Venting I wish dying/suicide wasn't so dramatic

[rootbeer400]

I feel like the biggest drama queen/faker too, its insane. When i put life and death into their objective perspectives it all feels so drawn out. Nothing matters and we all have to die one day so why is there so much thought put into every single action and choice we make. I don't want that, maybe some people do but I'm sick of existing and living. I don't have a grand reason or some heartbreaking trauma that seems justifiable to commit, I'm just not meant to live as human ig. This reality is insane and everyone just goes about their days, how do people do that? It does seem like the biggest lie to me, which makes it fake and performative and so dramatic. This site adds to that surrealness. Seriously what the fuck, what does anything matter. I feel so fucking stupid for wanting to die, just to not exist.

 

[sleepytime5]

I feel like the biggest drama queen/faker too, its insane. When i put life and death into their objective perspectives it all feels so drawn out. Nothing matters and we all have to die one day so why is there so much thought put into every single action and choice we make. I don't want that, maybe some people do but I'm sick of existing and living. I don't have a grand reason or some heartbreaking trauma that seems justifiable to commit, I'm just not meant to live as human ig. This reality is insane and everyone just goes about their days, how do people do that? It does seem like the biggest lie to me, which makes it fake and performative and so dramatic. This site adds to that surrealness. Seriously what the fuck, what does anything matter. I feel so fucking stupid for wanting to die, just to not exist.

I've been saying man, like why cry that much, I would have died anyways + I wouldn't have remembered anything, like move on please it's not that deep. People are so brainwashed, I am not gonna lie I never gave a fuck or felt sad about someone dying, suicide or not, friend family whatever, literally whatever, I am as narcissistic as it gets but even I see how fucked up crying your ass over someone ending it is, they were in pain stop making it about yourself. On the other hand it breaks me to see suicidal people or people suffering

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Maybe it depends on the person. I want mine to be as undramatic as possible. Here one day, gone the next. Short, concise note, no funeral, no obituary, no drama.

 

[iw2begone]

I feel like the biggest drama queen/faker too, its insane. When i put life and death into their objective perspectives it all feels so drawn out. Nothing matters and we all have to die one day so why is there so much thought put into every single action and choice we make. I don't want that, maybe some people do but I'm sick of existing and living. I don't have a grand reason or some heartbreaking trauma that seems justifiable to commit, I'm just not meant to live as human ig. This reality is insane and everyone just goes about their days, how do people do that? It does seem like the biggest lie to me, which makes it fake and performative and so dramatic. This site adds to that surrealness. Seriously what the fuck, what does anything matter. I feel so fucking stupid for wanting to die, just to not exist.

well if it helps, you never asked to be here in the first place. there's no reason to feel stupid for wanting out of something you never asked for.

plus, I think it's better to go by your own choice/your own terms than a random event.