a taboo. I also didn't like alcohol.. It's only after my last breakup that i started drinking to break from reality.
Haha you aren't boring tbh.. In all of my interactions with you, you've been fun to interact with. So cool๐Ÿ˜Ž

You are right, people should have the option to die peacefully.. Why the Wait
18+ people should have the freedom to choose life and death..
 
Fish

Fish

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Apr 19, 2018
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Yes, i felt that difference when I was in UK, in India there's designated shops for alcohol. But in UK, it was available in every store and anyone eligible to buy could buy it easily.. in India it's a taboo. I also didn't like alcohol.. It's only after my last breakup that i started drinking to break from reality.
Haha you aren't boring tbh.. In all of my interactions with you, you've been fun to interact with. So cool๐Ÿ˜Ž

You are right, people should have the option to die peacefully.. Why the Wait
18+ people should have the freedom to choose life and death..
Haha thank you so much. I like talking to you too! ๐Ÿ˜„
Maybe the next time you need a break from reality you can practice finding your carotids. There's a very nice head rush when you get it right, as science says "the sudden loss of oxygen to the brain and the accumulation of carbon dioxide can increase feelings of giddiness, lightheadness, and pleasure"
The only danger to it is dying, but... ๐Ÿค”
 
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Haha thank you so much. I like talking to you too! ๐Ÿ˜„
Maybe the next time you need a break from reality you can practice finding your carotids. There's a very nice head rush when you get it right, as science says "the sudden loss of oxygen to the brain and the accumulation of carbon dioxide can increase feelings of giddiness, lightheadness, and pleasure"
The only danger to it is dying, but... ๐Ÿค”
It's my pleasure โ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿฅน lucky to have crossed paths with you.. Thanks to SaSu.
Thank you๐Ÿ’
My carotids ๐Ÿ˜‚ i did get dizzy.. i tried partial for 7 days continuously when I was in the UK, it was reading week and no one was there to disturb me.. when i got dizzy, i felt hopeful that i could go finally.
It didn't work.. i asked someone, he said that in my case, if circle of willis exists, i would be having two more arteries at the back of my neck sending blood to my brain..

So. Dying is a little more difficult for me๐Ÿ˜ญ or else I would have been a ghost by now๐Ÿ‘ป i would have arranged N for all of you if i became a ghost ๐Ÿ˜‚
 
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Haha that's a really good idea๐Ÿ˜‚ a honeymoon trip to catch the bus that'd take us to heaven๐Ÿ˜‚ or may be hell๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ˜‚
No parents allowed ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚
You know, I went to a resort with my ex and another couple,I had to tell my parents back home that I'm at my residence ๐Ÿ˜‚ in those days, i was living alone. In another sneaky trip, i had to catch a flight back to my city, and my father kept on calling when i was on board and I couldn't pick his call else he would have known๐Ÿ˜‚ similarly, when i started having alcohol in 2023, i tried different ways to smuggle alcohol inside my room. Except few times, they caught it๐Ÿฅฒ๐Ÿ˜‚ i later tied up with an alcohol shop to get it delivered to my home after dinner, that was a good source. He used to keep the bottles silently at the door, and when no one was watching, i used to sneak out and get those bottles inside my room. My parents know that i can create workaround to almost anything๐Ÿ˜‚ so they are extra vigilant

You are actually right . If I look back at my life and their lives on the whole, i find that they were victims of situations themselves. They have had a difficult life too but never thought of ctb. And, in their capacity, they tried to give best life they possibly could. They are humans too, so, yeah, they can't be strong all the time.
I personally have one grudge with them, my mother had bipolar depression, so, they shouldn't have given birth to kids because depression not only affects the environment of home but also, gets transferred to kids. I have never suffered from depression until 2023. But eventually it did manifest in me. We were able to find good psychiatrists after trying many psychiatrists, so me, my mother and brother are all being given right medicines. My mother and brother are doing well after years of crazy crazy depression. They used to lose sense of reality and would hallucinate. I luckily never lost of my grip on reality.

SaSuKE๐Ÿ˜‚ Good one๐Ÿ˜‚ does KE stand for Ketamine ๐Ÿ˜ ketamine is hard too. Not sure if fent is harder or ketamine. Never got to try either of them

I have an idea, if the 5000 regular visitors unite and sign a petition to get N issued to all of the CTBers, can that help? Or may be, world over, all of the 5000 people break into vet clinics near them๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ”ซ and loot all the N available ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚
Interestingly N is allowed to kill animals but not us๐Ÿฅฒ
I wanted to learn how to "quote" and reply underneath like you guys do, but I haven't figured it out yet ๐Ÿคญ ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ... so I'll just answer everything all at once!! Hahaha.

