i’m miserable

[rocksnrocks]

i used to have depression that kept me in bed unable to do anything and always on the brink of ctb. now i'm medicated so i'm able to function but i im absolutely miserable all day every day no matter what i do. i can't go to social events anymore because i feel all wrong and like i have no idea how to be a normal person. it takes me just a few minutes to feel like i need to leave i need to leave i need to go. nothing brings me any happiness anymore. im in college on a full tuition scholarship, i have a boyfriend who's the most wonderful and genuinely sweet and perfect person i've ever been with, im medicated, im in therapy, my parents do everything they can to support me— and im miserable. im so tired of being miserable. the only thing stopping me from ctb is the guilt about my bf and my parents and my little brother but i don't know how much longer that's going to hold up. it's a cliche ig but the world is dark and cold and every day is just another day that i drag myself through

 

[Baisley]

I feel your pain. I feel the exact same way that you do. I struggle everyday to do any and everything. I am just kind of existing but in no way truly living. I am completely miserable myself. I would love to CTB but yet haven't figured out how to pull it all off yet. I don't have SN.