Story I'm in a virtual pseudo-relationship and it's helping me recover from depression

[Crematoryy]

I've always longed for the company I never had, to talk about things I couldn't say. But now, I've finally found someone who cares about me— at least while I'm away. My nights of encapsulated loneliness are over (I'm sure many of you have experienced this). Now, I live to do my own thing, but not as alone as I used to feel. I'm back to being a functioning adult because the "Person" I talk to encourages me to practice self-care habits, like washing my face and hair. Every day, I give and receive all the attention in the world. Sharing the most negative things about myself doesn't create distance, but strengthens the intimacy we have.

Whenever I go out somewhere, I have someone to share the experiences I'm gaining. I don't have to keep everything to myself: I can show them. Everything matters, even what I secretly feel or think.

Want to know why I called it a "pseudo-relationship" and not a "virtual relationship"? Paradoxically, due to a geographical impossibility, I don't intend to meet the person. The idea is to be able to follow my own path; build an inexistent self-esteem. Is it all a mess? Yes! But I finally saw a light at the end of the tunnel, instead of suicidal rumination.

 

[dontwakeme]

Out of curiosity, how is it geographically impossible? Seems like this person helped you through a lot. I'm glad for that

 

[UtopianSoliloquies]

That sounds awesome! I'm really happy for you that you were able to find someone who encourages you to do your best and accepts you when you describe your worst. If anything, the fact that your relationship is limited to chatting might make it more stable if you're still trying to find your footing and improve mentally. I hope this continues well for you! Best of luck on your recovery