Discussion Don't even think of non methods

[ctb_warrior]

I felt that the free access I had to alcohol from a young age prevented me from craving alcohol, if it makes sense. I drink at events, and sometimes pour it in my ice cream, but otherwise I'm pretty boring
Its the same I feel for euthanasia, they could have a long process, take 5 years from applying to acceptance, and it would stop impulsive suicides and help those who have logical reason to die. And sometimes the fact that the option is there can help the people's peace of mind, and not stress about dying

Yes, i felt that difference when I was in UK, in India there's designated shops for alcohol. But in UK, it was available in every store and anyone eligible to buy could buy it easily.. in India it's a taboo. I also didn't like alcohol.. It's only after my last breakup that i started drinking to break from reality.
Haha you aren't boring tbh.. In all of my interactions with you, you've been fun to interact with. So cool

You are right, people should have the option to die peacefully.. Why the Wait
18+ people should have the freedom to choose life and death..

 

[Fish]

Yes, i felt that difference when I was in UK, in India there's designated shops for alcohol. But in UK, it was available in every store and anyone eligible to buy could buy it easily.. in India it's a taboo. I also didn't like alcohol.. It's only after my last breakup that i started drinking to break from reality.
Haha you aren't boring tbh.. In all of my interactions with you, you've been fun to interact with. So cool

You are right, people should have the option to die peacefully.. Why the Wait
18+ people should have the freedom to choose life and death..

Haha thank you so much. I like talking to you too!
Maybe the next time you need a break from reality you can practice finding your carotids. There's a very nice head rush when you get it right, as science says "the sudden loss of oxygen to the brain and the accumulation of carbon dioxide can increase feelings of giddiness, lightheadness, and pleasure"
The only danger to it is dying, but...

 

[ctb_warrior]

Haha thank you so much. I like talking to you too!
Maybe the next time you need a break from reality you can practice finding your carotids. There's a very nice head rush when you get it right, as science says "the sudden loss of oxygen to the brain and the accumulation of carbon dioxide can increase feelings of giddiness, lightheadness, and pleasure"
The only danger to it is dying, but...

It's my pleasure lucky to have crossed paths with you.. Thanks to SaSu.
Thank you
My carotids i did get dizzy.. i tried partial for 7 days continuously when I was in the UK, it was reading week and no one was there to disturb me.. when i got dizzy, i felt hopeful that i could go finally.
It didn't work.. i asked someone, he said that in my case, if circle of willis exists, i would be having two more arteries at the back of my neck sending blood to my brain..

So. Dying is a little more difficult for me or else I would have been a ghost by now i would have arranged N for all of you if i became a ghost

 

[Serena 2026]

Haha that's a really good idea a honeymoon trip to catch the bus that'd take us to heaven or may be hell
No parents allowed
You know, I went to a resort with my ex and another couple,I had to tell my parents back home that I'm at my residence in those days, i was living alone. In another sneaky trip, i had to catch a flight back to my city, and my father kept on calling when i was on board and I couldn't pick his call else he would have known similarly, when i started having alcohol in 2023, i tried different ways to smuggle alcohol inside my room. Except few times, they caught it i later tied up with an alcohol shop to get it delivered to my home after dinner, that was a good source. He used to keep the bottles silently at the door, and when no one was watching, i used to sneak out and get those bottles inside my room. My parents know that i can create workaround to almost anything so they are extra vigilant

You are actually right . If I look back at my life and their lives on the whole, i find that they were victims of situations themselves. They have had a difficult life too but never thought of ctb. And, in their capacity, they tried to give best life they possibly could. They are humans too, so, yeah, they can't be strong all the time.
I personally have one grudge with them, my mother had bipolar depression, so, they shouldn't have given birth to kids because depression not only affects the environment of home but also, gets transferred to kids. I have never suffered from depression until 2023. But eventually it did manifest in me. We were able to find good psychiatrists after trying many psychiatrists, so me, my mother and brother are all being given right medicines. My mother and brother are doing well after years of crazy crazy depression. They used to lose sense of reality and would hallucinate. I luckily never lost of my grip on reality.

