Venting I was scrolling through this site while sitting right next to my friends

[grass]

I feel horrible. There are so many people who are lonely and feel miserable for not being able to make friends, especially ones as kind and genuine as mine and while being in their company, not only was I being distant and unengaging as always, but I was also casually looking for advice and tips for suicide on this site without any consideration about how they might feel if I ended myself.


I'm actually annoyed at myself for feeling guilty about this because I hate when people say that suicide is selfish and I will never agree with it but it also kind of feels like a slap in the face to all the people who don't have a whole friend group who they can open up to.
Idk I guess this is just another instance of my mind finding any possible way no matter how stupid to make me hate myself even more. Also first post kinda nervous hi

 

[swiftdasher]

absolutely not. if your life is shitty enough to the point where you're actively considering ctb, you certainly don't owe anyone anything.
people are always in their own little worlds, in their own heads without a care for anyone else, even if they show some care sometimes, it's often so they can feel good about themselves and how magnanimous they're being.

So no, you're alright. the only one you need to care for is you.