I've been doing my best lately to be happy. I found someone who says they love me, and I don't want to disappoint them. No one else have loved me before, but for some reason I still can't get rid of these thoughts. Every day I keep thinking about relapsing again. I have happy moments, but I can't seem to remove the heavy feeling in my heart. I don't want to disappoint her by hurting myself again. But my wrists miss the pain. I'm breaking down right now, and I don't know what else to do.
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What dreams may come?
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I'm so sorry you're struggling and suffering.
Each time I've relapsed into cutting, it's been worse than the time before. I'm yet to admit it off this forum, but I'm not addicted.
If you can get help to see you through this patch so you don't place such a burden on the new relationship, I suspect you and your wrists and partner will all be happier in the long run.Similar threads
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