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looking_for_peace

looking_for_peace

Student
Dec 4, 2022
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I mean I licked my finger and stuck it in the SN and licked it off my finger. I did it 6 or 7 times. I don't know the weight. My oxygen levels dropped to 90 and heart rate up to 140 very quickly. I have an oximeter. This continued to get worse and when I was in the ambulance I was given oxygen.

I mean I licked my finger and stuck it in the SN and licked it off my finger. I did it 6 or 7 times. I don't know the weight. My oxygen levels dropped to 90 and heart rate up to 140 very quickly. I have an oximeter. This continued to get worse and when I was in the ambulance I was given oxygen.
very interesting. thank you for responding! SN is more potent than I thought
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
very interesting. thank you for responding! SN is more potent than I thought
when I was in the ambulance both the paramedics were helping me with the oxygen. I could tell they were very concerned. I said I'm going to die aren't I. They said I wasn't going to but I know they weren't convinced. At that moment I thought, I don't care either way. I was relaxed, probably benzos and alcohol helping. I thought, other than feeling like an ice cube, it was a nice way to go
 
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EndlessDream

EndlessDream

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Feb 15, 2023
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Rest is peace Fulminare. They're finally free from this world. :heart:
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,397
To me it sounds so horrible surviving a suicide attempt, I hope that you don't suffer too much from surviving the SN, best wishes.
 
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stilhavinightmares

stilhavinightmares

Warlock
Oct 13, 2022
753
I hope the OP is okay if they are still with us. :(

Good to know about feeling cold though. I hadn't heard anyone report that before. It makes sense.

I wonder if OP vomited at all. Drunk AND SN would turn my stomach inside out for sure.
 
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betternever2havbeen

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Jun 19, 2022
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when I was in the ambulance both the paramedics were helping me with the oxygen. I could tell they were very concerned. I said I'm going to die aren't I. They said I wasn't going to but I know they weren't convinced. At that moment I thought, I don't care either way. I was relaxed, probably benzos and alcohol helping. I thought, other than feeling like an ice cube, it was a nice way to go
Did you vomit a lot, could you breath ok? Must've been a pretty scary experience (just the paramedics and hospital bit would be terrifying for me! That's why I hope if I ever do CTB I don't get bad enough SI to call for help). Was anyone angry with you? Glad you are ok now, how long did it take to recover? Did you have any lasting effects?

I hope OP is just sleeping it off if they weren't sure about CTB, maybe they realised they should call for help.
 
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blahblah123

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Feb 5, 2023
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I hope wherever op is they're alright and if they ctb then they were ready for it
 
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EndlessDream

EndlessDream

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Feb 15, 2023
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I did something similar a couple of weeks a go. I dabbed it 6 or 7 times, i was drunk, on benzos and Domperidone. I told a friend and they called the emergency services. My oxygen levels dropped dangerously low and heart beat very high. I was freezing cold. I was put on oxygen but it wasn't helping much. I had blue lips and hands. When I was at the hospital I had to tell the doctor what the antidote was. He checked on his computer then I was given methylene blue for about 30 to 45 mins. Oxygen levels were OK then. The only pain was a light headache. I still plan to use it but not impulsively
SN stops blood cells from taking in oxygen so giving even 100% oxygen won't help. As you said, needed methylene blue
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
Did you vomit a lot, could you breath ok? Must've been a pretty scary experience (just the paramedics and hospital bit would be terrifying for me! That's why I hope if I ever do CTB I don't get bad enough SI to call for help). Was anyone angry with you? Glad you are ok now, how long did it take to recover? Did you have any lasting effects?

I hope OP is just sleeping it off if they weren't sure about CTB, maybe they realised they should call for help.
I threw up a tiny bit about 30 mins after taking it. I wasn't really scared but wasn't sure i wanted to die right then. SI made me let people know on Facebook. My friend persuaded me to go to hospital. She rang them. No one was angry. I didn't notice my breathing was bad or that I was tachycardic other than the equipment showimg it. I was quite out of it on benzos and alcohol. I would have been OK to die I'm the ambulance. I felt so relaxed but very cold.

