Discussion I want to try Heroin

[charcoalcat]

Just do it. If you're gonna ctb, ctb without regrets. But take note, as one of the posters mentioned above, that shit will make you pro-life (at least when you're on it).

Ps: Remember the point of time in your life you felt the most shitty and depressed? The come down (withdrawal) will intensify that feeling x10. That's how people get addicted. To escape from that hellish feeling.

 

[drune11]

Not heroin, but I wish I could get a hand on some Fentanyl to CTB

 

[Nolife33]

It's nothing special my friend, I prefer MDMA or Coke

 

[Manaaja]

I always wanted to try speed which is called amphetamine I guess. My stress, focus problems and anxiety make me freeze so it would be nice to be a sonic for a day.

 

[Nolife33]

Amphetamines are good too, or the speeed (which is teh same)

 

[LastRide]

I was addicted to opiates for almost 10 years, from before I was even a teenager. Heroin is fun at first but be warned, it's SO addictive and the withdrawals are absolute hell. Truly indescribable torture.

I also tried to intentionally OD and did a massive amount...it just hurt. I didn't even really pass out. Unfortunately I'm cursed with a massive tolerance while I watched others literally turn blue and start to die in my arms on $10 worth.

How big was the massive amount? And very strange you did not pass out, I do now and then even without taking an OD, just on the regular dose...and what was hurting you exactly? I cannot imagine feeling anything when being on H, I started using to relieve pain so I find your reaction to it curious....thanks for explaining !

 

[Niko66]

I took opioids for barely a few weeks and each time it made me more sick, it's great when it's dulling out the pain but everything else about them is pretty terrible, I really wanted to not be in pain but at the end of the day it does the opposite effect because it's not something you can sustain, I can only imagine thiis is more so true with heroin.

While there's always risks involved, any drug has the potential to ruin a life, and there's always freak cases of people reacting badly or triggering something from a drug (this is true for legal drugs as well even though they don't like to tell their patients that) I think if one wants to try drugs there's a lot of better starting points that can potentially be fun with less dire consequences.

The idea of going out with a bang is something I can understand but do be mindful that heroin is a very slippery slope to walk on, you really don't want to fall into that addiction, you really have be clear about what you are doing, which is difficult with mind altering substances.

 

[Someone123]

SN method after christmas:)

I think heroin will make these last days more miserable than you can imagine pretty fast- there is such a risk of making your last days so much more painful. Why not try some things that don't have such a huge downside risk.

 

[deathgripsme]

I think heroin will make these last days more miserable than you can imagine pretty fast- there is such a risk of making your last days so much more painful. Why not try some things that don't have such a huge downside risk.

any suggestions?

 

[Someone123]

any suggestions?

Eating all kinds of foods that are bad for your long-term health- that's one I've been doing. I have to admit I sleep a lot- my favorite moments these days are when I wake up half awake and I think my life is a lot better than it is, then when I wake up all the way I'm like damn, what a mess- if I coul dgo back to my twenties I could fix this mess. Somebody above suggested some other drugs, they likely are better- I don't know much about those, but I do know that heroin hurts you a lot faster and a lot worse than any other drug I've heard of. If you like to drink maybe some of this can help. I do pass a lot of time watching certain youtube channels- MrBeast, ThatWasEpic, an BigDawsTV- it's nice to see someone helping others, and they all do big charitable things, and they have really good humor too. Spending time chatting here on this site with people who understand severe depression better than most therapists also helps. Just some thoughts. You can always send a private message too if you would like- due to various factors I am stuck here until at least January.

 

[Insomniac]

Just do it.

stupid.

 

[Lifessocruel]

I have Morphine which has a similar affect but just alot weaker, heroin converts into morphine when it reaches the brain.

 

[aristotle is ok]

I had a romantic obsession with drug use in my teens. I found my way to heroin. It's nothing like it's depicted in movies or TV. Not really. You would only find commonality in its depictions once you have tried but you'd also see the misconceptions made. It's a nice drug. Don't get me wrong. It's not all tripping and extacy fueled writhing around though. More like a warm blanket and a hot coco on winters day mixed with hugs and love from a significant other and maternal figure mixed into one. Unfortunately that only last for a short period and then it's gone and you're sick most of the time. Chained to the chase to avoid being ill without it. It's a horrible existence at that point and everything else loses value. I'd advise steering clear as you would probably end up trying to stay alive just chasing an ever illusive return to the honey moon period of getting high and end up dying a really shit death after screwing up anything that still means anything to you at the current moment.

BEST DESCRIPTION of the effects of the first few times using, AND the obsession/compulsion/NECESSITY to chase the next, and the next, and the next fix. It becomes YOUR FULL TIME JOB to somehow get the cash and chase the dealer. Horrible way to live. BUT, if I could get some to take myself out...tat's the way I'd want to CTB.

 

[wljourney]

Is sn seconal?

No SN method is short for sodium nitrite.

It's also described in the PPeH book.