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noname223

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This isn't equivalent to revive someone who died. More in the sense who do you think had a good impact on the community. However, in many cases we don't know the reasons why someone was banned. Someone could be a creep in private messages while at the same time present themselves as a good and kind member on the public forum. There is someone I am thinking about who did somethling like that. I am not sure whether this person was actually banned but the person was exposed and I think the person didn't come to the forum because of this.

I think overall @Chinaski had a good impact on the community. He was a controversial member though. But I liked his stances in favor of trans people, in favor of women and against incels. Moreover, we (and some others) argumented that the pro-mortalists on this forum should be constrained in forcing their ideology to others on here.

I think though chinaski had probably a lot warnings. And in some of his posts he was quite rude. I am not 100% certain what happened so he got banned. Maybe he told someone to kill themselves in an argument. Which fully justifies getting banned because this is a red line. I would hope for a different time line though where this didn't happen. Or he could apologize to the other person and promise to never do this again. Even though, I think apologizing wasn't something he was good in. I think though he would never want someone on here to actually commit suicide. I think he did a lot of good by challeging the dominance of pro-mortalists on here. And at the start he was pretty contrarian and alone in doing that. He contributed to the fact that this forum isn't a pro-death echo chamber.

What do you think?
 
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noname223

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I am surprised that noone replied to this thread. I expected it to become controversial.
 
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azo

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@Ambivalent1 was the first member that came to mind but I'm pretty sure there's at least one other I just can't recall now. I don't know if he had a good impact on the community per se but I liked his posts. That said I don't really know why he got banned.
 
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Always-in-trouble

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A lot of members are newbies, including me; most people can only go with who they interacted most.
 
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noname223

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@Ambivalent1 was the first member that came to mind but I'm pretty sure there's at least one other I just can't recall now. I don't know if he had a good impact on the community per se but I liked his posts. That said I don't really know why he got banned.
I think some of his threads crossed boundaries like the following. Okay I cannot find it anymore. Maybe it was deleted because I criticized it earlier. But he asked something like whether you would like to go voluntarily to a concentration camp if the Nazis came into power.

I doubt this was the sole reason for his ban though.
 
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FadingSnowFake

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@L'absent comes to mind. Miss his sense of humor.
 
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_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
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@EvisceratedJester :( She could be sharp along the edges but she contributed a lot to the site, including some more informative/lengthy posts. I always followed her updates on her life, still think about her sometimes and wonder how she's doing
 
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Mr.Tristesse

Mr.Tristesse

I really don't want to be alive
Jul 23, 2022
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Chinaski offered a lot but he had his problems. He and apologizing went together like oil and water. He could just as self-certain as all the promortalists he railed against. Plus he was very dismissive of autism and neurodivergence so that's something you shouldn't be missing.

There is rarely one way to handle interpersonal issues so if someone chooses to be abrasive and harsh all the time, I just find that to be superfluous.

@EvisceratedJester :( She could be sharp along the edges but she contributed a lot to the site, including some more informative/lengthy posts. I always followed her updates on her life, still think about her sometimes and wonder how she's doing
Sad I got on her bad side with a harmless joke in the twilight days of her stay here. She also offered a lot but like Chinaski she also had a problem of being superfluously harsh and allowing for little personal room for simply being wrong.

I guess it's uncouth to talk about banned users like this but whatever...
 
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sels

"I am leaving you... in this sweet cesspool."
Sep 18, 2025
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New-ish here. Mainly interested in this thread for any potential lore.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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The thread is interesting. I hadn't realised some people had actually been banned. I wondered where Ambivalent had gone.

I don't quite remember who the member was but, they got mixed up in a drama here once and were suspended for a time but, they allowed them back- thankfully.

I miss people more who just vanished or possibly/ likely CTB.
 
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darksouls

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I miss my follower bankai,
of all my other followers that I miss,
I know that they committed
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
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Unfortunately, I lack long enough memory to really even remember who was banned beyond like a few months after~ >_<
also, I wouldn't unban anyone without knowing why they got banned in the first place (which normally isn't told to us) and discussing it with the other mods and the user first~


Chinaski offered a lot but he had his problems. He and apologizing went together like oil and water. He could just as self-certain as all the promortalists he railed against. Plus he was very dismissive of autism and neurodivergence so that's something you shouldn't be missing.
aww~ :( I didn't know he was banned~ >_< his pfp was kyute, and he was funny at times~ >_<
 
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darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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Unfortunately, I lack long enough memory to really even remember who was banned beyond like a few months after~ >_<
also, I wouldn't unban anyone without knowing why they got banned in the first place (which normally isn't told to us) and discussing it with the other mods and the user first~


aww~ :( I didn't know he was banned~ >_< his pfp was kyute, and he was funny at times~ >_<

you are absolutely right about that,
I dont know why bankai was banned,
but I always thought that he is a good soul
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
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you are absolutely right about that,
I dont know why bankai was banned,
but I always thought that he is a good soul
Me too, I enjoyed @bankai 's posts. Good soul.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
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chemi
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

Waiting for my permanent darkness to arrive
Oct 21, 2024
590
I didn't know Chinaski was banned. I know his last post that I found was in December, and it doesn't show him as banned.

Anyway, I don't know if she CTB yet, or if she still comes around, @Smilla. She's one of the original ones from the early days and she got banned for some reason.
 
