Help buildings / bridges for jumping in nyc

[parabellum_]

i live in ny (not in manhattan but very close) and im planning to ctb by jumping since it seemed the most convenient for me.

for anyone who lives in manhattan, are there any publicly available rooftops (or hotels with balconies / wide windows) that i can do it? ik its not right to traumatize others and shit but genuinely idgaf anymore. ill be (HOPEFULLY) dead why do i care.

im always ready to ctb. i just need a way to do it. i cant bring myself to use SN because im scared of vomiting and ive already attempted a few times before and nothing worked. im fucking tired of this i just want to go.

 

[destro98]

I'm in the same boat and I really need to ctb soon. I have spent the last few weeks checking out all available jumping options.

I was reading about the streamer Etika who jumped off the Manhattan Bridge in 2019 and drowned. I walked the Manhatan Bridge a few times and it's interesting because it's open 24/7. So, theoretically, you could go in the middle of the night and ctb. The problem is that it is only 135 feet above the water so there is a risk of surviving. In fact, Etika did die from drowning, not from the impact, so theoretically if someone had found him earlier they could have rescued him, which would not be ideal.

The George Washington Bridge is 212 ft above the water, but it has high fences, lots of bystanders, security guards and closes at midnight. The Bayonne Bridge is 215 feet above water but also has high fences. The best option appears to be further north, an 80-minute train ride away: the Walkway over the Hudson in Poughkeepsie. 212 ft, no high fences. I've gone there six times with the intention to ctb, but it's really crowded and I keep backing out. (Aside from SI, it would be really crappy to ctb with a family right next to you. I'm not trying to traumatize anyone.) Plus it closes at 7:30/8pm, and the rangers are all over it at closing, so you can't hide.

My next strategy was going to be to try to sneak into Walkway over the Hudson a few hours after closing and hop the fence, but I saw the motion-detecting cameras when I walked it, and I read that police are all over it, so I'm quite a bit nervous about that. (I'm going through an awful divorce right now and separate family crisis, so me getting arrested would make my already-awful life substantially worse.) So I'm stuck.

Does anyone else in the NYC area have any great jumping ideas? Or ctb ideas in general (i.e., easy way to buy a gun without paperwork, etc.)