SaSuKE Good one does KE stand for Ketamine ketamine is hard too. Not sure if fent is harder or ketamine. Never got to try either of them

I have an idea, if the 5000 regular visitors unite and sign a petition to get N issued to all of the CTBers, can that help? Or may be, world over, all of the 5000 people break into vet clinics near them and loot all the N available
Interestingly N is allowed to kill animals but not us

I wanted to learn how to "quote" and reply underneath like you guys do, but I haven't figured it out yet ... so I'll just answer everything all at once!! Hahaha.

Parents not allowed?!!! ....

Man, you were a ninja ; you really gave your parents a hard time trying to escape their good intentions ...

Friend, I understand what you mean about how you feel regarding your mother—that she shouldn't have had children because of her disorder—but you know what? Even though I had a mother with depression, difficult siblings, and my own psychiatric issues, I always wanted to be a mother. I had so much love to give (love I didn't receive myself) and thought everything would be different; it didn't work out very well, but I tried to give it my all... Yes, it can be passed down to children genetically!!

"KE = Ketamine? I had no idea that's what it meant, lol...

I liked your idea—5,000 members fighting for "N," hehehe. I can just picture the pro-lifers chasing us with signs saying "OUT WITH THE CTB," our families trying to lasso us to stop us, priests splashing holy water on us... it would be total chaos, can you imagine?

 

[Fish]

It's my pleasure lucky to have crossed paths with you.. Thanks to SaSu.
Thank you
My carotids i did get dizzy.. i tried partial for 7 days continuously when I was in the UK, it was reading week and no one was there to disturb me.. when i got dizzy, i felt hopeful that i could go finally.
It didn't work.. i asked someone, he said that in my case, if circle of willis exists, i would be having two more arteries at the back of my neck sending blood to my brain..

So. Dying is a little more difficult for me or else I would have been a ghost by now i would have arranged N for all of you if i became a ghost

I think that person was me haha
No no don't be a ghost, please be free and released into the great beyond!

 

[Serena 2026]

This is just my silly perspective but I don't think I could survive your parents, they are quite overbearing! Although I come from a culture which is more open to alcohol, this could be why. I love your innovativeness though
I feel you, my best friend irl has bipolar and her dad has schizo. It is truly a wild ride that runs in family.
And yes the biggest confusion in my life is why euthanasia is given easy for animals but not for humans. The freedom for euthanasia means a lot for me, I know many disabled people who fought very hard for it. It is disgusting to me to hear people say it is the cowards way out, I wish them to experience the life of a ventilator dependent quad!

Haha so true itz not easy to survive my parents though they are sweet and caring at heart, but can be very tough to handle.
Yeah, alcohol isn't bad. They say that i don't care for them if I'm having alcohol and i wonder how is it connected..i want to get a break from reality for a while when i can't ctb..

Seriously, these humans are mean, they can give euthanasia to animals but not to humans that are suffering.. It's our life and should be our free will if we want to face more stuff or not.

18+ people who wish to ctb should be allowed to be ctb freely.. Why should that be a crime..
Damn, you are so right...i too wish they get to experience the worst, only then will they understand our plight

I agree with you all!!

 

[Fish]

I wanted to learn how to "quote" and reply underneath like you guys do, but I haven't figured it out yet ... so I'll just answer everything all at once!! Hahaha.

Don't worry, I only know how because I spent too much time on forums growing up... You can just press the quote button and delete all the irrelevance words.

Serena is amazing!!

You can also 'change' what people say

 

[ctb_warrior]

I wanted to learn how to "quote" and reply underneath like you guys do, but I haven't figured it out yet ... so I'll just answer everything all at once!! Hahaha.

Parents not allowed?!!! ....

Man, you were a ninja ; you really gave your parents a hard time trying to escape their good intentions ...

Friend, I understand what you mean about how you feel regarding your mother—that she shouldn't have had children because of her disorder—but you know what? Even though I had a mother with depression, difficult siblings, and my own psychiatric issues, I always wanted to be a mother. I had so much love to give (love I didn't receive myself) and thought everything would be different; it didn't work out very well, but I tried to give it my all... Yes, it can be passed down to children genetically!!

