You use chemistry to fuck with your brain signals and they go haywire. That is a material phenomenon. That is all it is! Nothing magical, nothing mysterious!
I wouldn't write off the psychedelic experiences too quickly. It could be the case that psilocybin and dmt actually allow our brains to tune in to other frequencies of consciousness, like parallel dimensions. I mean, serotonin is the neuromodulating chemical which our brains normally use to build the everyday 'consensus world'. The world we experience normally is actually a 'model' in our brains built using serotonin and other neurochemicals after photons bounce off objects, enter our retinas, and the optic nerve carries the signals to the visual cortex, etc. Taking dmt reduces serotonin levels, elevates the naturally occurring (though low-level) dimethyltriptamine quantities present in the brain, and produces totally alien experiences of four-dimensional kaleidoscopic worlds.
Who's to say that the everyday serotonin consensus-world is the real one, and the dmt world is just a hallucination? In a way, everything you perceive is about chemistry and brain signals, the question is how is consciousness/perception connected to those?
Saying something is a material phenomenon just begs the question, since we don't know what the true nature of matter really is. We have models and theories, but we don't have access to the absolute truth. For all we know, if we go deep enough, matter might be reducible to some form of consciousness. Certainly the copenhagen interpretation or the von neumann-wigner interpretation
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Von_Neumann–Wigner_interpretation of quantum mechanics would seem to suggest something along those lines.
I know that I am being eternally tortured and there is no hope of escape? Even if I don't remember each iteration, the fact that I know this now is tormenting! I've lived a nightmarish existence and I do not want to continue it otherwise I wouldn't be here! I want to be dead! or at the very least, live alternative versions of my life but otherwise I want to be dead! ETERNALLY!!
You seem to be needlessly torturing yourself with an idea that you cannot possibly know whether it's true or not.
There is no evidence for this eternal recurrence theory. It's just a thought experiment with no concrete scientific data to back it up.
Just try to let it go. Wed yourself to a more positive, less anguish-inducing idea.
You seem unhappy with the eternal recurrence idea yet also weirdly masochistically reveling in it, and probably causing other members anguish as well.
I don't understand what you're tying to achieve here?
The logic appears to be rock solid
Can you explain the logic again? It doesn't appear to me to be a question of logic, but a scientific/cosmological/metaphysical question. As far as I am aware the scientific evidence just isn't there. Could you name one prominent cosmologist/physicist who believes in the eternal recurrence of the universe?
Unless you are the greatest genius in cosmology and astrophysics and metaphysics that ever existed, the faith you have in your conclusions seems much stronger than the actual evidence for the idea. It's a thought experiment from Nietzsche with the infinite monkey theorem thrown in, as well as some very questionable cosmological assumptions. Poincare recurrence doesn't seem to be applicable to the universe. The theorem that applies is the no-intersection theorem of nonlinear dynamics (a system that includes chaos can never attain the same state twice.)
"The result (Poincare recurrence) applies to isolated mechanical systems subject to some constraints, e.g., all particles must be bound to a finite volume" (wikidepia). This means that it cannot apply to an ever-expanding universe. The end of the universe would have to be a big crunch for the poincare recurrence theorem to be valid. But the cosmological data point to heat death, not big crunch.
What you seem to be describing is apeirophobia, a fear of infinite things, infinite recurrences like in fractals etc.
It is a phobia, i.e. an irrational fear...