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abcdefg789

Experienced
May 8, 2026
234
I ask this question because so many young people on here say they want to die but are afraid of pain, failing and fear. Assisted suicide would eliminate pain and failing. But what about SI? Could you drink the fatal medication (in Canada i think its done thru IV but you have to pull the lever) knowing you will be dead soon after? No going back. Game over. I've watched many videos on YouTube that have done it. Albeit most were terminal ill, elderly or in chronic pain. Which makes the mental part easier to accept. All were at peace with their decision.
it would be a battle for me to actually do it I think but I would want to try. living right now is a huge mighty struggle and it is causing great harm to my family.
I would anticipate going to hell for doing it, but I anticipate going to hell anyway for the sins i've committed in my life and am continuing to commit right now.

where are these videos?
Brutal story. I'm also couch ridden and unable to function. Can't believe you've seen no improvements in 7 years. Do you at least get bigger windows where things feel slightly better in the moment?

Yes the doctor prescribed me Ativan 1mg each I only took maximum 25mg in just 3.5 months. I already had a severly disregulated nervous system from trauma and was unable to sleep. So the Ativan fried my brain. I'm going through acute withdrawal right now severe akathisia.
oh akathesia is the worst! i am so sorry!
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,657
Yes, and I would actually do it. I believe my SI can be overcome and given the hardships of sentience and after being alive for over three decades and counting, I've put off the decision to CTB year after year, but if say this year in calendar 2026 (hypothetically speaking) medically assisted suicide was available and I was approved for it, I'd be excited and will go through with it. I also think going through medically assisted suicide is more dignified, less brutal, and more peaceful than the method that I'm going for...

Sadly, because in reality, that doesn't exist nor would most people (barring the terminally ill and/or those who have a irremediable medical condition that cannot be cured or so, such as severe physical disabilities and/or chronic illnesses) be eligible for MAID, most of us wanting to go end up having to resort to DIY methods, some of which are quite messy, undignified, and brutal just to end our suffering...
 
nothingbutyou

nothingbutyou

spread love
Apr 28, 2025
82
This is my situation too but I'm in such poor condition I'm basically bedridden and can't end this horrific pain. It's torture every second. I wish I could find N or a brave compassionate soul so I could stop suffering. I'd be happy with a doctor, veterinarian, activists, guide, any access.I just can't take what years of chronic pain and disease have done. I'm suffering physically, emotionally and mentally. It's horrific to exist with no quality of life losing dignity in excruciating unbearable nonstop pain. I hope no one else is suffering this way. DM if you like. It hurts to type but I can't do anything else and the pain is severe anyway so is insomnia but I can't even see as it gets dark. My wrists hurt and fingers. Feel like I've been burned all over, pain everywhere, nutrition a painful struggle, my earlobes even hurt, mouth with burning mouth and tongue syndrome, Lupus mouth sores, nerve pain from scalp to burning feet, stomach pain intense, osteoarthritis and osteoporosis bone spurs, tumors herniated discs cervical and lumbar, pernicious anemia, sciatica, migraine clusters, pressure points pain, degenerative disc disease,ulcers,gastritis,carpal tunnel, arthritis, gastroparesis, insomnia, TMJ, Hashimato disease, CFS, burning itching eyes from allergies, circulation bad, tooth pain, fell and chipped 3, can't regulate body temperature, usually freezing, Feel like can't breathe, vision problems, kidney problems chronic infections and UTIs, mo appetite, nausea, dry eyes, mucus membrane, mouth,skin from battling dehydration from gastroparesis. Not responsive to most meds anymore. It's so unbelievable a body still struggles to function at this point. It's like the old cartoons I'm still alive after being run over and having things fall and crush me. I wonder if someone in my condition started that by describing how it feels to live like this.

Can you DM me about that? Ty
i would cry from joy
 
Aren

Aren

Student
Jun 15, 2026
149
I ask this question because so many young people on here say they want to die but are afraid of pain, failing and fear. Assisted suicide would eliminate pain and failing. But what about SI? Could you drink the fatal medication (in Canada i think its done thru IV but you have to pull the lever) knowing you will be dead soon after? No going back. Game over. I've watched many videos on YouTube that have done it. Albeit most were terminal ill, elderly or in chronic pain. Which makes the mental part easier to accept. All were at peace with their decision.
Yes i would do it.
 
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PeaceSeeker83

Specialist
Jul 23, 2026
332
Certainly would. No hesitation whatsoever.
 
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adamantc

Student
Mar 29, 2026
177
Having seen first hand the thoroughly unprofessional attitude of some medical staff when the patient is sedated, I'd rather do it myself. However, it is certainly an important right for everybody to have, especially those without access to painless methods themselves.
 
Dumbass

Dumbass

silly
Jun 4, 2019
182
Definitely. my only hang up is that I'd either have to keep it from my friends and family or feel really Really bad for them whenever we talk
 
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Unseenteardrop

Member
Jan 23, 2023
41
I ask this question because so many young people on here say they want to die but are afraid of pain, failing and fear. Assisted suicide would eliminate pain and failing. But what about SI? Could you drink the fatal medication (in Canada i think its done thru IV but you have to pull the lever) knowing you will be dead soon after? No going back. Game over. I've watched many videos on YouTube that have done it. Albeit most were terminal ill, elderly or in chronic pain. Which makes the mental part easier to accept. All were at peace with their decision
FUCK YEAH! I would've taken it 7 years ago
 
memento-mori

memento-mori

😓
Jul 1, 2025
418
would be nice if they could also tell everyone in your family that you had a natural death