
rabbithole
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- Oct 26, 2020
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For real. Anyone else at that point? I’d take the sn but I don’t have a lot of time alone.
Was thinking the same. I’m sorry life has brought you to this point man. I can’t wait til next year because my mind is rotting from the depression. I’ll be in a ward totally despondent in no time.Yeah, I was even thinking of getting lots of apples to get the cyanide from their seeds, mix it with water and gulp it.
Still, it seems I'll keep on living until next year and probably hang myself.
Wouldn’t mind the pain (or so I think now lol I’m sure I would in actuality) but dang, definitely not feasible if it’s 500 apple seeds. Sn is probably also my fate. Just need to verify the purity of mine and have time alone. I’m so afraid to find out if mine isn’t pure because it’s the only brand I can get - it ships to a locker so I picked it up there instead of my house. LW doesn’t have that option even though LW has definitely worked for people.I read about cyanide and as I recall it said you need about 500 apple seeds to get enough.
Also it's painful. SN is probably my fate.