Venting I don't care about my birds anymore. I want to die already

[deadanddecomposing]

I've finally annoyed my family too much. I used to stay alive for my birds, but honestly I'm done living for others. I keep getting told I'm not enough of an adult and I think it's about time I do something about that. I don't have to worry about toughening up or resilience if I can just end it. I'm stuck in a place where it would be hard to pull off, but in three weeks, when I get home, I'm going to buy the tools needed to finally do this. I hope someone cares for my birds, but more likely they'll just sell them. I'm sorry to them and only them. I'm so beyond stupid and I keep making bad choices while trying hard not to. I can't tell what good decisions are.