Venting Im scared my friends dont value me as much as i value them

[TheAngelBornInHell]

i love my friends and i love them as much as my family. i love hanging out them. i spent most of my time with them and everything. but recently i realized my friends kinda... dont know that much about me? they dont know small details the same way i know of them. i know this sounds stupid and slop but anyway

for example if i posted about something new or about myself on my discord channel in our friengroup server about a certain something. they are surprised if i bring it up in voice call.. Like they never read i did that? or they skimmed over my obviously important message? they also only care if its about drama or trash talking people. literally what is my use to everyone else. i feel like they only hangout with me to pass the time and not actually for me as a person. i find myself trying to finish work or assignments early just to hangout with them but im sure they would never do the same...... i hate that kind of idea.. I hate that they might not care about me at all and are using me .is this normal for a 6 year friendship?

 

[meowpuppy]

i relate so fucking much it hurts ugh god

my friends wouldn't have been my friends if i hadn't spammed them like every other hour whenever i was lonely, begging for attention. one of my friends literally said this, point blank, that if i wasn't needy, then we wouldn't have been friends. i feel like what you suspect your friends are doing to you, i used to do that to my friends, just using them as ways to pass time instead of people..

these days, i don't have friends.

 

[SoLowHollow48]

Well, I can't say much about this since I don't have online friends, just irl friends who become online because we're separated by distance. They're in City A, I'm in City B.

If you've voiced out your complaints about this issue and they still dgaf then... I'm sorry but you'll have to find new friends and while you do, you'll have to be alone for some time because I know very well that finding friends is not easy.

Stay strong. I mean, you have us here--not the most ideal place and the most ideal people but we hear you