Discussion is anyone else scared of surviving and ending up severely disfigured or disabled

[tsykoais]

that's honestly one of my biggest fears because not only i would be more miserable being alive it would also make me more dependent on people. when i attempt i want to make sure i'm gone for good.

 

[wham311]

Pattern

Find method

Research

Find out how painful it is

Find out what happens if you don't succeed

Find out how difficult it is to do

End of method

 

[deathbydesign]

Yes which is why I am using SN. It's seems to me that it has the best outcome if you fail

 

[tsykoais]

Yes which is why I am using SN. It's seems to me that it has the best outcome if you fail

i wish i had access to SN

 

[@araxy]

Absolutely! I am terrified of my body becoming paralysed if I fail. I fear I would never have another chance again because the people in my life are very much okay with leaving me alive and suffering.

 

[tsykoais]

because the people in my life are very much okay with leaving me alive and suffering.

1000% this, i have fucking nobody and would end up in a nursing home

 

[quietwoods]

Yep. I'm surprised at the number of people here who seem to have little concern for long term damage and problems.

 

[@araxy]

Yep. I'm surprised at the number of people here who seem to have little concern for long term damage and problems.

Certainly. People really need to do their research lest they may not get another chance if they fail horrifically.

 

[wham311]

Certainly. People really need to do their research lest they may not get another chance if they fail horrifically.

Honestly it's better if they don't look it up because it'll prevent attempt

 

[hedezev4]

I'd even say that what worries me more isn't an unsuccessful method, but life in general. That at any moment, some accident could happen — I could fall and hit my head, or be in a car crash, and lose the ability to CTB. I would suffer for decades and cause pain to others. Paralysis, Alzheimer's, dementia, strokes. Honestly, that's one of the reasons why I want to CTB.

 

[tsykoais]

I'd even say that what worries me more isn't an unsuccessful method, but life in general. That at any moment, some accident could happen — I could fall and hit my head, or be in a car crash, and lose the ability to CTB. I would suffer for decades and cause pain to others. Paralysis, Alzheimer's, dementia, strokes. Honestly, that's one of the reasons why I want to CTB.

my friend and her family died in a car crash that wasn't even their fault, i would rather have control over my death than some drunk idiot

 

[lv-nii]

Is my biggest fear without a doubt, that's why I avoid methods such as hanging or overdose.
I'm more of a gun person, quick, instantaneous and very lethal.

 

[theboy]

Yea

 

[dearlydeparted44]

Not really. If I don't die immediately, I'll die in ICU as a vegetable unaware of my situation. The doctors will just unplug me once they realize that my insurance will run out and they won't be getting paid. Plus, it's a risk I understand and am very willing to take. I need out of this life and world.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I'd even say that what worries me more isn't an unsuccessful method, but life in general. That at any moment, some accident could happen — I could fall and hit my head, or be in a car crash, and lose the ability to CTB. I would suffer for decades and cause pain to others. Paralysis, Alzheimer's, dementia, strokes. Honestly, that's one of the reasons why I want to CTB.

I Agree

But also I fear failure as discussed in this thread . So I'm in a trap. I wish I were never born

 

[wham311]

Not really. If I don't die immediately, I'll die in ICU as a vegetable unaware of my situation. The doctors will just unplug me once they realize that my insurance will run out and they won't be getting paid. Plus, it's a risk I understand and am very willing to take. I need out of this life and world.

I think those fuckers keep you on. Legal ramifications

 

[TheVanishingPoint]

No, I've known many people who have taken their own lives: friends, acquaintances, even people I had only brief contact with. And with very different methods — each chose in their own way.
I've also had friends who attempted suicide and are still alive, and none of them suffered any damage, not even minor.

What strikes me is that the vast majority of those who made that choice are dead.
Those terrifying statistics about survivors with devastating injuries honestly seem like exceptional cases to me — they obviously make the news, but they have no correspondence in reality — neither in my own experience nor in that of the people I know, not even distant relatives living in other countries. They too have lost friends or acquaintances to suicide, but I've never heard of anyone surviving with "horror-movie-like injuries."

So no, it's not something that worries me, because what's reported in numbers or sensationalist headlines doesn't reflect the concrete reality I've lived or heard recounted.

Lastly, I started a thread specifically about statistics, because I have a certain professional familiarity with how statistics are manipulated.
So no, I absolutely do not believe in all those stories of survivors and people left with damage — not in supposed neurological damage from hanging, nor from carbon monoxide poisoning.
Sure, there may be a few cases, but they're a tiny minority, so negligible they're statistically irrelevant.
Those who've truly lived close to these experiences, know this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it is what terrifies me, I find it so horrific how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture as a result, it's terrifying to me how there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I wish for is to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this horrific anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what. It's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, all I want is to be gone, I just want to cease existing peacefully and it's just so painful how I cannot just have that option, existence to me really is an abomination and I'd never wish for this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place.

 

[outrider567]

Not with Nitrogen

 

[KillingPain267]

Yes, it's one of the top reasons I am hesitant

 

[quietwoods]

Not with Nitrogen

It's possible with inert gases to end up a vegetable if the bag slips off your head.

Whether that's a problem I suppose is up to you.

 

[Forveleth]

Nope. I researched my method and I will not make an attempt until I am good and ready. I am confident I will die without consequences.