I’m an idiot who drank SN impulsively

[EndlessDream]

I hope OP is safe...

One should really go when it's convinced and has no doubts about it..

Ya seems like edging really close to death makes some people understandably hesitant

It was enough. I threw up a tiny amount 30 mins after taking SN. I threw up hours much later because of the fragrances and chemicals from the hospital that im allergic too. I didnt fast. it was impulsive but I only threw up a tiny amount of liquid from the SN. I think it was because the paramedics were making me move. I'm too ill with severe ME to move so muchn

So to be clear, the antinauseant did do most of the job, but you still threw up a little but not completely enough to get rid of the SN? And I'm assuming if it wasn't just 6-7 dabs, and the whole 25g, you wouldn't be talking about it now?

 

[novem]

I did something similar a couple of weeks a go. I dabbed it 6 or 7 times, i was drunk, on benzos and Domperidone. I told a friend and they called the emergency services. My oxygen levels dropped dangerously low and heart beat very high. I was freezing cold. I was put on oxygen but it wasn't helping much. I had blue lips and hands. When I was at the hospital I had to tell the doctor what the antidote was. He checked on his computer then I was given methylene blue for about 30 to 45 mins. Oxygen levels were OK then. The only pain was a light headache. I still plan to use it but not impulsively

Thank you for sharing this
What is the difference do you think between impulse and overcoming SI ?
Because to my mind, impulse is the only thing that can overcome SI — you decide to push yourself emotionally.

 

[Jadzia]

Yes it was only 6 or 7 dabs. Sick was a small mouthfull of liquid 30 mins after taking it and the sick didn't tast salty. Tasted of sick. Domperidone speeds gastric emptying. I doubt I'd be here without the methylene blue because the oxygen wasnt really helping.

 

[Dry-Finding7733]

I'm a fool and drank some SN after getting drunk. Don't be an idiot like me. I'm drunk and don't know what I'm even doing.

This is the second time. Each time I did it, I felt really cold. I am shivering. Did anyone else face this? If anyone has anyone questions, feel free to ask.

If anybody can learn something from my experience then at least attempt won't be for nothing .

We talked not too long ago. Helped me find a source for SN. You're a good man/woman. If you didn't intend to do so, I hope you're doing okay. If not, well, I at least hope that you finally found peace.

 

[alice_0927]

I did something similar a couple of weeks a go. I dabbed it 6 or 7 times, i was drunk, on benzos and Domperidone. I told a friend and they called the emergency services. My oxygen levels dropped dangerously low and heart beat very high. I was freezing cold. I was put on oxygen but it wasn't helping much. I had blue lips and hands. When I was at the hospital I had to tell the doctor what the antidote was. He checked on his computer then I was given methylene blue for about 30 to 45 mins. Oxygen levels were OK then. The only pain was a light headache. I still plan to use it but not impulsively

How did you feel after taking it? Any pain during that time?

 

[looking_for_peace]

How did you feel after taking it? Any pain during that time?

this was already answered.

I threw up a tiny bit about 30 mins after taking it. I wasn't really scared but wasn't sure i wanted to die right then. SI made me let people know on Facebook. My friend persuaded me to go to hospital. She rang them. No one was angry. I didn't notice my breathing was bad or that I was tachycardic other than the equipment showimg it. I was quite out of it on benzos and alcohol. I would have been OK to die I'm the ambulance. I felt so relaxed but very cold.

As soon as I had had the methylene blue my breathing was OK

I'm very seriously ill with a severe ME. I feel ill all the time with that. I'm highly allergic to fragrances and chemicals like cleaning chemicals. This made me suffer badly. masks didn't stop it getting up my nose. These were making me throw up and cause me pain. I had to have anti sickness and pain relief intravenously twice because of this. That was much worse than the SN

The SN didn't cause me any problems after methylene blue but the severe ME was worse from over exerting myself and being exposed to the fragrances and chemicals.

