I am 20 years old and I will be 21 in July, I haven't even finished my studies yet, they told me that it was best for me to leave for my mental health due to suicidal thoughts and more. I would love to finish my studies but I prefer to first try to get a job even if it gives me enough money to rent any place, even if it is small, I just want to leave my home, I hate people who are so egocentric and evil at times here, and they also refuse to be clean because of it I walk I have a phobia of dirt but only in my home and whenever I touch anything outside my room it makes me horrendously nervous, sometimes I get quite desperate or short of breath. It makes me quite sad that people even younger than me have these thoughts, I really hope they can improve :< (I speak Spanish and use a translator, sorry if some parts are not understood)