Venting I'll never be a normal person

[hurts2b]

I'll never be a normal fucking person or even a person at all. No amount of "recovery" can exempt me from the demands of human life. I am not a person and I cannot be a person. And I have to act like one anyways. Or fucking kill myself. No other options.

I used to blame my circumstances for my misery. But it really is just me. I cause my own goddamn problems.

And I'm too coward to solve them by doing what needs to be done.

 

[Aflame5926]

welcome to the club of broken people.

probally a lot of us will never be really "normal" people

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've always wondered about this. Just how many people do actually feel 'normal'. Just because someone is acting more 'normal' or- doing the things required of them, it doesn't necessarily mean they aren't struggling.

But then, maybe there are more 'normal' people out there. I guess they are the ones not so aware of how different they are.

 

[itsgone2]

I'll never be a normal fucking person or even a person at all. No amount of "recovery" can exempt me from the demands of human life.

You sum it up so well. I'm not a person either. Just awful. Why force us to continue?

 

[hurts2b]

You sum it up so well. I'm not a person either. Just awful. Why force us to continue?

Nobody is forcing me to continue I'm just an indecisive coward

 

[itsgone2]

Nobody is forcing me to continue I'm just an indecisive coward

Same here. Months of opportunities.
I'm scared to buy a gun so I can't imagine using it.
Hanging is always there. Should have this weekend
I'm tired of this tension and pain