Venting Im genuinely dumb as fuck and I'm actively ruining my life

[dumbnhappy]

lmao. lmfao even. last semester I failed so hard that I lost my extremely well paying internship, which I was depending on financially. I'm now lost as fuck, looking for a job. my grades are horrendous. I have no real friends, and no one likes me. I cant even be my true self cause I live with my parents. I'm a failure. its actually sad that if I were to CTB rn, nobody would ask why. I'm a failure. Women in the past would kill for the opportunities I have rn and Im just wasting them. do I even deserve to live like this? I really should CTB. but I'm too scared to even do that

 

[Withered]

I feel you. I had something similar happen to me. Sometimes there is a way out, and sometimes there isn't. I really hope you find a way out. That purgatory between being unable to live and unable to die is the worst thing a human can experience.