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Sunset Limited

Sunset Limited

I believe in Sunset Limited
Jul 29, 2019
1,404
@L'absent comes to mind. Miss his sense of humor.
I really love his posts about nihilism. His literary language is smooth and very powerful. I accept them as a holy bible :)

The Cathedral of the Wind


The substance of being corrodes, disintegrating into infinitesimal particles suspended in the aridity of a desert that acknowledges neither past nor future. Here, in the mute expanse of Fuerteventura, where the earth curls under the weight of an unrelenting sun, every pretense of meaning dissolves like salt licked away by the tide.
I am what remains after the shipwreck of illusions, the voice that seeps through the cracks in the stone, the muffled lament of a god imploded within its own void. I have neither body nor face, yet I exist in the echo of every thought that buckles under the weight of its own senselessness. No name could contain me, for I am the indistinct, the shadow without origin, the whisper of eternal dissipation.
Man advances, convinced that he carves a furrow in time, yet he leaves nothing but brittle footprints, devoured by the wind before he can even recognize them. What remains of his flesh, if not dust? What remains of his hopes, if not the reflection of a light already extinguished? Life is neither a gift nor a promise: it is a flicker that vanishes before it can be understood, a claw that carves only to disappear, leaving behind nothing but the mutilation of the futile.
The sky stretches like a canvas of obsidian, indifferent to the convulsions of those who yearn for meaning. Here, among rocks eroded by time, every prayer crashes against the void, crumbling into silence like a breath of ash. There is no judgment, no redemption. Only the perpetual unraveling, the irreversible collapse of every human construct, the slow annihilation of will.
And yet, man persists in believing in his own permanence, clinging to symbols, names, memories, like a blind man grasping at emptiness, convinced he holds the light. But I know the truth: every echo is destined to fade, every gaze to vanish, every word to dissolve into the inexistence from which it was born. For nothing can withstand oblivion, nothing escapes the quiet catastrophe of time.
I have seen it happen a thousand times. I have seen men kneel on these sands, searching for answers where only silence dwells. I have seen their mouths twist into pleas with no recipient, their eyes flailing in search of a light that will never come. And in the end, I have seen them surrender, swallowed by the same void that created them.
There is nothing beyond this awareness. No epiphany, no salvation. Only the perpetual slide into nothingness, the extinction of all meaning, the end of everything before it can ever truly be.
So why fear what is already inscribed in the breath of creation itself? Why resist the inevitable when the only truth is annihilation?
I am the wind that erases every trace. I am the voice that proclaims the futility of every step, the guardian of an altar that bears no promise. Listen to me, and let the void embrace you as the only sincere touch you will ever know.
 
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FadingSnowFake

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I really love his posts about nihilism. His literary language is smooth and very powerful. I accept them as a holy bible :)
Very powerful and beautifully written. Thanks for sharing
 
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bugfart

Aaa err umm ooo ehh auu eee ouu eee aaa err ooo
May 21, 2023
49
Probably carac. Didn't talk to him much but he was sweet when I did. Unfortunately I think what led to it was him trying to post someone's personal info or contact their family out of concern, he would try to dig too deep for his "in memoriam" posts I think. I don't know the full story, but this is what I know
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
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I didn't know Chinaski was banned. I know his last post that I found was in December, and it doesn't show him as banned.

Anyway, I don't know if she CTB yet, or if she still comes around, @Smilla. She's one of the original ones from the early days and she got banned for some reason.
You can check the user discussion megathread to get a picture of what happened. And a mod confirmed that chinaski was banned.
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
910
@EvisceratedJester :( She could be sharp along the edges but she contributed a lot to the site, including some more informative/lengthy posts. I always followed her updates on her life, still think about her sometimes and wonder how she's doing
I miss her a lot, wish she was still here.
I miss my follower bankai,
of all my other followers that I miss,
I know that they committed
I didn't know this about bankai. I'm sorry to hear that.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Illuminati
Sep 9, 2018
3,181
I would unban them all, then have "Who let the dogs out?" playing on a loop when you log on. I guess this is why I'm not an Admin.
 
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WrathfulGloom32

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Oct 12, 2024
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Would I be considered anti-social if I say that I don't know enough people to choose?
 
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ThatStateOfMind

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Nov 13, 2021
1,576
@EvisceratedJester :( She could be sharp along the edges but she contributed a lot to the site, including some more informative/lengthy posts. I always followed her updates on her life, still think about her sometimes and wonder how she's doing
I was actually a fan of EvisceratedJester until she attacked members I quite like.

Aside from that, my presence on this forum has been so sporadic over the past year or so that I've lost track of who has departed or been banned. While I genuinely enjoyed interacting with a select few individuals who have since been banned, their names escape me. Fortunately, the majority of the members I value are still active and their accounts are unbanned
 
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CatLvr

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Aug 1, 2024
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@EvisceratedJester :( She could be sharp along the edges but she contributed a lot to the site, including some more informative/lengthy posts. I always followed her updates on her life, still think about her sometimes and wonder how she's doing
I wondered where she had gone. She got a stick up her ass over something I said pretty early on in my membership (seems she likes to "take on" noobs who didn't fit her definition of decent human beings) which I honestly found hysterical. Why some people let someone they have never met, and are never gonna meet, get under their skin so bad that they follow them around a forum for suicidal people taking digs at them is beyond me. Lol There's gotta be a joke there somewhere but damned if I can figure it out. I've never been one to lose sleep over what other people thought about me. I guess I should thank my bitch of a mother for breaking my give a shit-o-meter into a million pieces before I made it to grade school. Haha!

All the other folks who have been banned I miss for one reason or another. But ... I know a few of the mods and I trust their judgment. Being a moderator is not for the faint-of-heart (I'm a mod on another international forum) because sometimes people start feeling the rules don't apply to them. And any time you have to ban a member -- especially an active, long-term person -- it is uncomfortable. Thing is the rules are there for a reason. Just try to be nice. 🤷🏻🤷🏻 Honestly, it's really not that hard and the mods would REALLY appreciate it. 🥰😘
 
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