As soon as I had had the methylene blue my breathing was OK

I'm very seriously ill with a severe ME. I feel ill all the time with that. I'm highly allergic to fragrances and chemicals like cleaning chemicals. This made me suffer badly. masks didn't stop it getting up my nose. These were making me throw up and cause me pain. I had to have anti sickness and pain relief intravenously twice because of this. That was much worse than the SN

The SN didn't cause me any problems after methylene blue but the severe ME was worse from over exerting myself and being exposed to the fragrances and chemicals.
 
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EndlessDream

EndlessDream

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Feb 15, 2023
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I threw up a tiny bit about 30 mins after taking it. I wasn't really scared but wasn't sure i wanted to die right then. SI made me let people know on Facebook. My friend persuaded me to go to hospital. She rang them. No one was angry. I didn't notice my breathing was bad or that I was tachycardic other than the equipment showimg it. I was quite out of it on benzos and alcohol. I would have been OK to die I'm the ambulance. I felt so relaxed but very cold.

As soon as I had had the methylene blue my breathing was OK

I'm very seriously ill with a severe ME. I feel ill all the time with that. I'm highly allergic to fragrances and chemicals like cleaning chemicals. This made me suffer badly. masks didn't stop it getting up my nose. These were making me throw up and cause me pain. I had to have anti sickness and pain relief intravenously twice because of this. That was much worse than the SN

The SN didn't cause me any problems after methylene blue but the severe ME was worse from over exerting myself and being exposed to the fragrances and chemicals.
Did you take any antiemetics/antinauseants?
 
allblackallwhite

allblackallwhite

Member
Sep 4, 2022
46
Honestly I wish I could do that but that would ruin my life at this point. I've just went through the same exact thing a few weeks ago and the ambulance and mental ward didn't help one bit, sadly.
They tend to make everything worse.
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
They tend to make everything worse.
I'm sorry to hear that. I've not had help. I refuse help from mental health because I'm too ill physically to engage with them. I can't take anti depressants and can only take benzos very occasionally before I badly react if i take them too often. I do feel something positive has come from this and that is SN doesn't scare me now. When I do it properly it will be fairly peaceful
 
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allblackallwhite

allblackallwhite

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Sep 4, 2022
46
To me it sounds so horrible surviving a suicide attempt, I hope that you don't suffer too much from surviving the SN, best wishes.
The best part is surviving a suicide attempt and reaching out for help for being suicidal usually have the same results on your life.
 
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betternever2havbeen

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Jun 19, 2022
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I threw up a tiny bit about 30 mins after taking it. I wasn't really scared but wasn't sure i wanted to die right then. SI made me let people know on Facebook. My friend persuaded me to go to hospital. She rang them. No one was angry. I didn't notice my breathing was bad or that I was tachycardic other than the equipment showimg it. I was quite out of it on benzos and alcohol. I would have been OK to die I'm the ambulance. I felt so relaxed but very cold.

As soon as I had had the methylene blue my breathing was OK

I'm very seriously ill with a severe ME. I feel ill all the time with that. I'm highly allergic to fragrances and chemicals like cleaning chemicals. This made me suffer badly. masks didn't stop it getting up my nose. These were making me throw up and cause me pain. I had to have anti sickness and pain relief intravenously twice because of this. That was much worse than the SN

The SN didn't cause me any problems after methylene blue but the severe ME was worse from over exerting myself and being exposed to the fragrances and chemicals.
Thank you so much for answering all my (many!) questions. Sounds like you have a good friend there getting you help. I'm glad no one was angry, I'd be worried my family and the doctors would be mad at me.

I'm really sorry to hear of your health issues, it must be really hard to deal with 🤗
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
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Thank you so much for answering all my (many!) questions. Sounds like you have a good friend there getting you help. I'm glad no one was angry, I'd be worried my family and the doctors would be mad at me.

I'm really sorry to hear of your health issues, it must be really hard to deal with
Thank you. I have a long history of over doses and self harm even before severe ME due to multiple mental health issues. This was the most serious though next to an amatriptyline over dose where I spent 4 days on a liver ward
Thank you. I have a long history of over doses and self harm even before severe ME due to multiple mental health issues. This was the most serious though next to an amatriptyline over dose where I spent 4 days on a liver ward
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
It was enough. I threw up a tiny amount 30 mins after taking SN. I threw up hours much later because of the fragrances and chemicals from the hospital that im allergic too. I didnt fast. it was impulsive but I only threw up a tiny amount of liquid from the SN. I think it was because the paramedics were making me move. I'm too ill with severe ME to move so muchn
 
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stilhavinightmares

stilhavinightmares

Warlock
Oct 13, 2022
753
It was enough. I threw up a tiny amount 30 mins after taking SN. I threw up hours much later because of the fragrances and chemicals from the hospital that im allergic too. I didnt fast. it was impulsive but I only threw up a tiny amount of liquid from the SN. I think it was because the paramedics were making me move. I'm too ill with severe ME to move so muchn
I'm so sorry to hear what you went through. What is ME? Sounds so awful on top of everything.
 
