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smirks00ts

smirks00ts

have you...ever done something that you regret?
Jul 12, 2026
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I climb a little bit on a nearby chair and i just feel nothing. I want to do it. its what I want but I just kind of freeze there. i want to do some things before I do it yet I hesitate.

are there any ways to help me with this? thank you.
 
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hevnsfall

hevnsfall

Cat mom
Jul 18, 2026
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Are you talking about the survival instinct preventing you from doing the final jump?
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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I climb a little bit on a nearby chair and i just feel nothing. I want to do it. its what I want but I just kind of freeze there. i want to do some things before I do it yet I hesitate.

are there any ways to help me with this? thank you.
Please don't consider jumping as your method. It can cripple you for life if you fail.
There's so many viable methods so please look for them but not this
 
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smirks00ts

smirks00ts

have you...ever done something that you regret?
Jul 12, 2026
152
Are you talking about the survival instinct preventing you from doing the final jump?
pretty much.
Please don't consider jumping as your method. It can cripple you for life if you fail.
There's so many viable methods so please look for them but not this
I am aware, but its sadly the only option I have access to at the moment. outside from a small gun and/or my antidepressants.

I ckuld buy SN. but I don't have money rn. and waiting already makes me more upset. this isnt a rash decision
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,292
pretty much.

I am aware, but its sadly the only option I have access to at the moment. outside from a small gun and/or my antidepressants.

I ckuld buy SN. but I don't have money rn. and waiting already makes me more upset. this isnt a rash decision
I can understand your situation. I too have been in your shoes. But when i attempted in a haste, i survived. That's the only risk.. And the risk with jumping is worse. One gets disabled. So being your well wisher from the bottom of my heart, that's my concern that you don't end up in a situation worse than it is now
 
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