"KE = Ketamine? I had no idea that's what it meant, lol...

I liked your idea—5,000 members fighting for "N," hehehe. I can just picture the pro-lifers chasing us with signs saying "OUT WITH THE CTB," our families trying to lasso us to stop us, priests splashing holy water on us... it would be total chaos, can you imagine?

Just select the text and press Reply..
I'm too lazy to do that

Hahaha parents not allowed made me have a big laugh

Hehehe after all, they are my parents and I'm their son, if they know how to catch me, i know how to find a way out hahahahah
They can't beat me at it entirely. I'm one step ahead of them i know what they are capable of and i can think a step ahead of them


You are right. And it makes a lot of sense
And when i think if i could marry my ex, and suggested her not to have kids, I'm sure she would have disagreed.. a woman feels complete after child birth. What you said makes a lot of sense. Being a guy i could not gauge that, but after you mentioned, i gave it a thought and can understand it now.
In that case, may be, they should not get depressed ppl married. As i wish to ctb, i would not get married.. when i was in love i didn't want to ctb. But now when I'm into ctb, I'll not partner with anyone and simply focus on how i can ctb as and when i can.. Interestingly, my brother and brother both have serious depression that's cured by abilify, so i might also have it in my dna. I don't want to give birth to another human who would be thinking of ctb..

Ketamine in small quantity can give you a high and help you feel better if your depression is treatment resistant.. If you can try, I'll recommend you try it.. i have been recommended ketamine therapy by so many people. Even my old psychiatrist wants to try it. I also want to try it but it's very costly and requires hospitalisation. I don't want to waste my father's money when i eventually want to ctb anyways.. I'm just waiting for the right time and right method.

Woah.. That's gonna be so much fun..
5000 of us versus those fake proLifers. As long as you've me with you.. I'll challenge those proLifers if they are really proLifers or just fakers.

No can defeat me in a logical debate. I'm an extremely good troll as well due to my logic and reasoning capacity.

Btw, itz always so much fun to talk to you all

Thank you so much you all are a family.. i haven't met you in person, but it feels like i know you all for centuries

Thank you dear ones my heart is with you all.. and if i can be of help in any way to you all, don't hesitate to ask me.. I'm just a ping away

You all are so beautiful beings

 

[ctb_warrior]

I think that person was me haha
No no don't be a ghost, please be free and released into the great beyond!

Omg

Don't worry, I only know how because I spent too much time on forums growing up... You can just press the quote button and delete all the irrelevance words.

You can also 'change' what people say

Really? Did u try orkut as well?
You are on sasu since 2019.. That's a good long time
I wish i discovered sasu back then.. i would have been a ghost by now for sure

 

[Serena 2026]

Acho que essa pessoa era eu, haha.
Não, não seja um fantasma, por favor, seja livre e libertado para o além!

Acho que estamos ficando um pouco mórbidos demais por aqui!! Hehehe.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I think we're getting a little too morbid around here!! Hehehe.

Hehehhe man, it's so funny to discuss to all this with you all who would believe we want to ctb, I'm laughing so hard right now..
Love you all by the way... You all are the best
Thank you soooo much for being my family my real family may not understand me but you guys do and i feel.at home with you all...may God bless you all with everything every love success and luck ever possible..
And if I could do anything for you all, I would be more than happy to contribute to lives of you all
Thank you so much for being there
People say that sasu is about suicide. We are laughing and having a good time while we are definitely having our wounds. Sasu feels like home..

 

[Serena 2026]

Não se preocupe, eu só sei como fazer isso porque passei muito tempo em fóruns quando era mais jovem... Você pode simplesmente clicar no botão de citação e apagar todas as palavras irrelevantes.

