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I remember getting in the ambulance, being sick in hospital, a lot. Possible i passed out i cant remember but I do remember saying in a panic I didnt wanna die. Think they did checks on my liver but no permanent damage.
Sorry to hear about all your suffering. I think i was in two minds, but back then still had a slight fear of death. That went a long time ago, but the brain keeps a strong survival instinct deep in the brainstem. At times even though you may attempt seriously, it can still activate. I hope things turn around for you, being in such a state of ill health is awful, and drains you of your energy.
I'm sorry you suffered too anonymous. When I was taking the pills I had no SI. I genuinely didnt wanna be here anymore. I thought at the time what I was taking was enough CTB. Life was okay for a while now back to despairing unfortunately. Thanks I hope they do for you too.
Thank you i appreciate it, i think it may be common. If you have a severe and chronic depression, that as time goes by your fear of death gets less, especially if you have crossed that line before. I have had some very good days in between, however not for several years have things been kind of stable. I wish the best for all of us on here, this world is hard enough without constant illness too.
