Venting i was cooked since the moment i was born

[wowomg]

idk how to redact sorry
i have adhd and dysautonomia (heart problem kinda that makes u dizzy and nauseous most of the time for those who don't know), my adhd makes my life hell so im failing at everything, which in turn causes me to be depressed, SO, i CANT treat my dysautonomia cuz it's ass by itself and i forget about my meds and my doctor's indications cuz of my adhd plus the depression brain fog, i CANT treat my adhd cuz it's ass by itself PLUS my dysautonomia makes me not be able to take most pills for it and the ones that i can take don't work for me and depression makes me not want to even try, and i CANT treat my depression cuz it's ass by itself and doing most self-care shit which involve going outside and exercise and stuff make me dizzy and nauseous cuz of my dysautonomia, PLUS my insufficiency caused by my adhd caused my depression which caused me to think more about living as a whole which caused me to determine its not worth it, so yeah.
i was born to ctb.

 

[tonicer]

I know how you feel. I was born with my umbilical cord wrapped around my neck multiple time. I think i suffered damage from it. My brain works pretty well but i must be very weird looking or even down right ugly to most people. I'm 40+ now and i never had a girlfriend or even got a hug from a girl or woman other than my mom who always says i am good looking but i guess a good mom has to say that. I studied hard and got a good degree but no company wants to give me a chance. I go to an interview and they reject me a couple days later, this happened over 25 times now. I must gross them out or something. CTB is my only future.