Circumstances beyond my control and my own stupidity have pushed me into this corner. I want to live but the damage is done and it's just getting worse so I have no choice but to go to prevent further suffering. This is beyond torture. 
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annointed_towers
I’ll cross my heart, I’ll hope to die
- Dec 9, 2022
- 422
It's the most heartbreaking and infuriating fucking thing in the world. Wouldn't wish it on anyone.
KillingPain267
Visionary
- Apr 15, 2024
- 2,086
Totally feel this! If I don't ctb soon, I'll spiral down worse paths, cause myself more suffering and hurt others in the process as collateral damage they didn't deserve.Circumstances beyond my control and my own stupidity have pushed me into this corner. I want to live but the damage is done and it's just getting worse so I have no choice but to go to prevent further suffering. This is beyond torture.
lkjhgfdsa1
🖤
- Apr 17, 2024
- 442
the loss of control over my own life has ruined me
divinemistress87
Angelic
- Jan 1, 2024
- 4,919
L
Loss of control is the worst feeling ever
cowboypants
From milkyway
- May 7, 2024
- 576
J
Just going outside feels so painful with my anxiety. And if I just stay inside the anxiety gets worse. I just don't know why I even want to wait anymore. I just want to be sureCircumstances beyond my control and my own stupidity have pushed me into this corner. I want to live but the damage is done and it's just getting worse so I have no choice but to go to prevent further suffering. This is beyond torture.
there are some things i reaally like in life, sometimes i wish i didn't have to go this way, but it's a necessity, otherwise i'll lose the little dignity i still have
tbroken
Wizard
- Feb 22, 2024
- 690
I experienced the same for the last 15 years more or less and it was not even my fault. I tought i could di things, but I did not. It is time for me to die.
lkjhgfdsa1
🖤
- Apr 17, 2024
- 442
It also goes up and down
From anger to sadness to 2 second lasting option to greater sadness and greater anger and repeatSimilar threads
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