Parents not allowed?!!! ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ‘น....

Man, you were a ninja ๐Ÿคบ; you really gave your parents a hard time trying to escape their good intentions ๐Ÿ˜...

Friend, I understand what you mean about how you feel regarding your motherโ€”that she shouldn't have had children because of her disorderโ€”but you know what? Even though I had a mother with depression, difficult siblings, and my own psychiatric issues, I always wanted to be a mother. I had so much love to give (love I didn't receive myself) and thought everything would be different; it didn't work out very well, but I tried to give it my all... Yes, it can be passed down to children genetically!! ๐Ÿ˜”

"KE = Ketamine? ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿคช I had no idea that's what it meant, lol...

I liked your ideaโ€”5,000 members fighting for "N," hehehe. I can just picture the pro-lifers chasing us with signs saying "OUT WITH THE CTB," our families trying to lasso us to stop us, priests splashing holy water on us... it would be total chaos, can you imagine? ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™ƒ
 
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It's my pleasure โ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿฅน lucky to have crossed paths with you.. Thanks to SaSu.
Thank you๐Ÿ’
My carotids ๐Ÿ˜‚ i did get dizzy.. i tried partial for 7 days continuously when I was in the UK, it was reading week and no one was there to disturb me.. when i got dizzy, i felt hopeful that i could go finally.
It didn't work.. i asked someone, he said that in my case, if circle of willis exists, i would be having two more arteries at the back of my neck sending blood to my brain..

So. Dying is a little more difficult for me๐Ÿ˜ญ or else I would have been a ghost by now๐Ÿ‘ป i would have arranged N for all of you if i became a ghost ๐Ÿ˜‚
I think that person was me haha ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚
No no don't be a ghost, please be free and released into the great beyond! ๐Ÿ˜‡
 
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Serena 2026

Serena 2026

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This is just my silly perspective but I don't think I could survive your parents, they are quite overbearing! Although I come from a culture which is more open to alcohol, this could be why. I love your innovativeness though ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ
I feel you, my best friend irl has bipolar and her dad has schizo. It is truly a wild ride that runs in family.
And yes the biggest confusion in my life is why euthanasia is given easy for animals but not for humans. The freedom for euthanasia means a lot for me, I know many disabled people who fought very hard for it. It is disgusting to me to hear people say it is the cowards way out, I wish them to experience the life of a ventilator dependent quad! ๐Ÿ˜ค
Haha so true๐Ÿ˜‚ itz not easy to survive my parents๐Ÿ˜‚ though they are sweet and caring at heart, but can be very tough to handle.
Yeah, alcohol isn't bad. They say that i don't care for them if I'm having alcohol and i wonder how is it connected..i want to get a break from reality for a while when i can't ctb..

Seriously, these humans are mean, they can give euthanasia to animals but not to humans that are suffering.. It's our life and should be our free will if we want to face more stuff or not.

18+ people who wish to ctb should be allowed to be ctb freely.. Why should that be a crime..
Damn, you are so right...i too wish they get to experience the worst, only then will they understand our plight
I agree with you all!! ๐Ÿ˜”
 
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I wanted to learn how to "quote" and reply underneath like you guys do, but I haven't figured it out yet ๐Ÿคญ ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ... so I'll just answer everything all at once!! Hahaha.
Don't worry, I only know how because I spent too much time on forums growing up... ๐Ÿคญ You can just press the quote button and delete all the irrelevance words.
Serena is amazing!! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™ƒ
You can also 'change' what people say
 
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I wanted to learn how to "quote" and reply underneath like you guys do, but I haven't figured it out yet ๐Ÿคญ ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ... so I'll just answer everything all at once!! Hahaha.

Parents not allowed?!!! ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ‘น....

Man, you were a ninja ๐Ÿคบ; you really gave your parents a hard time trying to escape their good intentions ๐Ÿ˜...

Friend, I understand what you mean about how you feel regarding your motherโ€”that she shouldn't have had children because of her disorderโ€”but you know what? Even though I had a mother with depression, difficult siblings, and my own psychiatric issues, I always wanted to be a mother. I had so much love to give (love I didn't receive myself) and thought everything would be different; it didn't work out very well, but I tried to give it my all... Yes, it can be passed down to children genetically!! ๐Ÿ˜”

"KE = Ketamine? ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿคช I had no idea that's what it meant, lol...

