I’m taking small doses of SN. Ask about anything

[Mofreeko]

How are some ppl so lucky? We are all human so you think it would be the same. Not that 2g can kill some and 30g can't kill some

I have yet to see a convincing thread that someone took 30 grams and survived without medical intervention.

 

[Mofreeko]

Even minus protocol?

That one the other day that girl Intelligentleg or something was the name

Read that entire thread. She's called out on a bunch of inconsistencies in her story.

 

[releasespieces]

Read that entire thread. She's called out on a bunch of inconsistencies in her story.

Absolutely. It was all over the place. I feel for her, but some of it really made no sense at all.

 

[swanlife]

I wonder what happened :/

 

[Wannabehappy]

Hello everyone. I survived, but it wasn't an entirely peaceful night. around 3 a.m. I woke up. I don't know if I passed out, once for sure, but when I woke up I felt like I was shaking, I was all sweaty. I felt that my body was fighting to get rid of the SN, nausea appeared, I didn't vomit even once. The abdominal pain was slowly becoming unbearable. I honestly thought he was going to die and I wasn't panicked for a moment, I wasn't worried about anything. This morning, however, I regret waking up. I'm definitely going to use the drugs from the Stan list next time. Now I know that they are not necessary, but they certainly make it easier to get out of this life. I'm waiting for Christmas as previously planned. I will not give up this method.

 

[Mofreeko]

Regardless of OP's miraculous recovery, I must again urge people to not take any amount of SN unless they are 100% ready to ctb.

 

[Wannabehappy]

Regardless of OP's miraculous recovery, I must again urge people to not take any amount of SN unless they are 100% ready to ctb.

I agree. I made a conscious decision, and I was aware of the consequences. Please keep in mind that everyone may react differently than me. I think that if I didn't eat anything, and took even a slightly higher dose, it would definitely be over. I feel very weak, uncomfortable and have a migraine. I am also pale as a sheet, I have very dark circles under my eyes.

 

[Jadzia]

Even minus protocol?

That one the other day that girl Intelligentleg or something was the

Even minus protocol?

That one the other day that girl Intelligentleg or something was the name

Her two threads regarding her taking SN should be taken with a huge pinch of SN!

 

[byebyered]

How bad were your symptoms on a scale 1-10? Just in general on your whole experience. theres a chance I'll have to take SN without any meds to help ease the process which makes me nervous.

 

[Jadzia]

I really don't think taking small amount can prepare you for what a larger amount would be like.

I really don't understand why people take these amounts to experiment.

 

[Wannabehappy]

on a scale of 1-10 I think it's a 3. Sorry I didn't mention it sooner but I'm just recovering. I had a heartache that was bearable, but that's one of the things that made me uneasy at one point. I had a feeling it would stop working soon.

I really don't think taking small amount can prepare you for what a larger amount wold be like.

I really don't understand why people take these amounts to experiment.

What I've been wondering about is what it's like to be breathing and yet not getting oxygen, and how unpleasant that is. It's not at all, but that's my personal feeling.

 

[Lostinspace]

Which one of the drugs would help with the stomach cramps? Hope you're doing ok mentally, not just physically

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry you have suffered. Honestly, I feel a bit like I'm looking at a trapeze artist when I hear people saying they are experimenting with SN. Not so much the risk they could die- which by this point- I expect the majority of us would welcome (for ourselves obviously) on here- so I do understand it when people say they are comfortable with death being a possibility.

It's more the concern for them that they will suffer. Mercifully, the longer term consequences of 'failing' or trialing SN don't seem to be as severe as other methods. Still, it seems like a big risk to me. I imagine quite a few people do ring for emergency services and end up in a psyche ward- or at least on the radar of mental health services- so perhaps more monitored with regards to purchasing lethal substances (although- I don't really know.)

Having said all that, we have to respect one another's choices and I'm simultaneously SO grateful to people like you- who share your experiences with it.

Perhaps it's just my naive hope but I suppose my thinking is- with a full dose and following the protocol, I wonder how more likely it is that we will pass out before some of the really horrible and distressing symptoms hit in? Of course, I expect, the larger the dose, the more likely it is to vomit. Still- I get the impression that the full method is (in theory) supposed to overwhelm the system rather than draw out the experience of each symptom over a longer period of time.

In any case- thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. I hope you make a speedy recovery and don't experience any longer term side effects. All the best to you.

 

[Wannabehappy]

I wrote it all down in a notebook first, as a longer reflection after last night, so that I could sort everything out. I know that for many it is foolish to experiment with even a minimal dose of SN, especially since in an earlier topic I started, I described the first contact with SN, without ingestion and felt a slight effect.

