Minjas
Member
- Oct 5, 2025
- 46
I'm not talking about slitting my wrists and posting it on social media and be like "oh look I'm so depressed" or that type of shit. (Not saying I haven't done it before in my pre-pubescent depression phase lol)
I mean genuinely know that I am suffering. I don't know if I am searching for sympathy, but I am most definitely not looking for help because I know there isn't any.
I want to have a reason to feel this way. I want to have gone through a traumatic event (which is a horrible thing to say I know) to actually be able to say "look, this happened to me and that's why I am suffering".
Because every time I open up to someone and they ask "why?", I don't know what to say. I can't explain that my brain is just a sick, rotten, dark place.
I can't think of anything to do or say to not seem attention seeking. No, it's not a phase, I am sick and I want people to know that I am sick.
Yes, it is "all in my head". My head is the problem. But it's not as harmless as it sounds. It's a never ending torture without any point or reason. All day every day. Sleep is my only escape from my head. My head is suffocating me and I don't even know what I am waiting for. I just want people to be aware, even if I don't know what change it would bring.
I mean genuinely know that I am suffering. I don't know if I am searching for sympathy, but I am most definitely not looking for help because I know there isn't any.
I want to have a reason to feel this way. I want to have gone through a traumatic event (which is a horrible thing to say I know) to actually be able to say "look, this happened to me and that's why I am suffering".
Because every time I open up to someone and they ask "why?", I don't know what to say. I can't explain that my brain is just a sick, rotten, dark place.
I can't think of anything to do or say to not seem attention seeking. No, it's not a phase, I am sick and I want people to know that I am sick.
Yes, it is "all in my head". My head is the problem. But it's not as harmless as it sounds. It's a never ending torture without any point or reason. All day every day. Sleep is my only escape from my head. My head is suffocating me and I don't even know what I am waiting for. I just want people to be aware, even if I don't know what change it would bring.