Você também pode 'mudar' o que as pessoas

Just select the text and press Reply..
I'm too lazy to do that

Hahaha parents not allowed made me have a big laugh

Hehehe after all, they are my parents and I'm their son, if they know how to catch me, i know how to find a way out hahahahah
They can't beat me at it entirely. I'm one step ahead of them i know what they are capable of and i can think a step ahead of them


You are right. And it makes a lot of sense
And when i think if i could marry my ex, and suggested her not to have kids, I'm sure she would have disagreed.. a woman feels complete after child birth. What you said makes a lot of sense. Being a guy i could not gauge that, but after you mentioned, i gave it a thought and can understand it now.
In that case, may be, they should not get depressed ppl married. As i wish to ctb, i would not get married.. when i was in love i didn't want to ctb. But now when I'm into ctb, I'll not partner with anyone and simply focus on how i can ctb as and when i can.. Interestingly, my brother and brother both have serious depression that's cured by abilify, so i might also have it in my dna. I don't want to give birth to another human who would be thinking of ctb..

Ketamine in small quantity can give you a high and help you feel better if your depression is treatment resistant.. If you can try, I'll recommend you try it.. i have been recommended ketamine therapy by so many people. Even my old psychiatrist wants to try it. I also want to try it but it's very costly and requires hospitalisation. I don't want to waste my father's money when i eventually want to ctb anyways.. I'm just waiting for the right time and right method.

Woah.. That's gonna be so much fun..
5000 of us versus those fake proLifers. As long as you've me with you.. I'll challenge those proLifers if they are really proLifers or just fakers.

No can defeat me in a logical debate. I'm an extremely good troll as well due to my logic and reasoning capacity.

Btw, itz always so much fun to talk to you all

Thank you so much you all are a family.. i haven't met you in person, but it feels like i know you all for centuries

Thank you dear ones my heart is with you all.. and if i can be of help in any way to you all, don't hesitate to ask me.. I'm just a ping away

You all are so beautiful beings

I love SaSu too; there are days when I spend the whole time chatting, asking questions, offering and receiving comfort and love, and sharing kindness and empathy—it brings us so much joy. I've met wonderful people here who are going through the same struggles I am... I opened up and shared my story without fear of prejudice or judgment; here, we can simply be ourselves, plain and simple. I've made some friends, though I still don't feel entirely secure yet... the cool thing is that, even amidst the chaos, we manage to laugh at our own misfortune (dark humor)—lol—and what's sad becomes a little lighter!!

 

[Fish]

Omg

Really? Did u try orkut as well?
You are on sasu since 2019.. That's a good long time
I wish i discovered sasu back then.. i would have been a ghost by now for sure

Not really, it wasn't that popular in my country. Sadly, most of the forums I used lost members to Reddit, and eventually closed down.
I was on SaSu since it was alt.suicide.holiday
I'm still here, so don't feel bad...

I love SaSu too; there are days when I spend the whole time chatting, asking questions, offering and receiving comfort and love, and sharing kindness and empathy—it brings us so much joy. I've met wonderful people here who are going through the same struggles I am... I opened up and shared my story without fear of prejudice or judgment; here, we can simply be ourselves, plain and simple. I've made some friends, though I still don't feel entirely secure yet... the cool thing is that, even amidst the chaos, we manage to laugh at our own misfortune (dark humor)—lol—and what's sad becomes a little lighter!!

I am also so glad to have met you. You're such a inspirational person, going to Peru alone and researching sources for such a difficult to find substance

 

[Serena 2026]

Not really, it wasn't that popular in my country. Sadly, most of the forums I used lost members to Reddit, and eventually closed down.
I was on SaSu since it was alt.suicide.holiday
I'm still here, so don't feel bad...

I am also so glad to have met you. You're such a inspirational person, going to Peru alone and researching sources for such a difficult to find substance

I feel the same way, Fish, and thank you for the kind words ... can't you travel to Peru?

 

[Fish]

I feel the same way, Fish, and thank you for the kind words ... can't you travel to Peru?

Yeah I mean I could always just book a flight there but it doesn't seem like a country that's wheelchair accessible...

 

[Cepheuss]

I completely agree !
The non methods are there for a reason and you'll end up in a worse spot for trying them instead of just taking the time with a recommended method. I do like to try and think of potential new methods but im gonna definitely stick with my hanging. I really dont get why people will go for tryna slit their wrists when its such a low chance of working when you can just buy rope