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PainAndSadness

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Sep 21, 2022
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Yeah, she replied to @Doom earlier in the thread that she had done the blood test. Sounded horrible. Hope she has fully recovered now.
And I can't see any comment she made about doing a blood test, in fact she said this a few weeks ago:
Yes I bought mine from PC. I haven't done the blood test. Someone on here said 8ts legit though.

No, I didn't. Others are saying it's legit. I probably won't do it.
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
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People still not realizing that she changed her story several times through out the thread and didn't take the second glass after she vomited......

This person far from deserves sympathy. Not to mention she is an ignorant transphobe.
Agreed!
 
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Enlightened
Aug 14, 2022
1,292
SN and most other chemicals like N are so unreliable, I don't know why so many recommended them. I think people suggesting them are just sickos, too much to go wrong.

There are much quicker and reliable methods.
I think you're a sicko for going around and trying to fear monger and potentially change somebody's mind on a method that is RELIABLE (unlike what you keep saying) assessable, fairly easy to acquire, with hardly any health consequences from it. Would you rather people do dude? Hang themselves or lay on train tracks and potentially end up paralyzed?
 
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yuzuchan

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Sep 9, 2022
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Sn is my method and I can defiantly say I've been scared shitless for sure
 
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StringPuppet

Lost
Oct 5, 2020
579
Sorry that happened to you OP. 🙁 SN is my method so I really hope taking a 2nd glass will be enough to get the job done. I actually don't remember reading any survival stories where a 2nd glass was ingested so I'm hopeful.
 
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MideonNViscera

Student
Nov 26, 2021
146
Well, this thread sure went in some useless directions.

Moral of the story, follow the regimen and hope for the best. There are no guarantees.
 
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IntelligentLeg

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Nov 6, 2022
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I didn't take the 2nd glass. I did do a blood test the night of. That was a fucking horrific experience. It's impossible to not be traumatized from it.
 
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jessisme

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Dec 3, 2022
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I didn't take the 2nd glass. I did do a blood test the night of. That was a fucking horrific experience. It's impossible to not be traumatized from it.

In what way was the blood test traumatizing?
 
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MideonNViscera

Student
Nov 26, 2021
146
I didn't take the 2nd glass.

Ok, maybe THAT is the moral of the story.

Sorry you're traumitized OP, many of us have been there before. It should pass eventually.
 
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Jarni

Memento mori
Dec 12, 2020
334
Ok, maybe THAT is the moral of the story.

Sorry you're traumitized OP, many of us have been there before. It should pass eventually.
PPeH is very clear on this point...
 

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IntelligentLeg

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In what way was the blood test traumatizing?
The blood test wasn't. What happend after taking the SN was.
People still not realizing that she changed her story several times through out the thread and didn't take the second glass after she vomited......

This person far from deserves sympathy. Not to mention she is an ignorant transphobe.
I literally have wrote down step by step what exactly occurred in this particular thread. Politics don't belong here.
 
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Judy Garland

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Mar 23, 2022
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Sn is my method and I can defiantly say I've been scared shitless for sure
I'm scared shitless too. It's really got me thinking now. Did you read the other thread that just came up? I'm so afraid, and I'm so afraid to live this life too. I don't know what to do. I have my date set and I don't know if I'm going to be able to do this. I was so confident before. It felt good to say, "I won't have to worry about this or that anymore. I'll be dead". It felt so good to feel that. Now I don't' feel that anymore, I just feel, "You're going to get very sick and suffer and you won't die". AHHHHHHHHH! THIS IS TOO MUCH!
 
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yuzuchan

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I'm scared shitless too. It's really got me thinking now. Did you read the other thread that just came up? I'm so afraid, and I'm so afraid to live this life too. I don't know what to do. I have my date set and I don't know if I'm going to be able to do this. I was so confident before. It felt good to say, "I won't have to worry about this or that anymore. I'll be dead". It felt so good to feel that. Now I don't' feel that anymore, I just feel, "You're going to get very sick and suffer and you won't die". AHHHHHHHHH! THIS IS TOO MUCH!
Yes and this is now dead ass how i feel I planned to go just before the new year but now I feel everything I planned is in chaos...

While I have all the meds and sn I only have a packet of 5mg dizapam which is nowhere near the 500/800 forgot which advised by pph I don't even know how thats possible to get. I did buy a packet of 1.5mg alprazolam online to because of this but it still isn't even a drop of what's recommended

I wasn't worried that was needed but my confidence for this methord has surely been shaken to its core now
 
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Yes and this is now dead ass how i feel I planned to go just before the new year but now I feel everything I planned is in chaos...

