Discussion If I didn't have .. I'd be dead by tomorrow

[AnonymousL]

If I didn't have my boyfriend I'd be dead by tomorrow. I hope he realizes that. But my time will come soon

What is your reason you're still here and can't do it (yet) ?

 

[Darkover]

simply a lack of peaceful method i would be long gone if i could just walk into a shop and get what i need to ctb

 

[strangelife]

My son. I want to live, but not in this body with illness, so I want to exit. I already have method and working on alternative.

 

[Ethernatuskoi]

My mother, family and friends. And my mind lives in a duality where at the same time that I want to die, another part of me wants to live to fulfill dreams and explore the few pleasures that life still has to offer, despite the fact that my life is boring, dull and losing the colors. But I know I won't achieve anything good in the future, so whatever.

 

[itsover090]

simplesmente uma falta de método pacífico, eu já estaria longe se pudesse simplesmente entrar em uma loja e pegar o que preciso para ctb

SN is not?

 

[FuneralCry]

Because we exist in such an hellish, evil world where there is the absence of peaceful, guaranteed ways to die for all. I'd be long gone if I could have the option of a death which is like never waking again without the fear of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering, it truly is so horrifying how in my case all the ways to die are either inaccessible or risky.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm here because all of the current methods are so terrifying and risky. Unlike what a few users here seem to think, me being alive doesn't mean that I want to live. I want to be dead and be free from suffering but I can't as the current methods are just so scary for me. One of my reasons for wanting to be dead in the first place is because of how mentally weak I am to where I react to the smallest amount of suffering and stress extremely and a suicide attempt would just amplify that due to SI

 

[lostinwoe]

no method

 

[divinemistress36]

No reliable methods

 

[filthystray]

I'm going to jump on the band wagon anf say yeah, available methods are a high risk of ending up injuring you in the long term. The second reason would be my GF not because I care for her more than my family, no but because I have told her I am suicidal and she said that if I go through with ctb then she would not be far behind me. So her insane and immature ideas keep me here as well.

 

[Unknown21]

Waiting until I'm alone.

 

[Malaria]

My loved ones, being stubborn and hopeful at times, and no accessibility to painless methods.

 

[ilovecats]

SI and the gym. Already tried with sn and failed miserably. Would've tried countless more times if I didn't have the gym.

 

[heisenberg]

my boyfriend and my little sister.

 

[Ico]

A wife and a kid that I am the sole financial support for. Without them, I'd be dead in 15 minutes.

 

[lifewasawillowtv]

Music and lack of guns/sn.

 

[vak]

Family business

I will already damage my family by ctb, but there could be legal consequences and chaos by my sudden departure. I try to be as responsible as I can to prevent it. Worst thing is they are probably still going to call me selfish even when I'm working my butt off to soften the blow right now.

 

[3/4Dead]

My mom and my close friend. Too close to them right now to do it.

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

My cats...

 

[pole]

mom and cats.

 

[dinosavr]

My family and friends or at least if they didn't live in a small town where anyone's suicidal death would become a number one headline and everyone would know about it and make stupid comments and judge them even if it's not their fault at all.

 

[Only_Lonely]

college and expectation for future.

 

[26mmmm]

If I didn't have my boyfriend I'd be dead by tomorrow. I hope he realizes that. But my time will come soon

What is your reason you're still here and can't do it (yet) ?

A chance to improve my life

 

[Raven2]

Family and lack of a decent method

 

[DarkThoughts]

Waiting for my SN to arrive, will most likely need to attempt without AEs while also living with my parents. Mainly rushed because the exposé on MDS was published the same day I ordered, so I'm incredibly anxious about a welfare check. Just adds on to the existing risk of trying to obtain it in the UK. If it arrives soon, I'll have to chance it with 4 drinks prepared.

 

[AnonymousL]

SI and the gym. Already tried with sn and failed miserably. Would've tried countless more times if I didn't have the gym.

Can you tell me more how you failed at SN ? Did you follow the regimen?

Gym is also a saving factor for me right now

Waiting for my SN to arrive, will most likely need to attempt without AEs while also living with my parents. Mainly rushed because the exposé on MDS was published the same day I ordered, so I'm incredibly anxious about a welfare check. Just adds on to the existing risk of trying to obtain it in the UK. If it arrives soon, I'll have to chance it with 4 drinks prepared.

Be careful.. you can make quite some noise

 

[ilovecats]

Can you tell me more how you failed at SN ? Did you follow the regimen?

Took meto and oxazepam but spitted the sn out. Didn't even get to swallow it

 

[inmyhead]

My mum and my cats. I've always known once my mum passed away I won't be far behind her.

 

[Guy_Smiley]

Guilt and fear. The guilt is due to how much it would hurt my family, and the fear is of death, as well as the possibility of failing and being left in a permanent state that is worse than death.

 

[Forever Sleep]

My Dad and fear of failing an attempt.