"What I asked! If you were to ctb and you were given the chance to redo your entire current life, from beginning to wherever you are now, would you take it? Or do you prefer the void, the afterlife, or an alternative reincarnation?"
I would never want to live under any circumstances . even if time travel were possible which it is not. i wouldn't want to live any other sentient creature's life. I prefer by a trillion times what you call the void i call non-existence forever. I choose non-existence forever . suicide asap for me .
I see how dangerous , risky , burdensome life and this world is. even if it wasn't dangerous risky burdensome I would still never want to be part of this life or this world or this universe. what i want is non-existence to not exist forever.
I think every human is under threat of extreme torture for no objective purpose. life is meaningless suffering. and to work so hard just to exist so that something even more horrible could probably happen including diseases, kidnapping , parasites, and very old age which will happen.
Part of it is i don't want to be a slave in this evil oprresive world where they are about to ban SN in the U.S. for example and they make nembutal and assisted suicide a crime. another part is i don't want to be a part of something evil and i think life and this world are evil.
I wont' say everything . but i don't want anything from this evil world , evil life , conscoisness , this universe.
None of us get any real education about how to navigate the mine field that is this life / world. That's one reason you see thousands of people here just on one website suicidal. the suicidal here have had many different horrible things that happened to them. 25 million attempt suicide per year worldwide many with different horrible things happening to them .
However, Even if we had gotten some real education when young there is still no way to account for everything that could go wrong in this evil life and evil world. But most people are not even given just this little info that i started to write here in this one post , sleep deprived , late for me and off the top of my head. for example they don't tell us that this world and life is a minefield. how you have to be very very careful in anything you do otherwise it could lead to disaster.
Even if you do everything right one could get burned in a fire with 95% of skin burned off and have to live like that, kidnapped and tortured, blood vessel pops and brain damage but alive, accident from car to head and brain damage, parasites , cancer diseases and old age is inevitable and the dementia and many diseases of very old age.
No what we hear is that "life is wonderful ", "go enjoy yourself" , "Live life" . And those of us that figured out too late how bad and dangerous risky life and this world is , we are ridiculed as childish, insane or idiots or cult death cult members for saying life is bad risky dangerous evil .
There is no sense in living again because if you could fix some problems something else could arise. look at the many differrent horrible things that have happened to people just on this website and then around the world ( 25 million per year attempt suicide worldwide )
That being said time travel is absolutely impossible . once a mistake is done it it impossible to undo it. it is impossible to go back in time to try to do something differently. however imo there is one thing for me that will undo every mistake and every horrible thing and prevent any more horrible things happening to me and that is suicide . Because once i'm dead i won't exist forever. and so all the horrible things will be as if they never happened , undone , forgotten. in 150 years we will all be dead anyway and nothing we did or will do will matter then . in 1000 years even less . in a trillion years nothing will matter.
