Honeybee
Member
- Feb 14, 2026
- 27
I wanted so many times, countless times to write to them, and explain things, and apologise. I thought I would always have that option.
Sometime recently (within 4 months) they blocked me, after keeping things open without any contact for 2 years.
I know it's my fault and I should've said something sooner, but so many things held me back, and now it's too late, again, and I don't even have the option to anymore. Suddenly they are gone, for a final time.
It brings up so many conflicting feelings. Makes me wonder, why now? Maybe it's their healing process, or maybe they think/thought about me as much as I think about them. Maybe that's selfish to want.
I'm so tired. so sad.
I think I might write my letters to them anyway.
Sometime recently (within 4 months) they blocked me, after keeping things open without any contact for 2 years.
I know it's my fault and I should've said something sooner, but so many things held me back, and now it's too late, again, and I don't even have the option to anymore. Suddenly they are gone, for a final time.
It brings up so many conflicting feelings. Makes me wonder, why now? Maybe it's their healing process, or maybe they think/thought about me as much as I think about them. Maybe that's selfish to want.
I'm so tired. so sad.
I think I might write my letters to them anyway.