I liked your ideaโ€”5,000 members fighting for "N," hehehe. I can just picture the pro-lifers chasing us with signs saying "OUT WITH THE CTB," our families trying to lasso us to stop us, priests splashing holy water on us... it would be total chaos, can you imagine? ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™ƒ
Just select the text and press Reply..
I'm too lazy to do that๐Ÿ˜‚

Hahaha parents not allowed made me have a big laugh๐Ÿ˜‚

Hehehe after all, they are my parents and I'm their son, if they know how to catch me, i know how to find a way out๐Ÿ‘ป hahahahah
They can't beat me at it entirely. I'm one step ahead of them๐Ÿ˜ i know what they are capable of and i can think a step ahead of them๐Ÿ˜Ž


You are right. And it makes a lot of sense
And when i think if i could marry my ex, and suggested her not to have kids, I'm sure she would have disagreed.. a woman feels complete after child birth. What you said makes a lot of sense. Being a guy i could not gauge that, but after you mentioned, i gave it a thought and can understand it now.
In that case, may be, they should not get depressed ppl married. As i wish to ctb, i would not get married.. when i was in love i didn't want to ctb. But now when I'm into ctb, I'll not partner with anyone and simply focus on how i can ctb as and when i can.. Interestingly, my brother and brother both have serious depression that's cured by abilify, so i might also have it in my dna. I don't want to give birth to another human who would be thinking of ctb..

Ketamine in small quantity can give you a high and help you feel better if your depression is treatment resistant.. If you can try, I'll recommend you try it.. i have been recommended ketamine therapy by so many people. Even my old psychiatrist wants to try it. I also want to try it but it's very costly and requires hospitalisation. I don't want to waste my father's money when i eventually want to ctb anyways.. I'm just waiting for the right time and right method.

Woah.. That's gonna be so much fun..
5000 of us versus those fake proLifers. As long as you've me with you.. I'll challenge those proLifers if they are really proLifers or just fakers.

No can defeat me in a logical debate. I'm an extremely good troll as well due to my logic and reasoning capacity.

Btw, itz always so much fun to talk to you allโค๏ธ๐Ÿซ‚

Thank you so muchโค๏ธ๐Ÿ˜ญ you all are a family.. i haven't met you in person, but it feels like i know you all for centuries โค๏ธ

Thank you dear onesโค๏ธ๐Ÿ˜ญ my heart is with you all.. and if i can be of help in any way to you all, don't hesitate to ask me.. I'm just a ping away

You all are so beautiful beings๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’
 
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I think that person was me haha ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚
No no don't be a ghost, please be free and released into the great beyond! ๐Ÿ˜‡
Omg๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚
Don't worry, I only know how because I spent too much time on forums growing up... ๐Ÿคญ You can just press the quote button and delete all the irrelevance words.

You can also 'change' what people say
Really? Did u try orkut as well?
You are on sasu since 2019.. That's a good long time
I wish i discovered sasu back then.. i would have been a ghost by now for sure
 
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Acho que essa pessoa era eu, haha.๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚
Nรฃo, nรฃo seja um fantasma, por favor, seja livre e libertado para o alรฉm!๐Ÿ˜‡
Acho que estamos ficando um pouco mรณrbidos demais por aqui!! Hehehe. ๐Ÿคช๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ
 
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I think we're getting a little too morbid around here!! Hehehe.๐Ÿคช๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ
Hehehhe๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ man, it's so funny to discuss to all this with you all๐Ÿซ‚ who would believe we want to ctb, I'm laughing so hard right now..
Love you all by the way... You all are the best
Thank you soooo much for being my family โค๏ธ my real family may not understand me but you guys do and i feel.at home with you all...may God bless you all with everything every love success and luck ever possible..
And if I could do anything for you all, I would be more than happy to contribute to lives of you allโค๏ธ
Thank you so much for being there๐Ÿ’
People say that sasu is about suicide.๐Ÿ˜‚ We are laughing and having a good time while we are definitely having our wounds. Sasu feels like home..
 
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Serena 2026

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Nรฃo se preocupe, eu sรณ sei como fazer isso porque passei muito tempo em fรณruns quando era mais jovem... ๐Ÿคญ Vocรช pode simplesmente clicar no botรฃo de citaรงรฃo e apagar todas as palavras irrelevantes.

Vocรช tambรฉm pode 'mudar' o que as pessoas
 

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