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- Apr 8, 2020
- 36
Last time I was here was over a year ago. Boy things haven't changed much. I've made several serious attempts on my life since being here, and I have been sectioned in a mental hospital for almost a year. But ultimately I am still alive, still actively suicidal, and still looking for peace.
I'm overdosing tonight on 1gram of propranolol in hopes it slows my breathing and heart rate. I will partial suspension ligature as well, and hopefully this will finally be enough. I planned to take twice the amount of the drug but the online pharmacy didn't deliver it when I was on a visit so I'm pretty annoyed. I'm on 5 minute checks after being continually watched for over 6 months (yes, even when I was in the bathroom) so this is my moment.
Wish me luck I guess.
I'm overdosing tonight on 1gram of propranolol in hopes it slows my breathing and heart rate. I will partial suspension ligature as well, and hopefully this will finally be enough. I planned to take twice the amount of the drug but the online pharmacy didn't deliver it when I was on a visit so I'm pretty annoyed. I'm on 5 minute checks after being continually watched for over 6 months (yes, even when I was in the bathroom) so this is my moment.
Wish me luck I guess.
