I'm freaking out my entire life is a lie.

[genie]

It feels like my soul is being torn apart. I was never supposed to have lived this life. Like the timeline has changed or something. I've been deluding myself my entire life. Every day is just more depression and struggling to get out of bed. I can't keep up with appointments. I hate everyone. I want to be left alone. I don't want to be left alone. Everything is falling apart around me. I don't know who I am anymore or even if I'm real. All I know is that my desire to CTB grows stronger every day.

 

[venerated-vader]

This is so real, I feel the same. I've been struggling making appointments, phone calls, paying bills for so long now, it's hard to imagine I'll ever be able to commit to anything.

 

[BloomingAzaleas]

No one truly was ever meant to live life, we're all just happy accidents in a way.

 

[genie]

No one truly was ever meant to live life, we're all just happy accidents in a way.

Unhappy accident in my case.

 

[KillingPain267]

Same. I keep postponing appointments with excuses of headaches. I just don't wanna go out, especially now that it gets sunnier. Because ironically, sunny weather reminds me of a happier time and then I get sad. So it doesn't cheer me up like it does others. I also feel like life is a lie after my true love suddenly left me. It really does feel like I was thrown into a different dimension. I feel off, and it made me literally question the nature of reality or if things like consciousness and the self are not just illusions.

 

[Halfhourdays]

It feels like my soul is being torn apart. I was never supposed to have lived this life. Like the timeline has changed or something. I've been deluding myself my entire life. Every day is just more depression and struggling to get out of bed. I can't keep up with appointments. I hate everyone. I want to be left alone. I don't want to be left alone. Everything is falling apart around me. I don't know who I am anymore or even if I'm real. All I know is that my desire to CTB grows stronger every day.

An unreal simulation or Dreamworld, yeah, me too. I feel like everyone is fake and the world is a simulation or nightmare. I need to ctb as well.