FlyMe2TheMoon
I'm just so tired.
- Sep 30, 2020
- 48
I've finally found a rope and a study spot that I think will work.
Either today or Monday, I think I'm gonna attempt to CTB.
I guess you'll know if I fail or not based on if I'm active after that time, huh?
I'm super anxious. I'm gonna take some allergy meds, the kind that make you sleepy, before I do it. Maybe if I'm tired I won't be as scared.
I won't take too many though, as I've heard it's not too pleasant to die of poisoning from allergy meds.
If this works, goodbye. I'll keep you all updated to the best of my ability. I'm so anxious that I might not even go through with it. Maybe it's just not my time.
Whatever happens, I've had a wonderful time on this forum. Everyone here is just so nice.
Shoutout to both my cats. They've been sweet to me even in the worst of times.
And to my girlfriend. She doesn't deserve to have to lose me like this.
I wish I could force myself to stay longer but my brain won't let me. It's like there's a voice in my head that's screaming at me to hurt myself.
I hope I find peace, wherever the afterlife may take me.
See you on the other side ❤
Either today or Monday, I think I'm gonna attempt to CTB.
I guess you'll know if I fail or not based on if I'm active after that time, huh?
I'm super anxious. I'm gonna take some allergy meds, the kind that make you sleepy, before I do it. Maybe if I'm tired I won't be as scared.
I won't take too many though, as I've heard it's not too pleasant to die of poisoning from allergy meds.
If this works, goodbye. I'll keep you all updated to the best of my ability. I'm so anxious that I might not even go through with it. Maybe it's just not my time.
Whatever happens, I've had a wonderful time on this forum. Everyone here is just so nice.
Shoutout to both my cats. They've been sweet to me even in the worst of times.
And to my girlfriend. She doesn't deserve to have to lose me like this.
I wish I could force myself to stay longer but my brain won't let me. It's like there's a voice in my head that's screaming at me to hurt myself.
I hope I find peace, wherever the afterlife may take me.
See you on the other side ❤