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dilapidatedMind

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Oct 1, 2020
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Determination is not enough to overcome SI. Even if I was entirely sure I want to end my life and nothing can one do to change my mind then I had still hesitated to jump off the building. And I didn't. Act of suicide requires very strong self-discipline. Something I lack my whole life. My anxiety has just paralysed me. I couldn't move a single muscle to take that one fucking step. I was just standing there and crying like an idiot till my awkwardness attracted the police. I guess this method is just too violent.
I've been anxious all my life too.
 
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I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
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L'appel du vide - the call of the void... I've felt it. When you look down and you feel the abyss calling you. It's tempting and horrifying in equal measures.
 
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virtualoctopus

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LOL

So my only choices are jump or live? I didn't realize suicide was so black and white!
that's the horrible truth: live or die, it's exactly that black and white. You can make the decision that you don't care about life and live recklessly, but that's a validation of life. Life---death---its one until it's the other.
 
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Lilacmoon

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Beautiful moon, take me away.
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I'm cripplingly afraid of heights, but at this point...
 
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Lilacmoon

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Beautiful moon, take me away.
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Yeah. Whatever it takes.
 
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WallsClosingInn

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Dec 8, 2019
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I tried to,but got so paralyzed before that last step,just couldnt do it
 
Cant Maintain

Cant Maintain

Garbage Fire
Aug 21, 2020
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I'm terrified of heights, I'd probably hesitate. Idk Maybe I'd book it and swan dive off that shit though if i was feeling bad enough.
 
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L'appel du Vide
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that's the horrible truth: live or die, it's exactly that black and white. You can make the decision that you don't care about life and live recklessly, but that's a validation of life. Life---death---its one until it's the other.
I disagree. In the context of that exchange, it's not at all black or white. Fortunately, jumping is not the only method that exists, and I don't have to be stuck living just because I'm scared of the fall or impact. I said I want the option to change my mind during the process, but that doesn't mean I'm scared of dying.
 
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virtualoctopus

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I disagree. In the context of that exchange, it's not at all black or white. Fortunately, jumping is not the only method that exists, and I don't have to be stuck living just because I'm scared of the fall or impact. I said I want the option to change my mind during the process, but that doesn't mean I'm scared of dying.
yes, it does. but that's not a bad thing. When we make a choice like signing divorce papers or declaring bankruptsy, do we want the option to change our mind during the process? No. It's just a signature. The choice is already decided upon.
 
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Apr 7, 2019
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Mhmmmm.
I didnt not hesitate when I jumped, likely because Im an attention seeker and I knew what I was doing wont make me die
So desentisized that I trained myself to sit on 40+ meter bridges with no fear but probably couldnt do it knowing I will def kill myself.
 
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May 29, 2020
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It depends on how tall it is.. Say if it's like 200ft. I think I would do it.
 

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