Discussion If you had unlimited access to anything, what would be your dream CTB method ?

[lost_soul83]

Propofol injection.

Omg that would be awesome! I've had propofol in the hospital and I was out like a light! That would be such a peaceful way to go!

 

[eternaltroubador]

a lethal amount of morphine would be nice. Only thing better than a painless death is a euphoric one

 

[wait.what]

Real answer: If absolutely everything was on the table, I'd probably pick some method of doctor-assisted suicide. I don't know which drug or drugs i'd pick specifically, just something that would create the experience of quietly going to sleep and never waking up.

Entertaining answer: when I was young I used to daydream about elaborate and bizarre ways to commit suicide. Basically suicide as performance art. The higher the shock value the better. My favorite scenario involved a high bridge over a river, multiple colors of body paint, and a great deal of piano wire or the equivalent.

The idea was to strip naked and paint my various body parts different colors, then fasten varying lengths of piano wire around my joints: knees, elbows, neck, etc. The other end of the wires would be affixed to the bridge railing.

I would build up suspense by just standing on the railing for a while, and then once I had drawn a sufficient crowd, I would recite a poem over a very loud PA system, probably Donne's "For Whom The Bell Tolls" or Blake's "O For A Voice Like Thunder." My impassioned performance might get some awkward applause during the dramatic pause afterward.

Then music would start, at big-city-fireworks-program decibel levels. "O Fortuna" from Carmina Burana might seem most apropos, but in my imagination it was always "Stars And Stripes Forever." At the music's crescendo, I would leap from the bridge's railing and swan-dive toward the river.

This is where the piano wire would become important. At certain carefully-calculated distances, a wire would pull taut, and the weight and momentum of my falling body would cause it to slice through my flesh at the joint like a knife through cheese: ZANG! Off would pop a foot, which had been painted a lovely sky-blue! ZANG! There goes a yellow-painted forearm! ZANG! A sparkling silver lower leg! Body parts would rain down upon the river, until at last the longest wire severed my neck, and my head (suitably attired in a fabulous ceremonial headdress) would go flying.

When they finally fished my body parts out of the water, they would find, in letters tattooed over my heart, the words: "WERE YOU NOT ENTERTAINED?"

I'm not really sure what the significance of all that is, although a psychiatrist would probably have a field day with it. I guess it's just that we all die sooner or later, usually fighting for life until our last breath, and then there's no time or agency left to make it anything but anticlimactic. But if you go out in a planned way while you're still of (relatively) sound mind and body, why not do something with that? May as well make your death as remarkable a moment to others as it is to you.

In reality, of course, none of that would even work, most likely, and it's not like you could work the problems out beforehand through rehearsing. I don't even really live in an area where assisted suicide is legal. So for realsies, it will probably be a shotgun to the head way out in the woods somewhere. That way if I fuck up the shot I can at least lie in the ground cover and bleed to death with dignity, instead of being heroically saved so I can live on with both intractable depression and half a face.

 

[megafire]

i got a really good chuckle out of imagining a somber poem being read over a low-quality, screechy PA system with some forced, awkward applause afterwards.

my last attempt involved a lot of flowers and a good deal of hand-written notes. seeing as the only things I left were the crumpled suicide notes and a good deal of flower petals, I'm sure the cleaning team can put together what happened. Kind of wish I left the rope too

Real answer: If absolutely everything was on the table, I'd probably pick some method of doctor-assisted suicide. I don't know which drug or drugs i'd pick specifically, just something that would create the experience of quietly going to sleep and never waking up.

Entertaining answer: when I was young I used to daydream about elaborate and bizarre ways to commit suicide. Basically suicide as performance art. The higher the shock value the better. My favorite scenario involved a high bridge over a river, multiple colors of body paint, and a great deal of piano wire or the equivalent.

The idea was to strip naked and paint my various body parts different colors, then fasten varying lengths of piano wire around my joints: knees, elbows, neck, etc. The other end of the wires would be affixed to the bridge railing.

I would build up suspense by just standing on the railing for a while, and then once I had drawn a sufficient crowd, I would recite a poem over a very loud PA system, probably Donne's "For Whom The Bell Tolls" or Blake's "O For A Voice Like Thunder." My impassioned performance might get some awkward applause during the dramatic pause afterward.

Then music would start, at big-city-fireworks-program decibel levels. "O Fortuna" from Carmina Burana might seem most apropos, but in my imagination it was always "Stars And Stripes Forever." At the music's crescendo, I would leap from the bridge's railing and swan-dive toward the river.

This is where the piano wire would become important. At certain carefully-calculated distances, a wire would pull taut, and the weight and momentum of my falling body would cause it to slice through my flesh at the joint like a knife through cheese: ZANG! Off would pop a foot, which had been painted a lovely sky-blue! ZANG! There goes a yellow-painted forearm! ZANG! A sparkling silver lower leg! Body parts would rain down upon the river, until at last the longest wire severed my neck, and my head (suitably attired in a fabulous ceremonial headdress) would go flying.