While I have all the meds and sn I only have a packet of 5mg dizapam which is nowhere near the 500/800 forgot which advised by pph I don't even know how thats possible to get. I did buy a packet of 1.5mg alprazolam online to because of this but it still isn't even a drop of what's recommended

I wasn't worried that was needed but my confidence for this methord has surely been shaken to its core now
I don't have any of that. All I have is the AE Olanzapine and the SN. A few Ibuprofen to take for the headache and that's it. My confidence has been shaken too. I had a clear solid plan that I was confident in. I was ready and any worries that entered my mind I was able to tell myself, "I won't have to deal with that any longer". But now I'm shaken. I'm afraid.
 
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yuzuchan

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Sep 9, 2022
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I don't have any of that. All I have is the AE Olanzapine and the SN. A few Ibuprofen to take for the headache and that's it. My confidence has been shaken too. I had a clear solid plan that I was confident in. I was ready and any worries that entered my mind I was able to tell myself, "I won't have to deal with that any longer". But now I'm shaken. I'm afraid.
I feel you completely... sadly
 
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zeenatax

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Dec 15, 2022
313
I was looking 50g SN in PC but could not find it. They sold only 2lbs. Are you sure you bought it from PC? This was back in September. Now they stopped it altogether.
 
TapeMachine

TapeMachine

perpetually confused
Jan 12, 2023
385
First of all, sorry for resurrecting this thread. I'm sure everyone would love to forget the OP's frightening experience had ever happened. (My sincere sympathies to @IntelligentLeg; I wish you'd never had to go through such horrible circumstances.. ❤)

But the thing is, my brain likes latching onto puzzling topics (like this thread) and relentlessly obsessing over the details, so I just wanted to try to find some clarification, if possible. If I've misunderstood something, please don't skewer me. I'm not attacking anyone or anything; I simply seek clarification for the following: :)

(1) If the results for the blood test are the same (blood turns brown) for nitrite and nitrAte, is the blood test not somewhat unreliable in determining if we do infact have *specifically* nitrite? Am I misunderstanding something?

(2) Was it not recently brought to our attention that PC was selling nitrAte in place of nitrite? Was the OP's product then nitrate?

I'm nervous as hell to post this, but here goes...
 
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tchaik18401893

tchaikovsky
Dec 31, 2022
121
First of all, sorry for resurrecting this thread. I'm sure everyone would love to forget the OP's frightening experience had ever happened. (My sincere sympathies to @IntelligentLeg; I wish you'd never had to go through such horrible circumstances.. ❤)

But the thing is, my brain likes latching onto puzzling topics (like this thread) and relentlessly obsessing over the details, so I just wanted to try to find some clarification, if possible. If I've misunderstood something, please don't skewer me. I'm not attacking anyone or anything; I simply seek clarification for the following: :)

(1) If the results for the blood test are the same (blood turns brown) for nitrite and nitrAte, is the blood test not somewhat unreliable in determining if we do infact have *specifically* nitrite? Am I misunderstanding something?

(2) Was it not recently brought to our attention that PC was selling nitrAte in place of nitrite? Was the OP's product then nitrate?

I'm nervous as hell to post this, but here goes...
I'm not sure if nitrAte turns your blood brown.
The "nitrIte" they used was actually "nitrAte"
information here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/who-has-pc-nitrite.105637/#post-1815334
 
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TapeMachine

perpetually confused
Jan 12, 2023
385
I'm not sure if nitrAte turns your blood brown.
The "nitrIte" they used was actually "nitrAte"
information here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/who-has-pc-nitrite.105637/#post-1815334
Thank you so much for responding! Yeah, I saw that thread (the one you linked) yesterday and promptly fell down the rabbit hole of this thread (the one in which we are presently conversing). lol

I can't find relevant information regarding the blood test stuff. I'll just have to keep searching. :)

Something peculiar though: I was reading the Wiki page for SN earlier today, and it stated that nitrAte would work as a viable substitute for nitrite in the event of ctb. But then we have situations like the OP's where nitrAte was accidentally consumed, and the results were far from similar to nitrite poisoning (as far as I can tell, atleast?)

I hope someone can come along and help me understand. I'm going to continue researching on my own in the meantime :)
 
Catlovergirl

Catlovergirl

Shan32- Suicide is only for the brave.
Oct 24, 2020
67
This was at 4am.
After I drank my SN mix. I immediately laid down. I watched my TV for about 10 minutes. Then the horror...I of course, vomited profusely. Yes, I took antiemetics. I laid back down. I could feel my body start to shut down. I remember breathing in agony. I got up and remember slumping half on the bed. My legs were on the floor. I managed to pull myself on the bed. I was face down screaming in agony for 10 minutes, realizing my body was shutting down. My whole body got stiff. I remember being drenched with sweat. I peed myself too. Then I blacked out and woke up 4 hours later. I vomited profusely for a good hour. Tried taking a shower. I was very dizzy.

