If you had the chance to redo your current life with the knowledge that you have, would you take it?

[hereornot]

But too late...

 

[Spaghettii]

When i read the question, i felt like yeahh 100% ofcourse! I'll be able to take care of myself as a child and avoid certain ppl and the mistakes and change shit and my path and career and FIX everything and so on".
But tbh, i don't think i can go through it anymore.
I'm just so so tired.

 

[dela]

Absolutely. If I could redo things then I would be able to fix my mistakes and learn how to deal with my feelings from a much younger age. Then I wouldn't be this mess.

Starting over from the beginning doesn't seem ideal because there's a chance I wouldn't meet my partner the way it happened and I really don't want to lose her. I guess the best option would be to wake up and find out the last 5 or 7 years were just a dream, and have the chance to do it right this time.

 

[Plato'sCaveDweller]

I would choose eternal non-existence. I would not wish to live any life at any point in time, so especially not my own again.

But if I had to redo my life, I'd redo it with the info specifically regarding SN, so I could get it back when amazon was selling it. I would have avoided a ton of bullshit and suffering had I died 5 or 6 years ago.

 

[Aura]

For sure. If I were to go back and make some choices differently, help people when they needed it, and just be a supportive and more driven person in general. I think id be much happier. My mistakes are what led me to the way I am now

 

[AllTheseQuestions]

I'm going to sound like a cornball when I say this because of how overplayed and prosaic it is, but whenever I think of "what if" scenarios like this, I always come back to:

"If I could start again, a million miles away, I would keep myself, I would find a way."

It doesn't matter if I get a second chance, and where or when that second chance is. I'm never going to change who I am fundamentally and I'll mess it up again. It's nothing but wish fulfillment.

See I have a completely different interpretation of those lyrics.

I would keep my true self and avoid everything that corrupted me.

I would start again in a heartbeat.

 

[Chronicallyunwell]

100%

 

[brokeandbroken]

What I asked! If you were to ctb and you were given the chance to redo your entire current life, from beginning to wherever you are now, would you take it? Or do you prefer the void, the afterlife, or an alternative reincarnation?

Personally I'm not 100% sure, I guess I'm like 50/50 on it.

With the knowledge I have now? See this is difficult because I think it would make me even more relatable then I am now.

So while it is tempting. And I feel like I could definitely if I had knowledge in critical moments alter the course of my life for the better like I said I'm already completely alone I feel like this would make me alone even more. Like no one is as isolated and as alone and just as fucking broken as I am. I feel like Tom Hanks in castaway but in a major city. Sad reality is I've been this alone for the duration of my life basically. I just don't fit in with the world.

That said I would prioritize my happiness rather then future happiness far more. I felt like if you worked hard, tried to do good things, good things like happiness would follow. Couldn't be further from the truth. It was just training wheels for just a life of all consuming misery. God's grace is non existent in my life. I'm not sure how but I would.

 

[redkitsune98]

Not make the mistakes I made, meet my ex boyfriend in an earlier time of his life where I could've helped him deal with his shit better and he would have chosen to stay by my side longterm, be more smart about my money... yeah, I wish I could

 

[ham and potatoes]

Absolutely

 

[Chronicallyunwell]

100%

I would go back and never be anorexic during adolescence, never had sex with a couple of people i didnt even like, never have landed in hospital and never ended up with a chronic uti.
Lmao oh well.
I lost the game.

 

[CantDoIt]

I would go back and never be anorexic during adolescence, never had sex with a couple of people i didnt even like, never have landed in hospital and never ended up with a chronic uti.
Lmao oh well.
I lost the game.

I'm so sorry to hear about all that. Its way too easy to lose the game so early.

 

[weirdoldguy]

Maybe, I've had suicidal thoughts since I was a child around 5 years of age. Those thoughts went away growing up but crept up on me in my 20s.
I don't know if there's anything in this world I'd pursue personally, I'd be willing to try it solely because it would come after the fact that I CTB'd in this 'earth'.

After trying then I'd prefer just CTB by accident as a child if I realize if it's worth it or not. Choosing being in a state of consciousness, not really a void/afterlife/alt reincarnation but just being.

 

[lovelesslifeless]

No.

 

[Hanaga]

Anything is better than this shithole. Suffering through school again as a weak neurodivergent kid and having an incredibly abusive and violent family... Just thinking about the possibility of going through this AGAIN makes me sick. No thanks, I'll take the best from here and leave. Even the possibility of becoming rich from bitcoin will not change my opinion.

 

[mrtime87]

It'd just be another instance that reminds me that I can never do anything right the first time. I'd probably decline.

I feel the same way. If I could change myself I guess then yes, but simply fixing my mistakes, id be less suicidal but still unhappy. Deep down I know I was broken broken, with a faulty brain.

I can live with being a failure, so yeah, I guess I would redo my life. But there are huge flaws in who I am that I simply cannot fix. I know I'd still make future mistakes.

 

[ayanti]

Such a complicated question but if giving the chance, yes. I'd do it all over again, and do things right.

 

[Anathema™]

No

 

[Ariii]

Yep. I would like to see how my life would've turned out if I wasn't so afraid to do things and so focused on short-term happiness. And even in both redoing and not redoing, I can always CTB if I have the methods and courage. Hell, maybe if I redid some of my choices, I'd have a better CTB method

 

[Hotsackage]

I mean we don't choose the quantum outcomes of our observations, so it wouldn't matter. To hell with it

 

[CantDoIt]

I mean we don't choose the quantum outcomes of our observations, so it wouldn't matter. To hell with it

Could you elaborate on that a little?

 

[AliceTheGoon]

Oh hell yes, I'd be a god among men. But I'd probably get hit by a car or something.

 

[Hotsackage]

Could you elaborate on that a little?

Doesn't mean anything lol, basically just making stuff up

 

[Darkover]

hell no

 

[wCvML2]

No, after dying I'd rather stay dead and never come back. I have regrets for sure but after dying they don't matter anymore.

 

[memoriesofyesterday]

This sounds like Heaven. In a nanosecond I would.

 

[sevennn]

i thought about it. but if it was an option between peaceful death just from going to sleep or relive my life with prior knowledge i would choose to peacefully pass. living life even ideally is too much of a hassle

 

[TheBlackSwordsman]

If I could live my life again with the knowledge I have now and if I can use that knowledge to not make the mistakes that caused my big failure again I would live it again!

Ditto

 

[yariousvamp]

No, it won't change the fact that I'm poor and in a third world country lmao, I'd rather never come back again

 

[itsover404]

Absolutely. I would not have smoked as much weed nor done as many psychedelics and hopefully wouldn't have become schizoaffective. I'd still have my life.