I wish I could face a life-threatening situation

[derpyderpins]

I wish I could be put in a situation where I really think I'm about to die. I want to know if it would make me suddenly snap to some great appreciation of my existence, or if I'd actually have a "whatever" attitude with no fear. Obviously I'd probably react and try to avoid pain, but would it make me reconsider how poorly I view life?

 

[mengbao]

even though I am suicidal I still am frightened when a motorbike swerved near me. I hate it.

 

[Agon321]

I think you would 100% fight for your life until the end. Even if you want CTB now, you wouldn't give up in a dangerous situation. This is how we are built.

I want CTB, but I have had several situations where I felt threatened.
I was ready to fight and if I had to, I would tear out my opponent's throat with my teeth. Or I just wouldn't give up in that situation.

Our instincts are very strong.
If you "felt" blood, you would get an additional injection of adrenaline.
It's a bit funny, but these are the facts.

What happens next after such a situation is another matter.
You will most likely go back to the settings you had before such an event.
But maybe it would make you respect your life more? I don't know, I'm not sure.
Some people change their lives after drastic situations.
I don't know if that would be the case for you.
It also depends on what type of threat we are talking about and on your current life situation.
Complicated.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Try having anxiety or PTSD. All of the feelings of being in immediate fatal danger, without ever actually being in such danger. In my case it feels like I'm about to die whenever I even think about having to confront my crush or when I might potentially have to ever see my dad.

 

[derpyderpins]

I think you would 100% fight for your life until the end. Even if you want CTB now, you wouldn't give up in a dangerous situation. This is how we are built.

I want CTB, but I have had several situations where I felt threatened.
I was ready to fight and if I had to, I would tear out my opponent's throat with my teeth. Or I just wouldn't give up in that situation.

Our instincts are very strong.
If you "felt" blood, you would get an additional injection of adrenaline.
It's a bit funny, but these are the facts.

What happens next after such a situation is another matter.
You will most likely go back to the settings you had before such an event.
But maybe it would make you respect your life more? I don't know, I'm not sure.
Some people change their lives after drastic situations.
I don't know if that would be the case for you.
It also depends on what type of threat we are talking about and on your current life situation.
Complicated.

I think you're probably right about protecting myself in the moment. But I wonder if in the aftermath I'll suddenly not dread going to work every day.

Try having anxiety or PTSD. All of the feelings of being in immediate fatal danger, without ever actually being in such danger.

I have plenty of anxiety, haha. All day every day for the most part. Anxiety is my fear of staying alive, not a fear of dying. I'd want to see if facing actual death would change that.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I have plenty of anxiety, haha. All day every day for the most part. Anxiety is my fear of staying alive, not a fear of dying. I'd want to see if facing actual death would change that.

I do have a fear of being forced to stay alive as well and would rather die than have to face the more looming threats in my life and yet I still feel fear towards basic things like bugs or heights or even getting shot by people randomly. It's not fair that my mind wants to die so desperately and yet it still feels terror at the possibility of it occurring in any way outside of what I've planned for myself like if a sudden noise happens to go off near me or I see a scary image online it all still makes me fear dying via those things.

 

[derpyderpins]

I do have a fear of being forced to stay alive as well and would rather die than have to face the more looming threats in my life and yet I still feel fear towards basic things like bugs or heights or even getting shot by people randomly. It's not fair that my mind wants to die so desperately and yet it still feels terror at the possibility of it occurring in any way outside of what I've planned for myself like if a sudden noise happens to go off near me or I see a scary image online it all still makes me fear dying via those things.

I've gotten really numbed out to things like jump-scares, and if I'm alone I'm not afraid of things like heights or random crazy people (though I fear for my loved-ones). I do have a fear of bees/other bugs that will buzz in my ears, but that's hard-wired at this point lol.

But I used to be the same way in terms of still getting scared even though I reasoned with myself that I wanted death.

 

[Aergia]

I can (kind of) relate. I've fantasised before about experiencing an NDE because a part of me likes the idea of (almost magically) snapping to some great appreciation of my existence, as you put it—suddenly being shaken out of my stasis and finding the wherewithal to improve my external circumstances.