I still am pretty dizzy with a horrible headache. I quit dry heaving at 9pm. I threw up/dry heaved at least 2 or 3 times an hour today. My body hurts like crazy.
Happy fucking birthday to me...all of that just to be back in this living hell.
Thank you for giving us your detailed response as thats's exactly what I'm afraid of a botched suicide via SN as I think I already bought the weaker 1 but i have posted pics of what I bought on the forum and waiting 4 replies, hence b4 i experience what you did im downing 100 2mg xanax which I have and that will kick in quickly and then drink my SN if it's puirty is high enough as I just knew in my heart taking SN is DEFINITELY NOT AT ALL EASY AND AND A PEACEFUL WAY TO GO. thank you for sharing this.
 
The Abyss

The Abyss

Why're we still here, just to suffer?
Dec 19, 2019
259
Damn, I guess that's why a second glass is recommended, to finish if things go south.
Thank you so much for responding! Yeah, I saw that thread (the one you linked) yesterday and promptly fell down the rabbit hole of this thread (the one in which we are presently conversing). lol

I can't find relevant information regarding the blood test stuff. I'll just have to keep searching. :)

Something peculiar though: I was reading the Wiki page for SN earlier today, and it stated that nitrAte would work as a viable substitute for nitrite in the event of ctb. But then we have situations like the OP's where nitrAte was accidentally consumed, and the results were far from similar to nitrite poisoning (as far as I can tell, atleast?)

I hope someone can come along and help me understand. I'm going to continue researching on my own in the meantime :)
I'm no chemist but my understanding is it's to do with how things react on the cellular, chemical, elemetal or molecular level; can't find the right word so I'll just throw a bunch out.

So you have spring water & carbonated water, same right as they're both water; No.

A horse is no different than a dog as they both have 4 legs & internal organs; no.

The nitrite does something to the blood whereby the red blood cells or amazon boxes can no longer carry the oxygen around so you suffocate thus the receiver gets an empty box as the contents fell out.

Nitrate doesn't operate that way so I guess you just get ill. Both sodium & start with nitr but there are differences hence the NaN02-NaN03 distinction, wouldn't cut a steak with a butter knife eh.
 
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Jan 12, 2023
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@The Abyss
I really appreciate your input! Thank you! I got a nice laugh too, so I appreciate the humor you threw in there 😄
 
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MelodyCymbal

Member
Jan 21, 2023
68
Ok so yeah I took that sip. Then weighed what I had left. Which turned out to be 20g. I actually drank the rest a few hours afterwards. I drank the SN at night time. I didn't drink any at all after I drank the rest at 4am.

I had my SN in an airtight bag. I bought the SN from PC October 28th.
Quoting someone about PC brand from another thread:
"Also, just know and trust the brands that have had a reliable purity in the past(such as IC). Don't use the brand "Reagent Inc."! They sell nitrAte labeled as nitrite. So does the brand PC." I recall that you said you used Reagent Inc brand. Try searching posts for that brand name. A lot of people say it's bad. If it is sodium nitrAte relabeled as sodium nitrite that would explain the fail because nitrAte is 6-10X less toxic.
 
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FadingFast2023

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Feb 11, 2023
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(1) If the results for the blood test are the same (blood turns brown) for nitrite and nitrAte, is the blood test not somewhat unreliable in determining if we do infact have *specifically* nitrite? Am I misunderstanding something?

(2) Was it not recently brought to our attention that PC was selling nitrAte in place of nitrite? Was the OP's product then nitrate?

I'm nervous as hell to post this, but here goes...
The blood test is something that should never come up here ever again. It is good to see if you have nitrite vs placebo, but it does nothing to tell you the purity or strength of it. A bag of sugar mixed with a some nitrite will turn your blood brown, but does nothing regarding the actual amount you will need if it is degraded. I think PPE recommends getting a Nitrite Test Kit for fishtanks ... or just make sure you have a reliable known vendor for the product.
 
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twitchymouse

twitchymouse

hows the gutter doing?
Feb 19, 2023
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holy shit dude, i hope you recover quick. that's so painful.
 
releasespieces

releasespieces

Poles are shifting, death is looming
Jun 26, 2022
287
Quoting someone about PC brand from another thread:
"Also, just know and trust the brands that have had a reliable purity in the past(such as IC). Don't use the brand "Reagent Inc."! They sell nitrAte labeled as nitrite. So does the brand PC." I recall that you said you used Reagent Inc brand. Try searching posts for that brand name. A lot of people say it's bad. If it is sodium nitrAte relabeled as sodium nitrite that would explain the fail because nitrAte is 6-10X less toxic.
Thank you. End of story. The only logical conclusion I've heard in this thread. Don't buy NITRATE everyone, make sure your source is trusted or get an aquarium test for your NITRITE. Drinking a bunch of NITRATE probably sucks and won't kill you.
 
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