Why did I do it? I'm at a point in my life where I really don't care, and I wanted to see what it would be like to brush against death, even if I brushed myself a little too much. I don't know what to think about it, I'm talking about myself here. I don't know what to think about the fact that only now can I calm down, that only now, after many months of desperate crying for my end, can I calm down. Life has destroyed me so much that I don't even have a fucking SI, no reflex to call for help, I looked at myself and felt that this pile of meat I'm locked in is fighting for life when I don't want it anymore. When the worst moment of the night came, I said to myself: "fly, don't be afraid and fly, leave this world already" I didn't regret anything, I didn't give a shit what I leave.

I will remember this night until the end, and I know that in a moment, in a few days, I will repeat the same thing, no longer for an experiment.

I know that you have to approach it calmly, if someone hesitates, does not know if he is sure, please do not do it. I know what psychological damage I did to myself by the attempt and I know that if I withdraw, it will come back from time to time. Today he feels crushed, as if your parent is yelling at you and you are standing in the corner of the room as punishment. Defenseless, weak. Don't do it if you want to get attention, don't fucking do it if you have even a glimmer of hope for tomorrow, because tomorrow may not come.

Physically, chest pain, slight heartache. Everything tolerable, it doesn't bother me but I feel like it's the effect of last night.

Today I look at the world in a damn empty way, I realized how fucking pointless it all was over the last few years. How disappointed I am in myself and others, how angry people are that even though they know what state you are in, that you are fucking planning to kill yourself, no one reacts. Remember, if you, who are reading this, decide to do the same, you must know that it will be a very lonely night, you will never feel as lonely as then. There will be only you and your last minutes.

Memories helped me persevere, not the good ones because there are only a handful of them. And the bad, the worst. And music playing in silence somewhere in the background.

A higher dose of SN, I think it will cause unconsciousness in a few minutes. Antiemetics are recommended, I was nauseous. Fuck, I really think vomiting is the worst thing that can come. The aftertaste of SN in the mouth became unbearable after a while, I felt it even on my teeth, like some kind of sediment.

I will informatively describe my physical conditions, maybe it will give some insight as to why I reacted so much to a small dose. Overall healthy, about 20kg underweight, I'm tall. I smoke a lot, recently I eat little, I drink a lot, I think that for two months I can confidently say that I fell into alcoholism. I used to take meds, I was treated for depression, but I gave it up.

I will spend the next few days in silence, cut off from everything, I have to be alone with it all. I don't know if I'll be back here on my last day, maybe just to say goodbye and say hi to all of you. Thank you for the words of support, for the words of common sense, for the fact that there are people here who understand and for the fact that there are those who can soberly approach any topic. Thank you.

 

[MideonNViscera]

Although you seem to have no regrets, it sounds terrible to me and I'm sorry you went through that. I appreciate it all the same.

 

[Judy Garland]

I agree. I made a conscious decision, and I was aware of the consequences. Please keep in mind that everyone may react differently than me. I think that if I didn't eat anything, and took even a slightly higher dose, it would definitely be over. I feel very weak, uncomfortable and have a migraine. I am also pale as a sheet, I have very dark circles under my eyes.

This is exactly why I'm afraid to take my SN. I was planning on taking it in a few weeks but I don't know if I can. You feel uncomfortable, weak and have a migraine from just 2 or 3 grams. Now imagine failing at 20 grams and waking up. That's 20x the headache, uncomfortableness and abdominal pain that you mentioned. Between these symptoms and the other threads saying they failed and describing their symptoms afterwards, I don't know if I can do this anymore. I feel trapped. I want to die, but I can't handle what happens if I fail. I'll be deathly ill and plunged into a hell of illness. This freaks me out.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I don't see the big deal if the OP took a sample amount. They seem 100% sure on dying so if they happen to die from this taste test, mission accomplished. The only reservation one should have about the implications of taste testing sn, is it they are not sure about dying. In which case, they shouldn't have the sn in the first place.

 

[Justnotme]

This is exactly why I'm afraid to take my SN. I was planning on taking it in a few weeks but I don't know if I can. You feel uncomfortable, weak and have a migraine from just 2 or 3 grams. Now imagine failing at 20 grams and waking up. That's 20x the headache, uncomfortableness and abdominal pain that you mentioned. Between these symptoms and the other threads saying they failed and describing their symptoms afterwards, I don't know if I can do this anymore. I feel trapped. I want to die, but I can't handle what happens if I fail. I'll be deathly ill and plunged into a hell of illness. This freaks me out.

I'm also scared that a person felt unbearable abdominal pain from 3 grams. What kind of pain will be at 20 grams then....

 

[Judy Garland]

I'm also scared that a person felt unbearable abdominal pain from 3 grams. What kind of pain will be at 20 grams then....

I know. It's turned my plans all upside down.

 

[HerculePoirot]

I'm also scared that a person felt unbearable abdominal pain from 3 grams. What kind of pain will be at 20 grams then....