Kta1994

Kta1994

Specialist
Apr 25, 2019
331
Oh i understand, im planning on using domperidone, do tou think its reliable still based on your experience?
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
I'm so sorry to hear what you went through. What is ME? Sounds so awful on top of everything.
Thanks. It's a neurological disease. I have a very severe version of it. Bedbound, in a dimly lit room, constant pain, severe fatigue, sensitivity to smells, light and sound. I could go on but I have nearly 40 symptoms. ME stands for myalgic encephalomyelitis. Please look up Kara Jane, the latest to die from it
BBC News - Kara Jane Spencer: Severely ill singer who recorded hit album dies
Definitely. I use it for medical reasons. It helps with nausea, vomiting, and empties the gut quickly

Oh i understand, im planning on using domperidone, do tou think its reliable still based on your experie
 
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stilhavinightmares

stilhavinightmares

Warlock
Oct 13, 2022
753
Thanks. It's a neurological disease. I have a very severe version of it. Bedbound, in a dimly lit room, constant pain, severe fatigue, sensitivity to smells, light and sound. I could go on but I have nearly 40 symptoms. ME stands for myalgic encephalomyelitis. Please look up Kara Jane, the latest to die from it
BBC News - Kara Jane Spencer: Severely ill singer who recorded hit album dies
Definitely. I use it for medical reasons. It helps with nausea, vomiting, and empties the gut quickly
My god. Now it pisses me off that the hospital staff couldn't take special care of you when you took the SN?
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
I realise this wasn't originally my post and I hope they have survived their ordeal. If they didn't i hope they are at peace,

I've had loads of questions about my drunken experience with SN and I've answered loads of questions. If I feel able to, I will write a separate post about it. I hope it will stop some of the fear from some of the dubious scary accounts.

I'm not suffering from taking SN but I am seriously ill with severe ME so it may take a while before I do it
My god. Now it pisses me off that the hospital staff couldn't take special care of you when you took the SN?
Hospital staff haven't a clue about my illness.
My god. Now it pisses me off that the hospital staff couldn't take special care of you when you took the SN?
Hospital staff haven't a clue about my illness.
 
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dopaminedeath

Death please
Nov 12, 2022
171
RIP OP..?
 
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heyrabu

heyrabu

No one can understand me
Feb 11, 2023
34
I sure hope OP survived and just went asleep.. because it looks like it's not his time yet, it's implusive act afterall..
 
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heyrabu

heyrabu

No one can understand me
Feb 11, 2023
34
imo If they took 12 grams of SN they didn't survive unless someone found them and called the Hospital.
Well a few days ago iirc, there's this one post where the OP's failing at ctb because they only drank half of the recommended dose, so one can hope I guess
 
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egirlsuicides

egirlsuicides

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Feb 14, 2023
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they still havent checked in since they first went offline so i think op either ctb and is at peace or got taken to a hospital/psych ward. hope they are ok either way.
 
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ElfenLied

ElfenLied

Aren't we all monsters inside?
Jan 15, 2023
40
I think I am a fool too, I've tried a bit of sn 3 times, the last time I tried it my heart was beating really fast, i started to feel really dizzy whenever I tried to stand up, my breathing was really weird and after a few hours I started vomiting a lot..

I don't know why I tried it.

I Feel Stupid Kurt Cobain GIF by Nirvana
 
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hunterfla

hunterfla

Experienced
Sep 13, 2022
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I'm calling BS. But if I'm wrong, glad your little experiment wasn't fatal.
 
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MidnightCat

MidnightCat

Still 3 more lives to go.
Jan 1, 2023
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I hope OP is safe...

One should really go when it's convinced and has no doubts about it..
 
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