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Griever

Griever

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May 1, 2025
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I can feel it now - the stillness settling in my bones, the quiet ticking of time growing softer with each passing day. There is no fear left in me, no resistance. Just a calm surrender to the truth I've known for a while: I won't be here much longer.

Strange, how death no longer feels like a thief. It used to terrify me - the thought of disappearing, of leaving behind fragments of a life that never quite felt whole. But now, after everything ... I'm tired. So tired. Not just in body, but in spirit. Years of carrying grief, wearing loneliness like a second skin, enduring the ache of pretending I was okay when I wasn't - it all weighs more than I can hold anymore.

There is a kind of peace in the knowing. Knowing that the pain has an end. Knowing that the noise, the pressure, the memories that haunt me - they will all fade. And I will finally rest.

I'm not saying goodbye with sorrow, not really. This isn't a tragedy. It's just a quiet closing of a chapter that was never meant to last forever. If anything, I hope to be remembered gently - not for the pain I bore, but for the strength it took to keep going until I didn't have to anymore.

Soon, the suffering will be over. And with that, I will finally find peace.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

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Feb 9, 2025
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I want pain, torment and suffering to end as well.🫂
 
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Mooncry

Mooncry

delulu girlfailure
Sep 11, 2024
397
I love this so much. So beautifully written and it deeply resonates with me. Definitely saving this one. 🤍
 
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Griever

Griever

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May 1, 2025
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I love this so much. So beautifully written and it deeply resonates with me. Definitely saving this one. 🤍
I appreciate it and it means a lot to me
 
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Broken@25

Broken@25

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Apr 22, 2025
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I can feel it now - the stillness settling in my bones, the quiet ticking of time growing softer with each passing day. There is no fear left in me, no resistance. Just a calm surrender to the truth I've known for a while: I won't be here much longer.

Strange, how death no longer feels like a thief. It used to terrify me - the thought of disappearing, of leaving behind fragments of a life that never quite felt whole. But now, after everything ... I'm tired. So tired. Not just in body, but in spirit. Years of carrying grief, wearing loneliness like a second skin, enduring the ache of pretending I was okay when I wasn't - it all weighs more than I can hold anymore.

There is a kind of peace in the knowing. Knowing that the pain has an end. Knowing that the noise, the pressure, the memories that haunt me - they will all fade. And I will finally rest.

I'm not saying goodbye with sorrow, not really. This isn't a tragedy. It's just a quiet closing of a chapter that was never meant to last forever. If anything, I hope to be remembered gently - not for the pain I bore, but for the strength it took to keep going until I didn't have to anymore.

Soon, the suffering will be over. And with that, I will finally find peace.

I can feel it now - the stillness settling in my bones, the quiet ticking of time growing softer with each passing day. There is no fear left in me, no resistance. Just a calm surrender to the truth I've known for a while: I won't be here much longer.

Strange, how death no longer feels like a thief. It used to terrify me - the thought of disappearing, of leaving behind fragments of a life that never quite felt whole. But now, after everything ... I'm tired. So tired. Not just in body, but in spirit. Years of carrying grief, wearing loneliness like a second skin, enduring the ache of pretending I was okay when I wasn't - it all weighs more than I can hold anymore.

There is a kind of peace in the knowing. Knowing that the pain has an end. Knowing that the noise, the pressure, the memories that haunt me - they will all fade. And I will finally rest.

I'm not saying goodbye with sorrow, not really. This isn't a tragedy. It's just a quiet closing of a chapter that was never meant to last forever. If anything, I hope to be remembered gently - not for the pain I bore, but for the strength it took to keep going until I didn't have to anymore.

Soon, the suffering will be over. And
Me too now for me it's any day. I woke up today thinking i don't wanna be here and I have felt this way for years. After I turned 25 I just hit this point where im okay with what is and was and my bus is here.
 

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