 

[Dubito]

I realise this wasn't originally my post and I hope they have survived their ordeal. If they didn't i hope they are at peace,

Thats a good idea

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

@Fulminare

Per ardua ad astra

 

[Yavannah]

hope you are ok

 

[Shivali]

 

[Fulminare]

I'm sorry for ghosting, but I couldn't even lift my phone after all of this happened. I was in bed the whole time. I didn't eat or drink because of how nauseous I felt. Thankfully I'm no longer drunk and I can walk again. I posted this because I had no one to talk to. If anyone wants to know anything then please ask. I went through the whole ride… this is not supposed to scare any off from this method - if I would've taken one more sip of the 25g SN, I wouldn't be here writing this. I'm sure of that.
I didn't feel any pain whatsoever while drinking it and after I started feeling nauseous. That might've been thanks to the alcohol, but I cannot tell for sure. I was actually quite surprised by that.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Gosh. Happy to see you with us. Hugs. I think you need medical attention now.

 

[Givenuponlife]

I think you should to go to hospital asap.

 

[Fulminare]

Gosh. Happy to see you with us. Hugs. I think you need medical attention now.

Thank you so much. I want to but I am scared of even more medical debt and my mother and sister would treat me horribly because of this. I don't want to be pushed into another attempt.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Thank you so much. I want to but I am scared of even more medical debt and my mother and sister would treat me horribly because of this. I don't want to be pushed into another attempt.

Serious health professionals would certainly not disclose anything, even to your mom and sister.
You are still at risk, at least until tomorrow.

 

[Jarni]

Thank you so much. I want to but I am scared of even more medical debt and my mother and sister would treat me horribly because of this. I don't want to be pushed into another attempt.

you can also just make a general medical check up without saying why you don't feel good

 

[Dubito]

I'm sorry for ghosting, but I couldn't even lift my phone after all of this happened. I was in bed the whole time. I didn't eat or drink because of how nauseous I felt. Thankfully I'm no longer drunk and I can walk again. I posted this because I had no one to talk to. If anyone wants to know anything then please ask. I went through the whole ride… this is not supposed to scare any off from this method - if I would've taken one more sip of the 25g SN, I wouldn't be here writing this. I'm sure of that.
I didn't feel any pain whatsoever while drinking it and after I started feeling nauseous. That might've been thanks to the alcohol, but I cannot tell for sure. I was actually quite surprised by that.

Omg. You're alive:)

 

[Fulminare]

you can also just make a general medical chek up without saying why you don't feel good

You're right, I'll do that. I do feel okay now. I can eat, drink, walk, sleep. All of that. I just checked the color of my blood and it's okay. I just collapsed a lot on the floor while trying to get to the bathroom, so my body is covered with bruises. I also fell onto my head. I woke myself up every hour just to check if I can still remember my name and birthdate. I seem to be doing fine, but I'll definitely get myself checked up at the doctors. Thank you for the advice.

 

[Jarni]

You're right, I'll do that. I do feel okay now. I can eat, drink, walk, sleep. All of that. I just checked the color of my blood and it's okay. I just collapsed a lot on the floor while trying to get to the bathroom, so my body is covered with bruises. I also fell onto my head. I woke myself up every hour just to check if I can still remember my name and birthdate. I seem to be doing fine, but I'll definitely get myself checked up at the doctors. Thank you for the advice.

Yes please do this Take care of your head also now, at least by lots of rest and good healthy food to restore your body.
So you was conscious all this time? (not taking the sleep time into account)

 

[Dubito]

You're right, I'll do that. I do feel okay now. I can eat, drink, walk, sleep. All of that. I just checked the color of my blood and it's okay. I just collapsed a lot on the floor while trying to get to the bathroom, so my body is covered with bruises. I also fell onto my head. I woke myself up every hour just to check if I can still remember my name and birthdate. I seem to be doing fine, but I'll definitely get myself checked up at the doctors. Thank you for the advice.

