I'm unlovable

[Sadbanana]

I'm autistic retard that makes everyone around them uncomfortable. I thought I have changed, that I can actually talk to people. But everyone who gets to know me leaves me. People don't tell me what they actually think about me. They instead tell me some good sounding bs.

I know I'm probably going to be for ever alone. I won't experience real connection and acceptance. Because I can't change the way I'm, no metter how hard I try. I wish it wasn't true.

I wish at least suicide would be easy. But maybe I'm just too mentally disabled to do that too.

 

[plskilme]

You're not alone in that friend. I suffer from the tism, inattentive ADHD, and anxiety/depression. I make friends and its only a matter of time before they leave my ass... I want to die, but I can't bring myself to it when I'm about to do the deed...