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traingirl

traingirl

I was good. I was really good.
Oct 7, 2025
243
It's completely different when you're actually standing there. At least for me. Do you not get that sinking feeling when you're somewhere high and actually think about it.

For me jumping is the one, can't imagine doing it some other way, but it do be scaawy. :aw:

I get the sinking feeling just thinking about it in bed but I figure if I run, I don't have to think about it. My existence is pathetic and I have to put an end to it.
 
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Sasha Swift

Sasha Swift

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Oct 11, 2025
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I would recommend letting the bus through for now, if you can't do it yet. It'll get easier when you have more immediate pressing issues, I think. No point in obsessing over leaving if you're too scared of dying to actually do it. Try to make your life less unbearable any way you can in the meanwhile and you can revisit the idea in a the future.

I mean, have you made any progress towards ctb in the past years?
I get the sinking feeling just thinking about it in bed but I figure if I run, I don't have to think about it. My existence is pathetic and I have to put an end to it.
Well, stick in there, or stick the landing girl, u got this.
 
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traingirl

traingirl

I was good. I was really good.
Oct 7, 2025
243
I would recommend letting the bus through for now, if you can't do it yet. It'll get easier when you have more immediate pressing issues, I think. No point in obsessing over leaving if you're too scared of dying to actually do it. Try to make your life less unbearable any way you can in the meanwhile and you can revisit the idea in a the future.

I mean, have you made any progress towards ctb in the past years?

Well, stick in there, or stick the landing girl, u got this.

I only started wanting to leave about three months ago. Idk, maybe you're right. But I don't want to live to see things get worse. I want to die while I have my chance.
 
Sasha Swift

Sasha Swift

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Oct 11, 2025
20
Oh sry, I'm new here and don't exactly know how do replies work on here, the first part was meant for Leichter Kampfwagen.

But yeah, If you've only been suicidal for three months, there is a good chance you will recover. The way I see it, you only live once and then the pain will be gone forever, so I'm staying as long as I can bare it for the sake of getting to experience as many interesting/fun things I can, while I can. Is there a reason why you wouldn't be able to CTB in the future? A worsening medical condition with no hope of recovery for example would be one reason I would also CTB.
 

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