One should wear a helmet during attempt with sn. ;)

 

[Fulminare]

Yes please do this Take care of your head also now, at least by lots of rest and good healthy food to restore your body.
So you was conscious all this time? (not taking the sleep time into account)

I think I passed out at one point, but not for long. I remember waking up on the kitchen floor for whatever reason. I think I was trying to get back to bed but got disoriented and then passed out. Other than that, yes, I was conscious the whole time. It was kind of nice while I was just laying in bed, the real nightmare started when I tried to get up. I can only recommend people to have something very close (preferably on your bed if you decide to die there) to vomit into.

And yes, please also wear a helmet lol but only if you cannot reach anything to vomit into and you need to get up.

 

[Jarni]

I think I passed out at one point, but not for long. I remember waking up on the kitchen floor for whatever reason. I think I was trying to get back to bed but got disoriented and then passed out. Other than that, yes, I was conscious the whole time. It was kind of nice while I was just laying in bed, the real nightmare started when I tried to get up. I can only recommend people to have something very close (preferably on your bed if you decide to die there) to vomit into.

And yes, please also wear a helmet lol but only if you cannot reach anything to vomit into and you need to get up.

I see, thank you for the details... And did you have breathing issues?

 

[lukas19]

very interesting. thank you for responding! SN is more potent than I thought

God yes,
I was shown the link to a Russian story where a Russian family accidently used SN instead of normal salt. The only surviving family member (not sure how many died as translation was poor) was blind and deaf, then after his release from hospital his sight came back.

 

[Fulminare]

I see, thank you for the details... And did you have breathing issues?

Yes. I was breathing heavily. I tried my best to take deep and slow breaths and it helped me calm down. I also had tinnitus. As if a bomb went off right next to me. But I think that might've been my head injury.

 

[sorrowful]

I'm sorry for ghosting, but I couldn't even lift my phone after all of this happened. I was in bed the whole time. I didn't eat or drink because of how nauseous I felt. Thankfully I'm no longer drunk and I can walk again. I posted this because I had no one to talk to. If anyone wants to know anything then please ask. I went through the whole ride… this is not supposed to scare any off from this method - if I would've taken one more sip of the 25g SN, I wouldn't be here writing this. I'm sure of that.
I didn't feel any pain whatsoever while drinking it and after I started feeling nauseous. That might've been thanks to the alcohol, but I cannot tell for sure. I was actually quite surprised by that.

kept checking back on this thread, glad you're still with us

 

[MidnightCat]

I was genuinely worried.

Been thinking about it a lot of times through the days.

I know we're all suicidal here. But I was really worried someone might die without wanting to end it yet.

I'm glad you're here.

 

[LocalAngel]

Glad you're still here, was genuinely worried.. it's weirdly comforting to know (for my own CTB attempt) that ~half of the dose can do this to someone though, just goes to show how toxic this can be

 

[heyrabu]

I'm glad you are still with us! I keep on coming back here, checking if you'll ever update again. And I feel genuinely happy you did.
Take care of your body now, wishing you the best

 

[looking_for_peace]

I think I passed out at one point, but not for long. I remember waking up on the kitchen floor for whatever reason. I think I was trying to get back to bed but got disoriented and then passed out. Other than that, yes, I was conscious the whole time. It was kind of nice while I was just laying in bed, the real nightmare started when I tried to get up. I can only recommend people to have something very close (preferably on your bed if you decide to die there) to vomit into.

And yes, please also wear a helmet lol but only if you cannot reach anything to vomit into and you need to get up.

glad to see you are still here! and thank you so much for checking in with us and sharing your experience. I wanted to ask, did you feel delirious? what concerns me is how you woke up on the kitchen floor without remembering how you got there- I'm concerned I will do the same. I've heard others calling for help without remembering and waking up in a hospital. is this the SN, do you think? or was it the alcohol/some other med?

 

[HerculePoirot]

Yes. I was breathing heavily. I tried my best to take deep and slow breaths and it helped me calm down. I also had tinnitus. As if a bomb went off right next to me. But I think that might've been my head injury.

How are you feeling today, dear?