Is ctb an inevitability for you?

[Lra888]

Do you feel that suicide is inevitable for you and it's just a matter of time? Or do you have some hope that life will improve?

 

[scales]

I have a possibility of improving and yet other times it feels like ctb is inevitable and it's pointless to keep trying when I've tried so hard already, and spoken to enough people to know what's coming in the future (basically, what life with my illness is like when you're older, it doesn't get better).

I'm on the edge but still preparing to go. I think I could probably be convinced given proper support though, I wonder if there are others like that here?

 

[cupio dissolvi]

I do fantasize about getting what I want but it entirely depends on another person, who currently doesn't even know I exist. It's like looking for a needle in a haystack. Sure it's "nice" to hope it will happen; but when critical thinking strikes back, I see ctb as something virtually ineluctable.

 

[Final Escape]

Do you feel that suicide is inevitable for you and it's just a matter of time? Or do you have some hope that life will improve?

I would guess that it's an inevitability at this time.

 

[Cee]

sometimes i have moments where im like, "man, Im so sick of being like this, i just want to get better and have a good life". Then i remember reality, i'm unmotivated and too poor to get the support i'd need to do that, life has too many challenges that i'd be much better off avoiding. I have a kind of 'life story' ive made for myself, and it ends in suicide. Of course i know that my whole life could change if i live long enough to go to college, and its still something im considering. Ctb before college, or during? I don't want to regret not doing it now, but the tiny sliver of curiosity i have left in me tells me to hold out just to experience life on my own at least for a little while. Either way, it ends the same, so it doesn't matter too much.

 

[Lra888]

It is inevitable for me. Finished with everything. Just want out. Feel sick each morning at moment of waking. Organizing my things and mentally preparing myself : want to go in a calm state of serenity. Trying to reach a level of understanding/ acceptance/ enlightenment about life&death.

 

[Zaynaldeen]

Since thievery seems to be my only option to remotely live, I'd say ctb seems a pretty reasonable option. Though I don't want to ctb, it has to happen at some point. I think the only way I can go forward is if my dad wins the lottery.

 

[Lena]

I have a possibility of improving and yet other times it feels like ctb is inevitable and it's pointless to keep trying when I've tried so hard already, and spoken to enough people to know what's coming in the future (basically, what life with my illness is like when you're older, it doesn't get better).

I'm on the edge but still preparing to go. I think I could probably be convinced given proper support though, I wonder if there are others like that here?

May I ask what your illness is? :/

 

[Trashcan]

It's inevitable for me. I just don't see any possibility of it getting better.

 

[invisiblycrippled]

Even if there's a cure for my chronic illness, there'd still be so much left I don't know I can live with, or rather want to.

And even if I could find solutions for all of my problems, I'd still kill myself before I grew old. Fuck being old. I already feel old physically.

 

[starcrossedfate]

Yeah, I'm done.

 

[Donewith_]

Yes. It is..For me.

 

[Dog Food]

Yes. I've been at points where I've had everything I could want, and yet I'm still not happy, still struggling just being. I'm so tired of this.

 

[Maravillosa]

Hmm... If I were to die of cardiac arrest or accidentally (or get myself murdered, I suppose), I would not have to ctb. Otherwise, I think the chances are fairly high that I will ctb, if only to avoid the lack of autonomy in old age that my mother is undergoing. So ctb is not a complete inevitability, but it is far likelier that I will do so than die of natural causes. May God forgive me!

 

[Fcancer]

Even if there's a cure for my chronic illness, there'd still be so much left I don't know I can live with, or rather want to.

And even if I could find solutions for all of my problems, I'd still kill myself before I grew old. Fuck being old. I already feel old physically.

Tell me about it!! My body/mind feels about 80, after cancer twice and a bone marrow transplant at only 28 haha

 

[Daystavro]

The only thing that will prevent me and many other "financials" from ctb is winning the lottery.
And that's never going to happen due to the one in millions chances.

 

[Miss clefable]

Yes it's just a matter of time and fate

 

[worldexploder]

I will defiantly CTB at some point unless an accident or medical emergency takes me first. I got two choices - die or be miserable.

If Dignitas falls thought or takes too long, I'll still CTB.

 

[oldgray]

i don't think i would ever rationally choose life over death, even with more bearable conditions, but i can see myself last longer if i ever manage to get them.
what i can't see is a future where i have those said conditions.

 

[deathoverlife]

Do you feel that suicide is inevitable for you and it's just a matter of time? Or do you have some hope that life will improve?

don't want to go the hope way... it like a miraj!!
am done with this life and all set to cbt..

 

[Jen Erik]

Yes, inevitable, absent some magical improvement or extremely unlikely change.

 

[millefeui]

100% inevitable. Likely impossible dreams, and if they aren't, I'd still have to die first anyways.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I have to go. I love my family, but with a face so disfigured, I can't go through the pain of life any longer

 

[wanttodie]

it's just a matter of time?

 

[Midnight]

Inevitable unless i die sooner than i ctb by ways out of my control or i if a miracle happens and i win the jackpot in the lottery.

 

[deflagrat]

Eventually one of my parents will die and that's where all my problems will really start to be bad, I am thinking about ctbing before that happens. Even if I don't ctb I don't see myself past 50.

 

[Anon1337]

Yes, unless I die in some other way before I do.

 

[Duqu]

It's absolutely inevitable unless, as @Anon1337 said, something else kills me first.

 

[Virgo]

I've lived my whole life knowing that it is inevitable.

 

[loser41]

100%. even if i get better now, i know ill end up ctb eventually