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throbinhood

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Aug 3, 2026
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My friend says stuff like "well if you're going to die soon ,why not go out with a bang,go to a club and start dancing like it's your last day alive ,kill a billionaire or smth like that" and it just makes me wanna cry. I don't wanna do that,I don't wanna do that ever ,I don't want to do anything. I want to go out quietly,living out my last days as I always do ,boringly and miserably — my upcoming suicide doesn't grant me any new bravery ,just more fortitude to deal with the shit that goes on in my head in my boring ass life. I'm not fun ,I never was fun ,I'm boring ,I'm boring I'm boring ,and I'll die boring.
 
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undecidedfool

undecidedfool

I'm just here.
Oct 29, 2024
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I feel similarly. The closest thing to a bang for me is getting more fast food than normal, and I don't think that counts
 
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valar_morghulis21

All men must die.
Jul 17, 2026
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Good thing is you can do whatever you want
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
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My friend says stuff like "well if you're going to die soon ,why not go out with a bang,go to a club and start dancing like it's your last day alive ,kill a billionaire or smth like that" and it just makes me wanna cry. I don't wanna do that,I don't wanna do that ever ,I don't want to do anything. I want to go out quietly,living out my last days as I always do ,boringly and miserably — my upcoming suicide doesn't grant me any new bravery ,just more fortitude to deal with the shit that goes on in my head in my boring ass life. I'm not fun ,I never was fun ,I'm boring ,I'm boring I'm boring ,and I'll die boring.
Me neither. I lived my life as a peaceful pacifist person who disliked violence, and I will ctb in a quiet way. In the past year I did some things that were within my reach with my painful joints like going to luxury restaurants, trying some exotic foods with my life savings. That was my "bang" so to speak 😊


I hope you guys and girls on this forum won't take this against me, but when I ctb I don't even plan on posting a goodbye thread. I just like to go out quietly like a candle that has been burning for far too long and has no more fuel left.
 
starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
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if your friend is not as suicidal as you (if at all), I would stop taking suicide advice from them.

"going out with a bang" has got to be the dumbest shit you can say to someone who wants to die.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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I mostly lived a quiet life. Then decided there needed to be something more and put myself out there. Huge regret. Should have stayed in the shadows.
But no, definitely no going out with a bang.
 

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