I wish I could live alone

[Tonight634]

I wish I lived alone so that I could ctb anytime I feel the strong urge, having to wait for that rare short moment of being alone at home sucks plus the risk of being found too early is high....Just ranting again

 

[WornOutLife]

I really understand the way you're feeling.

I know you wanna ctb but, you might try to live alone enjoy some time at peace for a while before doing it.

I've lived alone for 8 years. It was the biggest challenge of my life and I worked lots so as to be able to rent whatever!!

However, last year I lost my freedom for 5 months because of my failed attempt and you can't imagine how much that sucked.

Now, I'm free again.

I hope you can live alone some day too! Just do your best to save some money and then rent a cheap place. It doesn't have to be an awesome apartment. Anything will work as long as you're alone and have peace.


Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[FuneralCry]

I know how that feels, I live with my family and there is almost always somebody in the house and I know this would stop me succeeding and being able to concentrate on a method. It's why I want to ctb in nature, somewhere isolated.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

Me too. I still live with my mum, so I don't have much time too. She goes out only for some hours and this is not enough for me.

 

[Last chance]

I live alone,it's a blessing and a curse.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

I live alone,it's a blessing and a curse.

Why a curse?

 

[Last chance]

Why a curse?

Because I spend a lot of time alone with my thoughts. It's also harder to be motivated to clean,cook and all the basic stuff when you have nobody to act normal around.

Saying that,it's also a blessing that there's no pressure for me to do anything when I'm at home.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

Because I spend a lot of time alone with my thoughts. It's also harder to be motivated to clean,cook and all the basic stuff when you have nobody to act normal around.

Saying that,it's also a blessing that there's no pressure for me to do anything when I'm at home.

But nobody could find you anytime soon if you ctb in your own apartment.

Sorry if you are in recovery. It's just what I would do immediately.

 

[OhBother]

Yeah me too. Sucks living on a military base and far away in another country... I guess that's why people go find hotel rooms or find places to be alone.

 

[Last chance]

But nobody could find you anytime soon if you ctb in your own apartment.

Sorry if you are in recovery. It's just what I would do immediately.

Yeah I could,that's one of the positives. I also have a lot of space and time to practice and don't have to hide anything.

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

Yeah I could,that's one of the positives. I also have a lot of space and time to practice and don't have to hide anything.

Yep, I really envy you.

 

[9137890]

Who are you telling this? I were ctb with SN ago 1,5 years, if my stupid lazy roommate would not be here. This makes it so much more complicate u cant imagine, especially when you are someone like me who is very afraid going outside. I hope my roommate suffers in hell.

 

[Scribble Fan]

Same. My roommate is always coming and going so I never know if it's safe to attempt or not.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I wish I did too. I can't even sleep tonight because everything in this house is a trigger

 

[Wrennie]

I wish I did too so I wouldn't implicate my parents by ordering an illegal substance to our house to CTB with

 

[Sprite_Geist]

This is very relatable for me. The thought that I could be living alone is actually comforting.