I think if you take 20 or 25 grams instead of 3, you'll faint much faster (typically 10 minutes). So you won't feel the final path in the large intestine and the abdominal pain induced.

 

[Judy Garland]

I think if you take 20 or 25 grams instead of 3, you'll faint much faster (typically 10 minutes). So you won't feel the final path in the large intestine and the abdominal pain induced.

But what happens if I wake back up because of vomiting and I'm not able to get to the second glass because of all of the dizziness, and nausea side effects. It could fail and then I'd be horrifically ill for days. I'm so scared HerculePoirot, I was so set in my plan for new years. I was planning on doing it on the morning of the 31st early enough so neighbors are asleep in case I made any noise. I want to die but I don't know if I can go through with this. These threads of horror stories have really gotten me scared. Very scared.

 

[Wunderkind]

I'm also scared that a person felt unbearable abdominal pain from 3 grams. What kind of pain will be at 20 grams then....

I know. It's turned my plans all upside down.

I think if you take 20 or 25 grams instead of 3, you'll faint much faster (typically 10 minutes). So you won't feel the final path in the large intestine and the abdominal pain induced.

Don't Forget Ibuprofen at 600-800mg
With him, there should be no pain or it will be very minimal.

 

[HerculePoirot]

But what happens if I wake back up because of vomiting and I'm not able to get to the second glass because of all of the dizziness, and nausea side effects. It could fail and then I'd be horrifically ill for days. I'm so scared HerculePoirot, I was so set in my plan for new years. I was planning on doing it on the morning of the 31st early enough so neighbors are asleep in case I made any noise. I want to die but I don't know if I can go through with this. These threads of horror stories have really gotten me scared. Very scared.

Once the poison reaches the duodenum, you're done. The pylore will reduce the risk of vomiting to quasi zero. The rest of the process will automatically result in your death (provided you're not discovered too early).

 

[Lostinspace]

The cramps terrify me as well…

 

[jawdropped123]

I may not be able to reply to your message. there is pain in the abdominal area, uncomfortable. There are moments when I don't know what's going on, like a short blackouts. Wish me luck guys. If I will wake up tomorrow, I'm gonna let You all know

Hey are you ok? We didnt get any updates

 

[locked*n*loaded]

But what happens if I wake back up because of vomiting and I'm not able to get to the second glass because of all of the dizziness, and nausea side effects.

This would hold true with any poison method. The only way to avoid the potential of these effects is to choose a non-poisonous method.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

How bad were your symptoms on a scale 1-10? Just in general on your whole experience. theres a chance I'll have to take SN without any meds to help ease the process which makes me nervous.

Well I mean they probably experience more symptoms than they needed to being that they took such a small amount. The longer you're awake the more symptoms you're going to experience.

 

[Judy Garland]

Well I mean they probably experience more symptoms than they needed to being that they took such a small amount. The longer you're awake the more symptoms you're going to experience.

And what worries me is if one fails after taking 20g through no fault of their own, how are those symptoms going to feel then. 20x the headache, 20x the abdominal pain etc. The only way I would fail is if my SN from DD is somehow bad and not as pure, or if I vomit while unconscious and somehow not enough is absorbed. I wish I never saw those threads. I was very confident in my date and time, and now I'm scared more than anything. Waking up to pure illness would be hell.

 

[jessisme]

But what happens if I wake back up because of vomiting and I'm not able to get to the second glass because of all of the dizziness, and nausea side effects. It could fail and then I'd be horrifically ill for days. I'm so scared HerculePoirot, I was so set in my plan for new years. I was planning on doing it on the morning of the 31st early enough so neighbors are asleep in case I made any noise. I want to die but I don't know if I can go through with this. These threads of horror stories have really gotten me scared. Very scared.

Me too. I have SN but I am so afraid I don't know if I will be able to muster up the will to do it. Especially since I have to do it outside in the woods because I live with my mother and can't afford a hotel. It will suck to have things go south and be struggling and suffering alone in the woods with no one to reach out to for help.

 

[releasespieces]

Me too. I have SN but I am so afraid I don't know if I will be able to muster up the will to do it. Especially since I have to do it outside in the woods because I live with my mother and can't afford a hotel. It will suck to have things go south and be struggling and suffering alone in the woods with no one to reach out to for help.

Me too. I have SN but I am so afraid I don't know if I will be able to muster up the will to do it. Especially since I have to do it outside in the woods because I live with my mother and can't afford a hotel. It will suck to have things go south and be struggling and suffering alone in the woods with no one to reach out to for help.

To state the obvious… it's okay to let it go if you're afraid. I think there are a lot of people on here that have a hard time mustering up the courage and just hang around hoping for the right method to come along. My life is always teetering on a precipice, things could easily get bad enough where I'm out of options and the fear of pain or failure won't overcome my need to suicide.