if anyone sees this in the future , please pray for me

[Yogih212]

man I just read your other post, I hope you can get through this, this is my worst fear to be honest, I want to ctb with SN too and ordered some from DSL but am worried if it's not strong enough or something because I can't test it

 

[doomedbynarrative]

My o2 levels now are 82 , then went 78 and now in 80s i took 23 grams in 50 ml water, i vomited everything after a couple of hours but i am still not okay and sleepy and drwosy and not feeling okay, idk why i am not dying, my lips and all are blue. I dont really feel my limbs

Does that mean i am resistant to SN?

Might be cause you vomited it out so it didn't have the time to absorb.

There's no shame in it though. I'm sending you many hugs

 

[absolute failure]

Did you make 2 SN Drinks? The protocol says to drink another one if you vomit

 

[dragon.//]

Goodluck i hope all goes well

 

[CatLvr]

Might be cause you vomited it out so it didn't have the time to absorb.

There's no shame in it though. I'm sending you many hugs

This a thousand times over. Take care of yourself and do not think too much right now. There is time for that later. For now, try to rest.

 

[egyptian_baddie]

Did you make 2 SN Drinks? The protocol says to drink another one if you vomit

I vomited after a while of taking drink and bg that time i was toooo tired to even have a sip on anything

This a thousand times over. Take care of yourself and do not think too much right now. There is time for that later. For now, try to rest.

I feel ashamed of surviving, it feels like i wrote this post as attention seeking when i genuinely wasnt, and now i feel like an attention whore plus dealing with thoughts of surviving after i spent all my money, so will probably end up hungry for rest of month , i am so overwhelmed, WHY DID IT NOT WORK (btw this is my second time on SN, why is my body so resilient?)

 

[Yogih212]

I vomited after a while of taking drink and bg that time i was toooo tired to even have a sip on anything


I feel ashamed of surviving, it feels like i wrote this post as attention seeking when i genuinely wasnt, and now i feel like an attention whore plus dealing with thoughts of surviving after i spent all my money, so will probably end up hungry for rest of month , i am so overwhelmed, WHY DID IT NOT WORK (btw this is my second time on SN, why is my body so resilient?)

Did you take an antiemetic leading up to ingesting the SN?

 

[egyptian_baddie]

Did you take an antiemetic leading up to ingesting the SN?

I did take anti emetics, started it even 2 days before the sn, i did everything i swear i tried my best, i am so desperate to die but my body cant fucking give up

 

[Yogih212]

I did take anti emetics, started it even 2 days before the sn, i did everything i swear i tried my best, i am so desperate to die but my body cant fucking give up

That sucks was the SN possibly not the higest purity? I read about posts of people passing away from tiny amounts of SN? Or maybe you're just very very resillient idk

 

[CatLvr]

I vomited after a while of taking drink and bg that time i was toooo tired to even have a sip on anything


I feel ashamed of surviving, it feels like i wrote this post as attention seeking when i genuinely wasnt, and now i feel like an attention whore plus dealing with thoughts of surviving after i spent all my money, so will probably end up hungry for rest of month , i am so overwhelmed, WHY DID IT NOT WORK (btw this is my second time on SN, why is my body so resilient?)

Oh my word!! NO!! DO NOT do that to yourself!! NOBODY thinks you are any of that about you!! I am so sorry you are now short on money! Been there, done that and felt the same way you do right now!! Take a deep breath and try to steady yourself a bit -- there is plenty of time to go back and examine what went wrong.

There have been SO many of us who have several attempts (even with "sure fire" methods like SN) that it is not even funny. The human mind and body is absolutely focused on ONE thing -- and that "thing" is keeping us alive no matter how bad we want to leave this world. So, DO NOT beat yourself up. The world does enough of that to us -- the last thing we need to do is pile on. Please be gentle with, and take care of, yourself. You are still here for a reason. I do not know what that reason is, but I do know you should take care of yourself for a bit, and show yourself the same grace and understanding you would show any one of us if our roles were reversed. Much love, sweetie!

 

[doomedbynarrative]

I vomited after a while of taking drink and bg that time i was toooo tired to even have a sip on anything


I feel ashamed of surviving, it feels like i wrote this post as attention seeking when i genuinely wasnt, and now i feel like an attention whore plus dealing with thoughts of surviving after i spent all my money, so will probably end up hungry for rest of month , i am so overwhelmed, WHY DID IT NOT WORK (btw this is my second time on SN, why is my body so resilient?)

Is there any way someone can get you some food or anything we can do to get you some food? Maybe someone at a mosque?

 

[jojobanana]

i see u friend and wish u peace

I did take anti emetics, started it even 2 days before the sn, i did everything i swear i tried my best, i am so desperate to die but my body cant fucking give up

I've just seen your updates i'm glad to hear you're getting some help it sounds like a difficult time. ik that guilty feeling too well but don't punish yourself. let yourself heal and rest.