When they finally fished my body parts out of the water, they would find, in letters tattooed over my heart, the words: "WERE YOU NOT ENTERTAINED?"

I'm not really sure what the significance of all that is, although a psychiatrist would probably have a field day with it. I guess it's just that we all die sooner or later, usually fighting for life until our last breath, and then there's no time or agency left to make it anything but anticlimactic. But if you go out in a planned way while you're still of (relatively) sound mind and body, why not do something with that? May as well make your death as remarkable a moment to others as it is to you.

if i really had to choose, I would like something painless and quick, but i would also love to go mediveal with it. being dragged naked through the streets while i'm tied to a horse has always appealed to me

 

[LivingDeadGirl]

Id get high af on pain pills first. Then numb my wrists and slit them open slowly. Writing my note in blood on my walls. Gory, i know. Just something about bleeding out that entices me and feels poetic.

 

[Going Home]

Not anything violent. I've had enough to violence perpetrated against me in my life.

 

[balancingaqt]

Carbon monoxide or cyanide. Both seems peaceful.

 

[AnniesHideaway]

My dad took Seconal when it more widely prescribed. I do not think there is a better way to go. You just feel relaxed and fall asleep.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Lethal injection of morphine. I one time had morphine in the hospital. That was lovely

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Man, I really don't know. So many ways. Do I choose a substance that simply knocks me out immediately and leaves my corpse perfectly intact while cutting my mortal coil or do I go for something grand that makes a statement and kills multiple other people I dislike in the process?

I'm fond of the Thanos Snap from Avengers Infinity War as a way to die though if I don't destroy the gauntlet while also killing myself, there's a chance it can be used to bring me back to life which I would not want. Maybe I'll clone myself and have me and the clone shoot each other. That way would definitely satisfy my self loathing...

 

[Makko]

Man, I really don't know. So many ways. Do I choose a substance that simply knocks me out immediately and leaves my corpse perfectly intact while cutting my mortal coil or do I go for something grand that makes a statement and kills multiple other people I dislike in the process?

I'm fond of the Thanos Snap from Avengers Infinity War as a way to die though if I don't destroy the gauntlet while also killing myself, there's a chance it can be used to bring me back to life which I would not want. Maybe I'll clone myself and have me and the clone shoot each other. That way would definitely satisfy my self loathing...

Become the new Star Wars clone trooper prototype and get killed by jedis 100 000 times.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Become the new Star Wars clone trooper prototype and get killed by jedis 100 000 times.

I'd be impressed if any of them ever manage to kill anyone besides themselves.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Become the new Star Wars clone trooper prototype and get killed by jedis 100 000 times.

I wonder what palpatines things that come out of his fingers would feel like if it was real. Probably tickle a bit

 

[Makko]

I wonder what palpatines things that come out of his fingers would feel like if it was real. Probably tickle a bit

You could also become a rebel until he shoots you with Death Star.

 

[TessB]

I've always thought I'd like to lose my life in the process of saving someone else's... whatever that may entail.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I'd like to go out by booking a parachute jump with a small pouch stuffed full of hand grenades then jump out the plane and when the parachute openes the grenades go off, Maximum Splat!!! Yeah!

 

[NoneMoreNegative]

Secobarbital overdose/howitzer shot to the head.

 

[highndry]

Either gun or fentanyl overdose.

100% Either F or a gun

 

[nurplexkid]

Nitrogen gas>N>SN.

 

[Masonfight]

A hitman

 

[Donk]

Go to Pegasus or Dignitas. Enjoy sites and sound of Switzerland before I go

 

[saltshaker]

Fentanyl... or that van the nashville bomber had. Kaboom!!

 

[Deltawaves74]

simple for me a gun. take myself somewhere beautiful and lights out

 

[EraseRewind]

Lethal injection Ohio protocol. Almost impossible to assemble by an individual here.

 

[Bazzinga]

Nothing fancy a handgun would do just fine

 

[Jblack]

Long drop hanging.

 

[SheJumped]

Say my good-byes and mail final notes to people. See my little one one last time and ensure the note is ready. Whatever type of drug that would allow me to drift off to sleep and allow me to catch the bus painless with no disturbance or way back.

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

As others have mentioned, I would choose propofol. Instant bye bye.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

A giant 3D printer and all the materials to make my own Sarco.

 

[violetsaturn]

I'd probably go with a fentanyl overdose or some kind of anesthesia overdose that just puts me to sleep. As amusing as the whole "go out with a bang" thing seems, I really just want to go to sleep. I simply crave peace and rest.